I Give up!

I’m fed up with not having a job. I’m a stable disabled person who works hard. I’m busy writing copy at home but my knee injury which is getting better, kind of makes people not want to hire me just in case. I need a job with a four hour shift. I take classes at Work 2 Future in San Jose. I want to work for Tuesday Morning, in retail, at their Blossom Hill/Santa Theresa location. I had to dump a doctor who disagreed with my decision to try to make enough money to get off of SSI. I am very low income. I do my best to save money though and I have a system I’m really good at sticking to. I pay all major bills on low income. I’m quite successful at it. I have no idea why I’m doing so well but I am. It really must be the medication I take to treat my schizophrenia. I’m also on the bipolar spectrum. I even got myself the good stuff for my OCD, which is more or less under control. It was a long journey for me to find the right treatment. I want a job in many different fields, and I really have to start making decisions as to which ones.

One field is private investigation. Another is computer repair. I really have a variety of interests. One of my quirky plans is to set up a picnic table in my house and build a science lab where I can build laptops using all American made parts. I have around 80 business ideas and more books since I have a B.A. in creative writing from San Francisco State. I also have an A.A. in creative writing from Foothill College. My third degree is an A.A. in anthropology with honors. I want to have an extra table to put my other computers on. My desktop needs a monitor I can’t afford and my laptop needs to be resurrected since it was sabotaged. I can get an equivalent model from Amazon for $319. It will not have Word or Excel on it since I’m dirt poor but it will have LibreOffice. Also on this extra table will be a chemistry set and my sewing machine, which I need to learn to use. I’m 4’10 and pants are hard to find along with shoes. I have to manually hem my pants. Shoes are an incredible pain to find as I’m a size 4 narrow or 35 in European sizes. I’m also on the quest to find high-rise jeans since I really hate low-risers for various reasons as to what they like to show off. I keep my body parts hidden, to myself.

I live my life within a series of daily parameters, as in, one driving chore, one walking chore, per day. I managed to sleep tonight from 8:00 p.m. – 10:00 p.m., and I woke up at 10 to have a snack. I went back to sleep from 10:00 p.m. to 5:00 a.m. I also managed to wake up, eat breakfast, and go back to bed at 5:00 a.m. – 7:00 a.m. I got a great night’s sleep tonight. I’m seeing if I can repeat this endeavor consistently. What will it take to get one company to hire me? I write copy for a website online that pays you to write automatically accepted articles. I need legitimate companies to hire me. I feel at this point that I’ll never get a job and I may as well give up on being hired anywhere. Yeah, nobody’s going to hire me because I have a disability. I give up now. Unless somebody wants to prove me wrong.