I have little income right now because in fact, I’m low income enough to say I have to cancel my insurance. I may even seek a refund of $84.84 from the last time I paid my insurance, which was last month. I’m going to pay off my credit card bill while I don’t have a job since I didn’t pay it off when I had one. I showed poor judgment with that action, despite my Lamictal, which gives me good judgment. I will pay off that credit card bill, as I feel it strongly necessary to do so. I put away my credit card this morning because my bill is at $1,001. I paid $25 of it yesterday, so off I go to look for new jobs. I will get $5 a week cash back every Friday. It will add up to $15 a month extra to help pay off that bill as the bill is scaring me.
Nobody is able to notice just how much alcohol has been had at social events. It would be nice if some would work on this tendency as some people like that are in denial, denial not just being a river in Africa. You people and your booze. Why and what is it about your alcohol use that makes you think you are badass? Alcohol does nothing but mess up your brain. Why? Because it is a substance that acts as a depressant, that’s why. Alcohol is actually made of fermented wheat in the case of beer, or fermented grapes in the case of wine. The thing is that alcohol is all about getting you drunk, because alcohol does that. Vodka is made of water and ethanol.
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A 12 step program only works for you if you show up to meetings, such as Underearners anonymous, where I’ve done at least one phone meeting. The 12 step program is all about showing up. You also have to work on yourself, just by keeping yourself clean from your addiction. I’d go to Emotions Anonymous a long time ago. I’d say by now that I got my anxiety under control although OCD can cause more anxiety in a person because of the way it makes you second-guess yourself. OCD and all mental illness really, is like having an insane bully in your head that tells you every mean thing you’ve ever been told.
I want to study disability law, immigration law, entertainment law, patent law, business law, and copywrite law/writing law. But anyway, I’m just listing my other legal interests. I want to study law because I’m interested in bringing more justice to my life and the lives of others. I also want to become a judge someday, along with but not limited to using my law degree as a means of being able to be qualified to run for office, whether in Los Angeles or San Jose. I’m trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life now that I’m finally stable, which took me a long time to get to this point today.
I have finally met others with 22q. It is interesting because I know I sleep more than they do. Some are like me, waking up in the middle of the night while having a hard time going back to bed. I’m in woozy, high blood sugar mode, which is why I’m not driving right now to begin with. We 22q folks need more sleep than average because of our chronic illness. To be as sleep deprived as I was growing up in my adult life, means that I’m giving up on myself. I cannot allow myself to go back to that. I want to pretty much sleep enough to be able to function like I got last night.
I was bullied by a bigger bully than myself for lightly punching a girl in the arm at lunch because she was making me throw out my lunch while at the same time, humiliating me into getting lunch with more calories than that lunch which I was bringing from home. Okay, so he punched me in the back. But then my sophomore year, and his junior year, I stood up for myself one day by saying, “if you ever touch me again,” I learned about how to use a well-placed threat. I learned how to set a boundary. Yes I was learning how to establish consequences also. He never bothered me again.
I call them the New World Order rather than the Illuminati only because I am using this term as part of my style guide for my media company that I will eventually put together. The New World Order is a turn of phrase, referring to the ones who actually run this planet right now. They are a group of people considering themselves the elite, because the 1% entrepreneurs manage to own that percentage of the wealth on this planet. The New World Order is made up of the rich and powerful, like former U.S. Presidents, some of whom are passed now such as Ronald Reagan, but who were outstanding members of the private enterprise that calls itself the New World Order.
Yes, I know I’m wanted there, and that someday when I have enough money, I will be able to go visit. Sedona is a city where there are many psychics? Is it known for being a place where psychics congregate? According to the Wikipedia, Sedona has rock art left over from the pre-historic Archaic peoples that used to inhabit the area. Other native groups inhabited ancient Sedona, but modern Sedona is settled. I want to see the Sedona spiritual vortices for myself, as well as the bookshops that exist in the city. I could have many clients from the city itself for the Shadow Network. In the present, I do not necessarily have the money to do stuff like visit Sedona right now, especially not with a viral pandemic going around.
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Yes, I take a skeptical prove it to me approach to all things metaphysical. Fact is, I have witnessed infusion sets failing because the catheter is bent from the needle being bent. I have to consciously inject by forgiving myself for having diabetes in the first place. For some reason sleeping with the Lemurian crystal has given me consistent sleep. I feel like my brain is better organized since there is a lot rattling around in there, books, articles, journaling, etc. My brain is busy. I write books automatically in my head with my thoughts, and then it comes out onto Word files. The Lemurian Crystal seems to be doing its job as I need better access to the information in my head.
To find witch doctors and shamans that is, so I can further help myself keep the psychic stuff under control. The Caribbean is mystical to me. I want to see it, immersing my self in the laid-back nature that is the islands. I live in the Bay Area where there is nothing laid-back about the rat race. I’m trying to find a job that is outside of the rat race, because I’m trying to find one that doesn’t interfere with the fact I have many irons in the fire. I’m also trying to stop lying about the psychic crap. I habitually lie about this stuff. I scored high even when I lied on the Intuition Guidebook’s quiz. Then I took the quiz again, without lying, circling 5 for every category, and I scored 335 points, or in the highly psychic category. See, I need to get help with this stuff to figure out how to stay stable.
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