Why Money Makes Me Paranoid

In the house I grew up in, money was something to be fought over. It wasn’t always given freely between the two of them, nor something that was seen as a necessity. Money was funneled to private school education for me but not to get me pediatric onset schizoaffective and OCD medication. I spent my childhood untreated, without knowing that medication could make me feel good. But anyway, I learned that money causes couples to fight, so it made me feel like it is better to not have money if it makes people uncomfortable. My money anxiety is such that I’d rather stay low income than make real money if it makes my family want to manipulate me out of it.