Blog Post: Why Schizophrenics Hear Voices

We schizophrenics, hear voices. This is a fact of life. My voices call me a retard and abuse me just like my family has. That can be improved with therapy however so I can build a better self-image. You see, my self-image problems are magnified sometimes. I wonder all sorts of dark things I’m not prepared to say out loud. I do have hallucinations like I’m made of a bunch of insects or snakes. Or my room is filled with snakes, similar to that one Indiana Jones movie when this happens. I’m able to get rid of these delusions because of my meds, which other people in my family do not understand help this stuff go away.

Cognitive behavioral therapy may help the voices go away, but fat lot of good that does me because I have to have a good therapist for that, a real Ph.D. Group therapy as well as family therapy may be useful for this stuff. I have no intention of dying early although some people refuse to pay for my law degree or any further academic work. I only had them pay for a year of San Francisco State when I got my bachelor’s because after that I got a scholarship every semester for two years. I refuse to die early because I’m a tough bitch. Schizophrenics die early? (https://www.livingwithschizophreniauk.org/people-with-schizophrenia-are-dying-too-early/)

I do not want to die young. I’m going to make it to old age. I have friends who are ancient like one of my Work 2 Future teachers who will not blab about how old he is but I’m curious since he got skinny, which extends his lifespan. The brain of a schizophrenic lights up as they hear voices as if they are really hearing them, when in an MRI machine. The voices are real to us. So I wonder how those not on mediation cope since the voices can get mean and nasty. I know that people who hear voices sometimes act on what the voices say to do. Voices are mean to you, this is the nature of who they are. This is why in ancient times, schizophrenia was thought of as demonic possession. You can be schizophrenic, and have demonic possession though, as is prevalent in my family. The voices say really mean things designed to wear you down. It is their nature, but the duty of those of us on meds is to never listen to them when they say meaner things. Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade had great lives, but they were depressed. I hope that when I get to this point, I don’t do anything silly like freak out enough to put myself in a psych ward, if only because I feel bad about succeeding. Yes, I worry this will happen when I get my Ph.d. if there is ever money for that.