Why My Fiction Scares Me

My fiction feels way too intense to write or yank out of my head despite ideas rattling around in there to the point it is almost physically painful.  I’m trying to meditate using a Lemurian crystal, which does help a bit. I’m busy writing a non-fiction book, but all my writing topics are scaring me, in particular my fiction.  I have the next book in the Opening New Dimensions series stuck in my head along with the other sequels.  I’m trying to get it all out of me, but my hernia is causing me pain, which is making my writing difficult to piece together.  Yes, I’m ready for hernia surgery by now because I want to be able to have chocolate again.  I used to write 10 pages of fiction a day way back.  Now it is one page of non-fiction.