Psychokinesis is Unnerving for Me and Others

I do understand that psychokinesis is easily faked or disproven. But in my case, it happens a lot. I cannot necessarily pick when it does happen. All I know is I feel a rush from the top of my head down to my hands, through my feet, and into the ground. I have yet to meet other psychokinetics, which means I have to have a party with those folks at some point, but please do not say uneducated things about my use of Western medicine. This is something that really talented people who live on the fringes of society do not necessarily understand.

See that doorknob? The dent is in the lock, the lock that you have to turn to shut he door to the garage altogether. My doorknob has a permanent dent. If my family should change the doorknob when they come back, that wipes out the evidence I did something. I also messed up my printer’s tray. The tray can no longer fit inside the printer. I buried it deep in my drawers so I won’t have to look at it. Sometimes my abilities scare me, since no one in my family talks about their own.

I’m the only one who bothers to be open about this stuff. I’m deliberately open because I cannot always hide my abilities although in college I worked very hard to hide them. I didn’t see a proper psychiatrist until 2012, when I was adequately diagnosed schizoaffective. In no way, does my best cover story I’ve ever had, having a mental illness, stops my abilities. In fact, many can be triggered by anxiety, life-or-death, omfg fight or flight responses, if I feel like I’m in immediate danger. This is when I bend keys before getting into my house.

This is why I keep my keys in a plastic medication container, without a key ring. I have to consciously shut off the ability in order to take a key out. The key can be taken out while I still my mind. I have to touch the plastic in order to focus myself into not activating the PK, which is activated by many a mental health trigger, of which I know all my triggers by now. Per my discussion with a peer counselor, feeling good can itself, be triggering. I feel good these days but I’m not about to say that I feel guilty about feeling good. That guilt has to stop.