Spending Money Anxiety

I have anxiety about spending money, because I fear having money in the first place. I don’t want an empty life spending money on clothing and nothing else. I have trouble spending money on myself. I’m actually scared of spending money on myself. I feel I should put myself in mental health rehab treatment at Bridges to Recovery, in Los Angeles. I feel a strong need to get treatment but I can’t afford it. In order to begin to remotely treat everything I’m dealing with, I need mental health rehab at that organization. I want to make money so I can put myself in their hands. My anxiety is something I can cope with but I’m half-assed about it. I need to deal with it better.