A Guide to Diabetes Management

I woke up deliberately at midnight tonight. Then I kept waking up and couldn’t go b back to sleep as I was seized with an urge to write. I have been on my computer since 4:00 a.m. this morning. I’ve also maintained stable blood sugars the whole morning. I adjusted my midnight basal rate, which is the amount of insulin you get hourly. Infusion is 24/7, this is a fact of life for people with diabetes. Another fact about my diabetes is the way I haven’t passed out, except in Chile around Christmas 2006. I let my parents push me around that day.

I should have told them to stop but I wasn’t strong enough as my energy was hijacked and I was vulnerable. But anyway, I haven’t passed out since then, ever. That’s 12 to 13 years. Diabetics who pass out is a stereotype that some of us are subjected to. Low blood sugar can make one look very drunk sometimes, causing a police officer to jail a person who is merely in need of sugar, glucose tablets, and food. I walk around and get low sometimes as my diabetes educator just told me I have hypoglycemia unawareness. Somehow I have stayed conscious through bad lows, like being 30 or 24. I have lived through those. But anyway, I raised my 12:00 p.m. basal rate, soon I will stop having to wake up so much. I did sleep well today even if I woke up very early and started my writing for the day. I am winning the war, provided that I do not loose an infusion set through psychokinesis bending the needle. When my blood sugar is stable, I feel better. I don’t feel my energy going every which way. Lows do that, highs make me depressed.