PDA Does Not Just Up and Walk Away

Many years ago by now I was born with a hole in my heart, which meant the blood flowed the wrong way.  I could have needed pediatric surgery for this only because it might have been worse than people let on, at least the Akashic Records portray it as such, but bear in mind I have no proof of this situation, much less medical records for it.  I need to take out my medical records if anything, only because I want to look into it myself.  Occasional professionals know that PDA of the kind I had: (patent ductus atheriosis) does not always walk away, it usually requires surgical intervention.  This is why I need to find my medical records from back then, only because I want to see if that was true.

Yes, this entire exercise in what actually went down, is kind of scary for a psychic just getting her act together about it, but what I think happened, makes some sense.  Time traveling aliens and my future self healed me in this timeline.  Considering how easily I understand time travel paradoxes, right alongside parallel universes, I think my visions may be right.  See, the Akashic Records are a record of everything ever spoken, written, thought or said, and these days it is hard to brainwash me because I have decided to take Lamictal, which works wonders keeping me stable.

I saw a vision of my future self, holding a white rectangular device over my chest, and that was it. She got the process going.  My version of PDA was difficult to get over without surgical intervention. That is my theory and I’m sticking with it, what I want to discover is proof of this.  The proof is proof in my medical records that the clinic hesitates to release to me.  I’m trying to figure out how to get my records, or have tried in the past, and I’m wondering if they are trying to keep a huge secret.  The time traveling aliens had big round skulls, were white skinned, and had wide eyes that were white around the dark brown pupils. 

My future self shoved memories into my brain; although this is stuff I hesitate to write about in public with my name attached.  Yes, I have had dealings with aliens before, yes, I’m willing to come out as a Contactee, and yes, I have chronic health problems like type 1-diabetes, hypothyroidism, as well as anemia but that is my 22q or Velocardiofacial syndrome talking.  I have interests in psychic phenomena and the paranormal, and have for a very long time.  I have a hiatal hernia that needs taking care of, so I have a procedure today scheduled to figure out how it can be cared for better, to determine whether or not I need surgery.

If anybody else has had encounters with these sorts of beings, I have yet to find references to them.  Sooner or later they will try to contact us on Earth.  We have to depose of our problem on our own in this election.  Then they will congratulate us for doing the right thing in a non-violent manner. So yes, keep on keeping on my readers, I’m trying to turn this blog into a story I can publish, give or take that I’m writing these stories down in vignettes so that eventually they could count as my Nanowrimo work for the month. I have experience in creative non fiction give or take. As a psychic, I can read for myself ladies and gentleman.  Although, not all the time.  There are some things I’m not meant to know about, like anybody else.   I’m lucky that I’m a cut above other psychics who can read for myself.

I’m trying to make it as a writer, and this is the first day since the election stress I have managed to get stuff done even if the election anxiety is making me feel sick.  I’m a busy bee in the present with many business ideas, projects, and stuff to get done.  I have memories of my future self’s life that I can put into story or fiction.  There is a lot rattling around in my head that I cannot get out, causing me psychic stuckness, blocks, overload, whatever you want to call it. I’m busy trying to stay afloat financially in a weird situation, but I just followed my instinct to pay my Internet bill in full.

Yes, instinct says, pay it all, pay it all today. So I went and followed that, and my prosperity skills say buy yourself some Spanish cheese since you can have that but not chorizo.  Chorizo unfortunately has pepper in it, which is triggering of acid reflux.  Anyway, I want to buy myself something nice with the money, for me and for me only.  I pay the bills for my family so they don’t have to.  But baby, I want some Spanish cheese, while we are discussing the present.

Paranormal things haunt my life because I have many psychic talents that just come with schizoaffective and OCD.  I’m trying to wrap my brain around paranormal things in my life.  Yes, they do exist; I cannot just throw out my schizoaffective with the bath water though.  What I talk about is not fiction, what I understand is not necessarily fictional.

I’m working through my CPTSD, on my own with the help of specific self-help books.  I’m working through my OCD on my own, in the same fashion.  You guys know I work very hard on myself, but not too hard, since we know whom in my family doesn’t work on themselves.  I can tell you guys this piece is about what I believe to be true, about what happened to me when I was hours old.  Some take personally that I get older every second of every hour in the day.  I’m sure that I’m doing my best to keep my head above water financially, trying to keep my bills paid.

So yes, you have read today my piece on what I think happened to my PDA at birth, I swear that everything I say is the belief of the author alone.  I’m the author, and I stand by my beliefs, so if you think it didn’t happen, it may be as you think, but I know what visions I’ve seen.  A vision is useful in telling you something that happened in the past, something that will happen or is happening in the present, and something that will happen in the future.  Visions are good for something, they present a warning. Mom has some kind of heart condition, which is in my records,  but I’m telling you I have heard from other doctors that PDA doesn’t walk away.

My goals are to write 1,000 words a day for this blog, and turn that into a 30,000 word novella. I will be using this blog to participate in Nanowrimo as I feel grounded enough to do so.  On a side note, the Democrats will soon win the election or so I predict, only because I feel what might happen.  

So you see, I will uncover the truth eventually, as the truth is out there. I will find a way to figure it out.  I will find a way to write about it.  I will find a way to be my real self while writing about it. Yes, this blog will uncover real trauma. I will have to split some articles in half.  There will come a day when I will make real money off of this blog, and that day is coming sooner than you think.  Stay tuned, and blessed be, happy Nanowrimo.