I found a legit job. I was given a check, of which $250 are mine. I’m going to be paying for something to do with a vendor. My laptop will come on Wednesday when I plan on staying home all day for this. I’m also taking on a caregiver job today that I can get to on the light rail. The money has begun to flow. I use my Prosperity Oil from Serpant’s Kiss daily. I mean nonstop daily. It is a thing. I can use it right now if I want to. This stuff actually works. I am earning an extra $100 from Textbroker. My job starts work from home part-time. It then ends up being in an office which will be located in San Jose. I hope the company is swayed to plunk down in my part of San Jose so my commute will be negligible. I don’t believe in commuting you guys, because commuting sucks. 20 minutes is already a long time to drive. Commuting doesn’t have to be two hours. Two bridges does not make commuting worth it. Only young people and people willing to put up with commuting will be willing to commute. Commuting is not something I want to do. Period.
But it isn’t working. I’m going to get her a card. I am only asking her to express her anger without yelling or being hostile. Being civil is not that hard.
I’m fed up with not having a job. I’m a stable disabled person who works hard. I’m busy writing copy at home but my knee injury which is getting better, kind of makes people not want to hire me just in case. I need a job with a four hour shift. I take classes at Work 2 Future in San Jose. I want to work for Tuesday Morning, in retail, at their Blossom Hill/Santa Theresa location. I had to dump a doctor who disagreed with my decision to try to make enough money to get off of SSI. I am very low income. I do my best to save money though and I have a system I’m really good at sticking to. I pay all major bills on low income. I’m quite successful at it. I have no idea why I’m doing so well but I am. It really must be the medication I take to treat my schizophrenia. I’m also on the bipolar spectrum. I even got myself the good stuff for my OCD, which is more or less under control. It was a long journey for me to find the right treatment. I want a job in many different fields, and I really have to start making decisions as to which ones.
One field is private investigation. Another is computer repair. I really have a variety of interests. One of my quirky plans is to set up a picnic table in my house and build a science lab where I can build laptops using all American made parts. I have around 80 business ideas and more books since I have a B.A. in creative writing from San Francisco State. I also have an A.A. in creative writing from Foothill College. My third degree is an A.A. in anthropology with honors. I want to have an extra table to put my other computers on. My desktop needs a monitor I can’t afford and my laptop needs to be resurrected since it was sabotaged. I can get an equivalent model from Amazon for $319. It will not have Word or Excel on it since I’m dirt poor but it will have LibreOffice. Also on this extra table will be a chemistry set and my sewing machine, which I need to learn to use. I’m 4’10 and pants are hard to find along with shoes. I have to manually hem my pants. Shoes are an incredible pain to find as I’m a size 4 narrow or 35 in European sizes. I’m also on the quest to find high-rise jeans since I really hate low-risers for various reasons as to what they like to show off. I keep my body parts hidden, to myself.
I live my life within a series of daily parameters, as in, one driving chore, one walking chore, per day. I managed to sleep tonight from 8:00 p.m. – 10:00 p.m., and I woke up at 10 to have a snack. I went back to sleep from 10:00 p.m. to 5:00 a.m. I also managed to wake up, eat breakfast, and go back to bed at 5:00 a.m. – 7:00 a.m. I got a great night’s sleep tonight. I’m seeing if I can repeat this endeavor consistently. What will it take to get one company to hire me? I write copy for a website online that pays you to write automatically accepted articles. I need legitimate companies to hire me. I feel at this point that I’ll never get a job and I may as well give up on being hired anywhere. Yeah, nobody’s going to hire me because I have a disability. I give up now. Unless somebody wants to prove me wrong.
Karma is a misunderstood concept. It does not mean that bad things will definitely happen to bad people who have done you wrong. Karma implies that they will suffer for mistreating you, when that is not the case. Karma doesn’t mean that since many times unless you set up consequences for somebody else’s wrongdoing, you will be able to see them have bad things happen to them automatically. Karma only works if you are an agent of karma. As in, if you decide to set up consequences for the actions of somebody who harmed you. Otherwise, they will go on with life, without necessarily having bad things happen to them.
I have heard things similar to your memo my entire life from my family and I hardly believe it. I still don’t. I’d rather be getting my grades up in the next few years. Currently, I have a Bachelor’s in Creative Writing from San Francisco State University. I also have an A.A. in anthropology with honors from Foothill College, and an A.A. in creative writing. Like I said, I have to get my grades up. I want to start with my law degree, move on to an M.S. in psychology, and then get my M.D./Ph.d in clinical psychology, psychiatry, neurology, endocrinology, and genetics. That’s a mouthful isn’t it? Yeah it is lots of work.
It is work I’m willing to do. My gender doesn’t come into it. I consider myself gender non-binary, gender non-conforming. I’m not exactly conventional. I’m blunt, straight-forward, and assertive. I also know how to work as a team with people. You might say I’m decidedly unfeminine with how I approach things. My pronoun is person. Gender constructs do not hold me prisoner. My hobbies were martial arts, yoga, and tai chi but a fractured tibia and dislocated kneecap kind of put these on hold until I get my knee back, which I estimate will be November. I’m off the hook seeing my sports medicine doctor. I want to spend my life inventing new meds for schizophrenia, type 1 diabetes, and bipolar disorder, and dare I say it, even OCD. This involves some intense, hard-core chemistry classes. I’m up for the challenge but my pre-med math requirements and physics requirements are scaring me to death. I would like more money for school by now. Job? Coming any time?
I’m addressing heterosexual men and I’m not going to address gay men with a ten-foot pole because this is about straight people and gay men are a different subject altogether since they are less prone to gender roles. Also known as a cisgender person or those who conform to the gender identity they got assigned at birth. I’m not exactly conventional. In high school, I got angry once, and somebody called me a lesbian for this, when I’m in fact straight, although my OCD would make me crazy. It wasn’t until I read a book called The Nice Girl Syndrome: Stop Being Manipulated and Abused and Start Standing Up For Yourself by Beverly Engel that cleared up this messed up misnomer. I broke up with the ex but I have spent the time since amassing 10 years of evidence that I’m straight. I just have many supposedly “masculine interests, ” like math, science, computer programming, and electrical engineering. For these interests, I was called a freak.
I have gotten into writing instead only because it was the easier degree to get and my schizophrenia was not treated properly until 2012. I had untreated pediatric schizoaffective bipolar 1 and OCD my whole life from childhood and I didn’t get meds until I was 20. Medication helps you be levelheaded, and deal with emotions.
Before you accuse women of having biological differences that make them unsuited to technical work, let’s say that men are more biologically impaired than women are. Men are prey to testosterone driven mood swings. They lust after sex more. They have sexual appetites, which cause hormonal imbalances. In other words, they think about sex more, and get cranky when they don’t get any. I propose that men are more victims of their biology than we lowly females. Men have a penis. Women have a vagina. There I said it out loud. Men fall sway to their penis while women have biological differences that allow them to have babies. I say this makes a woman inherently more powerful and capable than a man. It takes enormous fortitude to not let your hormones drive you nuts when you are female. This is why birth control exists. It helps regulate all those wacky hormones. Don’t get all Republican on me for saying this. Medications can help regulate moods too.
It could be incredibly sexist and unfair of me to say that men are biologically inferior to women because of their status as being stronger than women and only able to contribute their sperm to bring life into the world. What happened to all that gender equality that we were supposed to get with Hilary Clinton? It didn’t happen because of enormous sexism from the alt-right. Nobody could stand to see her win. Period. We live in an era where men can’t always get paternity leave due to reverse sexism. This is a fatal flaw in a company if they can’t ask for this simple need to be there for their wives if they bother having a kid. Companies with empathy let their employees have maternity leave or paternity leave.
I have a problem with what you say about empathy. Empathy is social lubricant. De-emphasize empathy. I’ve heard several calls for increased empathy on diversity issues. While I strongly support trying to understand how and why people think the way they do, relying on affective empathy—feeling another’s pain—causes us to focus on anecdotes, favor individuals similar to us, and harbor other irrational and dangerous biases. Being emotionally unengaged helps us better reason about the facts.” (http://gizmodo.com/exclusive-heres-the-full-10-page-anti-diversity-screed-1797564320) Okay, let’s deconstruct your nonsense. Empathy is important to have in the work place. Empathy is something sociopaths have problems showing. And psychopaths? Forget it. They have none. This is why many are housed in the prison system. What an inflammatory comment to leave on a memo. Empathy is necessary. Reason does not prevail without it. Oh and I suppose women have more empathy than men do? Are you going to say we are naturally wired for it because we can make babies and you men folk only provide the seed?
Like I said, I propose that men are the ones who have the problem, not women. A sociopathic female is just as much trouble as a male sociopath. Are you writhing in discomfort yet? Women are not naturally wired for stuff that men aren’t. There is no biological proof of this. Your sexism is appalling. Did you ever hang out with girls growing up? I’m imagining no, not really. Did your family have bizarre gender rules such as boys not crying at all? I don’t believe anybody needs to conform to the gender of their birth. It is good for you to attempt to break gender rules. You follow your programming too closely. It is time for you to make a break of your gender brainwashing and try to learn to sew, or cook. Or even take care of a child.
Men are sway to feeling horny a lot if gender stereotypes are believed. A solid meritocracy does not involve allowing minorities and women to get special treatment. You are hired at Google for having skills or great knowledge not your other characteristics. You got fired for trying to say that women are biologically weaker than men. I suppress menstruation because my mental illness symptoms flair up. Living without it is quite nice. I mean some Christian companies want to cut birth control access. All birth control really is, is a dose of hormones that represses the menses. It doesn’t encourage sex. It isn’t dirty to take pills. Also, I submit that it takes enormous strength to survive pregnancy. For those inept in biology, let me ladysplain. Pregnancy is hard work. It is 9 months of aggravation, torture, and stress. Not something I want to put myself through. Nope. I’m child-free.
I have had to deal with nasty breeders telling me it isn’t my choice to not put myself through something I see as coming from the depths of hell. I have schizophrenia and my parents are narcissistic. You really think my kid might have those traits unless I can use science to remove those genes and insert other traits. Narcissists have empathy problems. They charm people but they really struggle to get inside somebody’s head. Imagine a whole generation born without disability or mental illness. Disability can be treated in the early stages of pregnancy. This is my life’s work, it’s why I realized I need to study genetics.
In the end, we need to work on establishing an era of global peace and prosperity. There needs to be an end to war, racism, and homophobia. People need to stop practicing injustice, and to start practicing justice, and tolerance. Men and women have to start treating each other as equals, not one better than the other. It’s okay for men to pitch in with the work of childrearing. Can we have empathy for all? Can the world change? Are we going to have a future? My insulin will keep me around until I become a judge or maybe I will have found the cure for diabetes by then. I would distribute this treatment free for anybody who wants it regardless of what health care system we have. We are equals, deal.
Are you seriously limiting women to being victims of their biology? It’s called birth control. It is called medication to manage moods. I did without meds for 10 years and was unable to live up to my potential. Don’t you dare throw a pity party for me, douche bag! Cause I got the meds and won the anti-medication idiocy game that my family uses to avoid their alchy. I use Code Academy when I’m having a good low-inner critic threshold day. Do not tell me tech is one thing I cannot do. Oh I have a billion dollar idea about building laptops made in America from American parts thank you. But that’s as far as I go because you have proven yourself untrustworthy with your sexist male Indian memo. Go jump in the lake, mofo. I’m better than this. Women are better than you and you can’t stand it. Or see that some are probably out ranking you. But you can’t deal with this. Oh no. It’s a sissy thing for you, isn’t it? There are women at Google who outrank your ass and who are better than you. Lol. Your sexist assertions are laughable.
Republicans who can’t get their act together are listed in this article. Three women got in their way. There is nothing looking out for women’s health care. I found one such plan without ob/gyn coverage. What kind of health plan is that for a woman? A silly one. We females need to take care of ourselves differently than a man. It is work. Birth control helps. Republican men are backwards and have no respect for women or their anatomy. We are viewed as a thing to be controlled by not being given access to birth control. Have you people ever wondered why the whole country is frustrated with Republicans? You alt-right wing especially. I trust moderates like W. Bush way more now than I ever did during his presidency. Clearly nobody in Congress who is Republican understands putting aside your differences and working together for the common good, much less understanding how the female body is different from a male counterpart. Your stalling is infuriating. Give us single payer. Give us health care that’s affordable and doesn’t require taking out a second mortgage on those of us who have houses. It would be great to make Congress get a weaker health plan than they now have. They enjoy great coverage compared to the rest of us. I need a decent PPO. Resolutions please. Quit stringing us along.
I want to make money. Really I do. But you see, if you reset the pre-existing condition nonsense to get insurance, you are doing every disabled person in the United States the favor of genocide. People die without health care. We can’t have the standard of going broke every time there is a major health crisis in somebody’s life be they a person who had a pre-existing condition or not. The pre-existing condition clause is barbaric. The entire health care system in the United States is barbaric. I found an affordable plan but one that didn’t cover gynecology. Fun. Thanks. I need to make sure I keep taking my birth control. I’m celibate these days however, and not with my ex who is sterile. I for one, need a plan I can afford with at least $5,000 of income, if it is possible for me to make that much. Thanks.
I have a disability, multiple disabilities in fact, and I’m not a drain on the system you freak. You’re a real freak for saying that. Read my blog for further information. I hate repeating myself. I have at least a college degree. Frankly, insulin keeps me alive. I’m going to be around until at least 120. I want to see if the human race survives that long and quits judging people in inhuman ways like you just did to disabled people. Do you enjoy mocking us? Calling us drains on the system? Really. Wow. I betcha you think Kamala Harris is hysterical, which is hysterical btw. Lol. She did nothing to warrant this Mr. White Male Privilege, a subject you know very little about and I suggest you start Googling it. How often do you get out of trouble with the Po-lice? Because you are white and have less melanin than a black person! You burn in the sunlight because you are fair. I have olive skin. I tan, I’m a person of color, and btw, I use sunscreen religiously. I burn with too much sunlight. White privilege is somewhat wonderful isn’t it? People don’t follow you around in stores. I have to watch out for my tan this summer. La Migra might come after me if I get too tan. We disabled people want to be useful. Many of us want to work. But dumb companies won’t hire us because of our disability. We are stuck. Trapped in economic limbo. I want to be a 1% billionaire thanks to T-shirts like “I have schizophrenia.” My brain is wired differently. It happened before birth. Medication corrects this wiring problem. It even helps your brain put out the correct brainwaves. I have decided to add an MD to my psychology Ph.D. Law school first and the joint MBA program at Santa Clara followed by my Masters, and then my Ph.D/M.D. Forget marriage. Marriage is so pointless. I broke up with the Ex for a reason. Lol. Irresponsibility. I generally do that to people I have dumped recently for that sin. Irresponsibility on the I’m not taking my meds level could flat out kill me. Lol. I have a very bizarre and dark sense of humor. I can make tragedy really funny. Diabetes almost killed me. True story. Don’t say mean things to disabled people. Unless you want to try a Hitler on us to get rid of us.
It seems like both the Republican and Democratic parties are falling apart. Neither is working properly. What comes next is destroying the two party system for good. Why can’t we just run on character? Not platform. I want to run for office, for city council. I’m making some extra money off of surveys. I think I want to be an openly pagan politician. I will be running as a non-partisan. I vote Democrat but at some point the entire system might collapse. Impeachment is highly likely. Give it time.
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