Functional alcoholism

When my thyroid stabilized,  I felt shitty from 18-20. I didn’t start psychotropic meds until I was 20 anyhow. I started drinking at home at 18. I became a functional alcoholic in 2002. It was beer and wine. I tried shots in college. I’m surprised that I functioned at our parties in the dorms. I was a functional alcoholic from 2002 to 2010. I quit caffeine in 2011. My roommates were all heavy drinkers. I was able to join in. I had somebody not living with us steal my tequila so I locked it away. Alcoholism is sustained by peer  pressure. I’m surprised my roommates could function as they were all drug addicts too. One threatened to cut my tubing describing exactly how she would do it while I was asleep. I figured out she was lying about her age. This was an intuitive thing on my part.  She kicked me out that night for calling a cop on her since she was making valid death threats. I spent the night at the house of a friend of my mom’s  barely able to sleep. I was probably manic since emotional abuse, psychological, and verbal abuse all sets off mania for me. I have to leave that situation in the now if it does happen. I made my boyfriend some more basil which can keep your aura clear of influence. I use it too.