Why I Fear Crowds

I fear crowds because I died in mob violence often throughout my past lives. This is a PTSD trauma. Whole crowds of people would attack me because of my talents, despite how much I’d helped my community. I have significant past life trauma of lynch mobs, as well as just plain being assassinated. I’m better about crowds in the present, having gotten on the right meds. But I am still terrified of people mobbing me in general. I once went to a Momentum for Mental Health party. I was mobbed by a group of therapists who were saying my name loudly until somebody stopped them. It was a crazy-making experience.

I’m now stable, and I’m relieved that people picking on me is few and far between. I’m just happy that I’m stable. Although, hey I have a big boil on my chin, which is making me feel very run down. I’m looking into my Beach Body account whose link is right here.

(https://mysite.coach.teambeachbody.com/?coachId=1662196&locale=en_US)

You guys know I’m trying every which way to make money. I mean I’m trying everything and it’s mother. In which case, I leave the link for your amusement. Some find my low-income struggling bemusing since they talk the talk about how I can’t make money at all and should stay on SSI. I’m referring to people who are not just The Ferengi, but a doctor I used to see. Stay on SSI? Me? No. I have stuff to get done, like school, and physical therapy eventually leading me to getting back on track with my martial arts hobby. Yes, I have hobbies. Painting will be another one that I can make money off of. I need to make money though, flat out. The website works, I’m eager to test it on somebody.

I’m fed up with being low-income, so I’m working on finding a work from home job since brick-and-mortar jobs in the real world expect a working knee. I’m giving up on an outside of the house job for now, and focusing on Internet jobs. I’m very close to a full night’s sleep. I’m close to winning the war despite the boil. My face is breaking out right now. I’m fed up with this. It is a summertime breakout related to hot weather. I have a swimming pool in my condo complex, well, two, actually. I go the pool when I need to but the boil gives me pause. I break out when I eat something with high fructose corn syrup in it.

I notice this often. I have ketchup that doesn’t have high fructose corn syrup, known as Simply Heinz. I’m doing relatively well with my health because of that breakout. I yelled at the boil, and I put ice on it. I view illness as unwelcome in my body. I make demands of my body to heal. I cut myself on a can I’m practicing my PK on but I managed to stop the bleeding by saying “cut stop bleeding.” My abilities are interesting to fiddle with.