Pros and Cons of Getting a Good Nights’ Sleep

I made myself a list of pros and cons. I managed to sleep tonight from 9 p.m. – 9:00 a.m. even if I woke up in the a.m. hours. I managed to wake up at 4:00 a.m. in the morning, then I woke up at 6, then I woke up at 9.

Pros Cons

Feeling rested If I don’t get enough sleep, I can’t control my abilities.

Being able to make Continuing to not feel well.
sense when I write

Feeling good more often. Feeling bad.

Being able to control CON Still feel pervasive anxiety all the time
my emotions/ since I have many different forms of anxiety
keep my energy in place.

Mom can’t attack me Mom gets to attack, feed, drain, and make me feel
In the middle of bad, continuing to use my disability as an excuse
the night so much, and not to control me.
as much during the day.

I manage stress better CON I deal with way too much stress.

Less anxiety CON Too much anxiety and why the hell should I feel guilty for sleeping well?

Feeling good being able to give people shit

Being able to give people shit CON not being able to rise to the occasion when I need and make it funny.
Able to stand up for myself.

Fulfilling my destiny CON everything is half-assed.

Making money CON Not having enough of that.

I want to sleep
The whole night. CON Mom doesn’t want me to sleep or herself to sleep since she can’t put together the fact that meds do that for you.

I get shit done. I don’t get as much done.
I can work full-time I don’t work full-time, it has to be part-time.