Why I Became Pagan

I found the Catholic Church dull and boring. The occult is simply more fun, period. I wasn’t allowed to practice witchcraft until I was 20. I got on proper medication at 20 too. Or at least what passed for proper since I didn’t see a schizophrenia-believing shrink until I was at least 30 in 2012. Being unstable is a huge hot mess. It is not fun. Some people have fun with that but mental health symptoms are torture for me. I hate the fact that my energy can damage somebody else’s when manic. I could have really hurt people in high school. But hey, this ball was more in my families’ court. The Constitution of the United States guarantees freedom of religion in our first amendment. I value this freedom of choice since I wasn’t granted proper choices in high school at all, and this continued with me going to Mass until I was 20 when I said, in 2002, whatever. Now that I’m finally stable, I still have to be careful with magick since it is powerful stuff. It can kill you if you do not treat it respectfully. Wielding magick against another can hurt them. Thoughts are things, thoughts can hurt other people. This is why we pagans with mental illness have to be wary how we treat our energy and the energy of others.