Avoidant personality disorder is found in a person who avoids socializing or making friends with people. Avoidant people fear criticism so they avoid job offers that expose them to it. Their persistent fear of rejection come from low self-esteem and a feeling of inadequacy. Loneliness is a choice for them, rather than being around people to form relationships with. Avoidant people stay away from the human race, instead of interacting with people. Avoidants have no close friends, and are hesitant to become involved with people. They feel socially inept, inferior or like they do not measure up to other people. The causes of avoidant personality may be influenced by peers, medication and talk therapy may help this disorder. I may or may not have this disorder as before the pandemic, I was going to therapy twice weekly. When I first started at San Jose State, I didn’t talk to many aside from my therapist. Well, I’m still hesitant to do a group zoom but I may be feeling sane enough to do it today.
Works Cited
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/conditions/avoidant-personality-disorder
I had a therapist in 2005-2009 that I paid for myself and got ACT therapy and CBT. Cognitive behavioral therapy is something I’ve been working on myself with my whole life, as it is helpful for anxiety. I have many anxiety disorders, so much so that my medical record calls it anxiety state. I try to cope with it as best I can. I’m trying my darndest to make sure that I’m doing right by my anxiety problems, only because I’m trying to figure out better ways of dealing with it. Unlike some, I do not run away from my problems, I have to face it because I cannot afford a pricy denial complex. Just because I have anxiety does not mean I have the luxury of denying my feeling’s existence.
I need to get my mental health more treated than I am doing right now. My peer counselor told me about an organization called ACT that I need to look into. I’m also waiting for the Whipa people to call me back. I’m looking to earn extra income that I’m working on putting together for myself. I found this web page for ACT
http://www.actmentalhealth.org/
My heart’s desire is to put myself in Bridges To Recovery, a mental health housing situation where I can get my chronic mental illness treated properly since I do not have the money for all the therapy I actually need. I have to put together a treatment plan for myself here. This is why I have to start making money for myself, only because I need to make sure I’m able to pay for it on my own. I have stuck to being low income. I need a residential treatment program to even begin to unpack all the trauma stuck in my mind and body.
Bridges treats everything I’m dealing with or suspect myself of dealing with. I’m doing way too much work for my family though. I’m thoroughly sick of being their intercessor. I’m past annoyed with it only because they demand so much karmic energy from me. I’m like, wow, seriously, do your own work ladies.
Tough B. Inc. now offers claircognizant internet research using that particular intuitive faculty. I know how to research the Internet, and books, which you need. Whatever your research needs, contact me via Linkedin or my email address. I charge by the project. If you want specific subjects researched for your own knowledge, you can get this with links on a Word file as requested. The project sets a flat fee that we agree to. I’m also a copywriter, charging per piece, but not limited to my freelance writing because I want to write articles and hopefully sell them. See, writing is a commission only kind of job, it works like that, you get paid for selling your work to publications if they like it, but only if they like it.
Yes, writing is a competitive field. In fact, getting published is very difficult. I’m astounded by how difficult it gets, although, if you think about it, I’m up for the challenge in learning to use my claircognizance or clear thinking. Writing as a field in general is hard, because you have to make sure you make sense. Freelancing feels hard to me sometimes in general. I work hard sometimes.
I am looking for a paid internship/per article job, which is going to bring in extra money. I’m trying to write articles freelance. I take care using all of my time a certain way, since I have the gift of time on my hands to get this stuff done. I’m trying to manage my time as best I can, better than I ever have before really, because I’m hoping for more moneymaking opportunities to come along. In case some haven’t noticed, I wake up early to write.
I’m working on making my resume more visible on the Internet. I’m doing my best to work on my job situation; I’m trying to keep up with everything I have an idea to get done. I have the stamina to work as much as I can, when I want to. I have a room of my own in which to write in, and I’m taking advantage of this as much as possible. I’m glad my current room is in the living room not the bedroom I sleep in. I’m pretty much working on making myself more income here. I was working, as an intern at Chef Koochooloo in a virtual manner before I found my job at Textbroker.com that somebody at Work 2 Future pointed out would make a great part-time job.
I have grammar on the brain with a grammar workbook I bought on Amazon that is attached to a grammar textbook. I can do the grammar portion in my sleep since I already have an English degree. That English degree has served me very well. I’m doing great work with it, like an editing internship. I’m in the process of looking for other internships, because I want to see if I can gain more experience with them. Yes, I know my English very well, as I have a creative writing AA, an anthropology AA, and a creative writing English degree. My school career can reset with taking English 1A and 1B at Foothill College, and more writing classes at De Anza, and now that everything is online, this is a distinct advantage. Writing is something I know how to do very well. Some notice this. These days I’m stable enough to also see it.
I am looking for a paid internship/per article job, which is going to bring in extra money. I’m trying to write articles freelance. I take care using all of my time a certain way, since I have the gift of time on my hands to get this stuff done. I’m trying to manage my time as best I can, better than I ever have before really, because I’m hoping for more moneymaking opportunities to come along. In case some haven’t noticed, I wake up early to write.
I’m working on making my resume more visible on the Internet. I’m doing my best to work on my job situation; I’m trying to keep up with everything I have an idea to get done. I have the stamina to work as much as I can, when I want to. I have a room of my own in which to write in, and I’m taking advantage of this as much as possible. I’m glad my current room is in the living room not the bedroom I sleep in. I’m pretty much working on making myself more income here. I was working, as an intern at Chef Koochooloo in a virtual manner before I found my job at Textbroker.com that somebody at Work 2 Future pointed out would make a great part-time job.
I have grammar on the brain with a grammar workbook I bought on Amazon that is attached to a grammar textbook. I can do the grammar portion in my sleep since I already have an English degree. That English degree has served me very well. I’m doing great work with it, like an editing internship. I’m in the process of looking for other internships, because I want to see if I can gain more experience with them. Yes, I know my English very well, as I have a creative writing AA, an anthropology AA, and a creative writing English degree. My school career can reset with taking English 1A and 1B at Foothill College, and more writing classes at De Anza, and now that everything is online, this is a distinct advantage. Writing is something I know how to do very well. Some notice this. These days I’m stable enough to also see it.
To file my first fictitious name statement, I need to file it with the County Clerk Recorder. You have to research the business name to see if it is taken, and I am researching my writing company, Tough B, Inc. But due to COVID, the county clerk is not providing walk-in service or online service although you can print the application, fill it out, and then mail it. There are filing fees to mail, and then newspapers to send the name to. My name is so unique I turned up no results when I searched. It is up to me to get printer paper since I have an ink cartridge that will work when I install it. I plugged in my printer again only recently, and have papers to file.
Jobs that rely on looks like television work, or modeling could be next on my list of applications to make. I’m not even sure if I can hack work like that, but at the same time, I’m trying to manifest jobs in the writing sphere. It depends on how much stress I will be under at any given job, which is why I’m taking the work from home option more seriously right now. It is an option that is more readily available. I have body dysmorphic disorder, which means I imagine perceived flaws on my face. When I have really bad acne, it doesn’t help to have this disorder at all. I’m glad wearing a mask is almost socially acceptable these days.
I want an associate of science in film and television, only because it will get me phone calls. Many years ago, I was told by family that I wouldn’t make it as an anchor or a television personality. I gave up. I wasn’t stable at all at times long enough to make my dream happen. I want to study cinema. When COVID dies down and classes meet again, I’m going to drag myself to school but also take online classes. I will be taking the bus, so I need to get a bus pass. Mr. hernia has to come out to begin to be stable enough to do this but for now I can take classes online. I need to make real money, and pay the HOA fee for a year before I jump ship to move to Los Angeles. I want to study documentary and screenwriting, here we go again.
I’m crazy enough to want multiple degrees, but not crazy enough to put this on my resume. A BA in anthropology can be had faster than psychology but I can’t enroll in two schools at once without causing myself serious stress, which is why I’m taking it easy with school in general. I want to finish an anthropology bachelor’s as my second bachelor’s. Now that school is all online, I have the advantage as my anthropology AA was earned online, back when online education was experimental. I wanted to go on going to school but the addict in me needed a break. I now allow myself the chance to be stable, calm and relaxed since I’m no longer severely sleep deprived or encouraged to be such. I want to minor in journalism only because it is interesting to me. I want to break world records with the most bachelor’s degrees or academic units at any rate.
| CORE – ANTH 11 CULTURAL ANTHROPOLOGY |
| ANTH 12 HUMAN EVOLUTION |
| ANTH 131 THEORIES OF CULTURE |
| ANTH 168 ARCHAEOLOGICAL METHODS |
| ANTH 169 ARCHAEOLOGICAL FIELDWORK |
| ANTH 132 CREATING BUILT WORLDS |
| ANTH 149 ETHNOGRAPHIC METHODS |
| ANTH 165 HISTORICAL ARCHAEOLOGY |
| ANTH 168 ARCHAEOLOGICAL METHODS |
| ANTH 152 BECOMING HUMAN |
| ANTH 154 MONKEYS |
| ANTH 157 FORENSIC ANTHROPOLOGY |
| ANTH 180 INDIVIDUAL STUDIES |
| ANTH 184 DIRECTED READING |
| SOCI 102 INTRO TO STATS |
I’ve always found social work interesting but I don’t want to burn out. Becoming a clinical psychologist could cause me burn out also. Completing an AA would knock out a bunch of Bachelor’s level required courses. Despite being a mentally ill hot mess, I passed psych 1 with a B+ or something. Long have I put off getting my junior college transcript but I now have three therapists who can light a fire under my hat to get this done. I cannot escape the lure of Math 10, or taking other math classes in general, since I want to motivate myself to study math by sorting out the pile of papers I have filled with my basic 8th grade math text book or was it 6th grade? I remember where I left off. I have to organize the pile of papers to my right, and make enough money doing things to buy myself a picnic table for the house. I need to take PSYC 7, statistics for behavioral science, psych 10 research, psych 4 intro to psychobiology, and more. My list for the B.S. is long, and I’m digging myself into a classes grave here so I would benefit seeing a college counselor at Foothill. Fortunately, my women’s studies class was an A grade, so I can honestly say I do not feel the need to retake it.
It all starts with English 1A, a major IGETC requirement. I have my choices of Foothill or De Anza. I would then also take PSYCH 1, at Foothill College, and finally, I’d be taking BUSI 18, a class that is about business law, and is a huge requirement for both a paralegal AA, and a business administration certificate. I already took WMN 5, which is a women’s studies class that I got an A in. I also want an AA in film and television, and I’m a kook who wants three or four bachelors. Now really, I just want the information. I took one acting class in junior college, got a B+, and for once in my medicated life, a lead role. Somehow I remembered those lines. In tomorrow’s blog update, stay tuned for more sorting things out in my head about what classes I need to take.
iriavp 