Rant on What the Cylon Did

The Cylon basically pissed me off for the last time. She is irresponsible, and dates men older than her who want to hurt her. This is why I’m done with her lazy bullshit. She can’t get anything done because she’s unstable. She lets people talk her out of taking her medication or at the very least, out of singing and even out of going to therapy. She can’t stand up to her parent’s constant invasion of her privacy. Or their tampering with her medication. If the Ferengi (my parents), pulled that, well, I establish consequences. I have made some of the Ferengi shake in fear.

Yes, I intimidate others to induce them to tremble like a leaf. I love making people shake when I give them shit. This will serve me well the rest of my life, even when I’m terrified of law school. You could say I’m easily scared. But then again I’m working on that. I don’t necessarily have a therapist, I have a social worker who serves as a therapist. I do not know when I see them next, however, because I’m wondering when I’m going to have the time. I will attempt to make myself go to see them when I find the time.

I’m trying to make something of myself by going to Work 2 Future classes. I’m doing everything I can to do well with those. I did blow off accounting and bookkeeping because I was feeling overwhelmed. The first time in my life I dropped everything, happened the last time I was at work 2 future. I have to drop stuff sometimes when I feel overwhelmed. I know how overload feels like now. I’m fed up with people who do not take good care of themselves since I’m the only one responsible for myself now. If I fuck up, there are extreme consequences, as in, not feeling well. Depression is not fun, having suicidal thoughts is not fun either. We responsible folk take our medication but others who are not such do not take their meds. I’m livid at the Cylon for fucking up one too many times. How irresponsible. Admit it, you can’t take responsibility, so I dumped you, the end.