Some People Can’t Stop Harassing

There is a certain class of person out there that will not stop bullying no matter how many boundaries are set. I had roommates like this. Yes, they enjoyed their aggression. Being mistreated where I lived at school just brought up a ton of childhood feelings. Constant drama aggravated my C-PTSD. I wonder who actually gave my bullies shit for being bullies? How many people spoke out because my bullies were also all on the narcissism spectrum. It was a nightmare since one threatened to cut my tubing at night.

They were all jealous of me in addition, jealous of my good-heart. They had rabid jealousy problems. I tried to keep my disability a secret but my acne definitely got worse from the high cortisol I generate when I’m very stressed. There is a certain type of boil-causing virus that can be infectious to other people. They wanted to destroy my health on top of that, offering me cake once, which I took and I should have taken more insulin for. These days I’m willing to experiment with sugar-free cake and lactose-free baking. I’m also trying the less carbohydrate diet.

My goodness, the roommates were inconsiderate of my mental health and my needs. Every time they got mad at me, they made their beds. I’m sure many people were appalled. I can find a bully in 0-60. I knew this immediately when I met them all. We couldn’t stand each other or group meetings/having to talk to each other in general. The school had a bully in the office that wouldn’t let me move. I felt like some of my roommates were going to get homicidal. I saw my roommate after I moved. She was paranoid about people being racist toward her. All my roommates, however, were unhappy with themselves, because all of them were paranoid. My immediate roommate was a drug addict. The school didn’t do enough to address their behavior. I had transferred to my college at 24. The thing is, that was the only way my parents could cope with me being gone would be if I took way too long to graduate and because of my alcoholism, my untreated or improperly treated schizophrenia. Yes, college sucked and then I moved out to another house where people were actually studying because I lived with a graduate student in those days, which was much against the rules. But then so was extreme bullying behavior.