On May 31st, 2020, besides the fact I share an anniversary with a friend, I’m going to have my 29-year diabetic-coma anniversary. Not only was I slipping into diabetic coma at 10 years old, I was having a psychotic break. Now that I analyze the situation with my current mental health knowledge that I wasn’t allowed to have until 20 even if I wasn’t seeing the right sort of psychiatrist. I was not seeing someone who knew about schizoaffective being a thing. Eventually though, I triumphed over the family restrictions regarding seeing a psychiatrist by successfully using my SSI insurance, or Santa Clara Family Plan. I completely broke convention when I saw my real psychiatrist, Dr. Zhang. But at that point, I wasn’t feeling well, so I was like, hey, I need to see someone, whatever.
With bad news, if we report it at all, we try to put a positive spin on how somebody tried to make something better happen for the victim. If someone apologized to someone else, we’d highlight that. So much of the news is bad news. So much of the news is marginalized into bad news. It is necessary that we cover the good and the bad but not too depressing bad. Bad news is what sells, depressive news about the bad things people do to each other is what matters to normal media companies. I need to start reading my competitor’s newspapers as is highlighted in my business plans. Then I will know for sure that I have an idea worth keeping around.
I want to make Spanish and Chilean food cheap, and accessible. On Door Dash right now, there is nothing except El Pollo Loco that has paella. I want to market paella in many forms, and this is a business plan yet to be written. My idea would be an empanada place also, both Spanish and Chilean. We’d have pastel de choclo, both with lactose and without lactose. We’d sell chorizo in this place, and Spanish cheeses from La Española. We’d have different paellas from different cultures, such as an Asian paella with white or brown rice. This stuff is fusion, but is still in my head since I haven’t cooked it. At that point, my friends who are inventive about new recipes would be helpful for this project.
As the Covid-19 crisis continues, the other billionaires are coming out as Selfish. Many of them could help the ventilator situation in the United States, particularly Jeff Bezos. But does anybody lift a finger? No. People who have money do not need a stimulus check of course, although we low-income folks are relieved that we are included. Now if we all got a check for $2,000 next time around in like three months, given how long quarantine will last some more, I feel that’s necessary. At least its what I’d be pushing for. In 40 years, the entire political landscape will have evolved into something different, which is why I keep my mouth shut about certain things. First I have to set up ways of making my own money. Then we shall see about campaigning for city council, or at the very least getting an appointed position.
The Positive News Media Company is about putting together a newspaper that focuses on the good in the world for once. Sure people do a lot of bad things, but they manage to do many good things too. Some people want to become better people if they’ve had jail time to prove it. I need to start reading each competitor newspaper to see how mine measures up. I also need books on how to start a newspaper from the library when that reopens. I need to read about both for profit journalism and non-profit journalism. This is the healthiest alternative media company that is meant to exist right now.
I’m making progress with the psychic attack book because I have one chapter of 25 pages almost finished. The next step is to coherently outline chapter 2. Now that waits for me having a good day, without super-hot weather. Today will be unusually hot for May. I’m going to take it easy. I’m going to take a cold shower. Yes, today is a day to be vulnerable to certain folks’ psychic attack. I’m using pen name so nobody knows it’s me. The psychic attack book will eventually be ready. I’m going to pay my editor for the bullies book with my stimulus check which I’m saving since it doesn’t go to the full amount.
My fiction is definitely stuck right now because real life got way too much like science fiction, which is why I applied for a job as a science fiction and fantasy book reviewer so I can expose myself to new books. My roommate will have no shortage of books, that’s for sure. I signed up for the science fiction and fantasy section deliberately as when I try to write normal fiction it bores me. That’s why I’m working on my non-fiction more now. But that topic of psychic attack is also terrifying. My own science fiction scares me. I’m experiencing massive creative blocks. Yes, that’s also scary, although that’s because we live in interesting times.
An X in my energy field is all about stopping me from doing something, an undeserved hex. I learned in Energetic Boundaries that the X is there to stop you from getting somewhere. I have many, I’m trying to release on my own. I’m stressing because of my financial situation, and how I’m trying to find another job/ a job in general. There are a lot of things to be paranoid about right now, and I’m trying not to get myself too worked up about it. I’m busy trying my best to hang on for the stimulus check, which will eventually come in the mail.
Psychosis can make one look less intelligent than they actually are because of appearing messed up to the naked psychiatric eye. Psychosis is a state of mind that does not lend to inspire confidence when you are working, for example. It doesn’t even inspire confidence in academic settings. I’m relieved that I managed to eventually overcome my caffeine addiction. I had to work at it, since any addiction is something you have to work at kicking. Coffee didn’t help my situation as it made me manic, which in turn, made me talk fast. My life hasn’t had this much stillness in a long time despite my knee injury. That’s another story.
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