My friends, there is a way to play a narcissist’s own dirty tricks back to them. One way is to go, hey, it never happened, or it didn’t happen that way. This is what they are saying to you to crazy make you, after all. When you do it back to them, they have no idea, that you are playing a game. The gaslighter will not really think, oh btw, I’m being gaslit. They do not know that you saying to them, why are you making such a big deal out of it, are ways to start gaslighting them back. I submit that some gaslighting is intentional and malicious. When you start to question your perceptions a lot, it is your gaslighter’s fault. Gaslighters do question the individuals’ perception of an event. Gaslighters love trivializing their victim’s feelings on top of that, since they like to make you feel like you aren’t good enough. Gaslighters make their victims confused, and you find yourself apologizing way more than necessary. Making excuses for your partner or parents is enabling them to do things to continue their program of gaslighting you. The gaslighter is deliberately making you crazy, often with malicious intent to put their behavior on repeat.
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https://www.nbcnews.com/better/health/what-gaslighting-how-do-you-know-if-it-s-happening-ncna890866
It would look great on my political resume, while also helping me gain experience and knowledge. First off I want to serve my State, and then my country. So the State Senate will prepare me for Congress. That law degree that makes me just drool, needs to be earned so I can accomplish these things. I’m working on everything that could make me money. I have $22 in my bank account right now, so I’m forced to use my credit card. I pay off the credit card in increments. I have ideas for stories to publish. I work on my main list of ideas every day. It is a long list that I have to start working on as a kind of guide. Yes, eventually my money situation will get better; I just have to be patient.
In San Jose, there are ample City Council opportunities compared to the brainwashed people in Mountain View. So I figured that I can do something that will not keep me trapped here for long since I want to move to Los Angeles where I want to run for mayor. Then again, I have limited energy to do much outside of my writing thanks to Mr. Hernia. I had a stressful day yesterday because my blood sugar was low in the middle of the night, having injected that night which plunged my blood sugar to 43 mg/dl. I am trying to keep my finances together. But that is impossible without the part-time job I used to have. I’m trying to find other jobs here. I’m also trying to publish my work. I have books to write, and since next month I’m not paying my blog, I can afford to pay for my roadside assistance. Being mayor would give me experience with being in charge of something. I’d have a campaign to gain experience for other roles such as governor, or senator or State Representative. These are all steps to a much larger goal.
A borderline gets emotionally unhinged at the slightest thing, such as too many emails. They get messed up by what they feel to be extreme emotional pressure over something little. They have impulsive behaviors such as drinking too much, which is part of their self-destructive nature that they have trouble containing. They have a bad self-image, with a persistent fear of being rejected, which does eventually happen when they do mean things that push people away. Their moods last days or hours, as they have anxiety, worry, and depression. They are hostile people who victimize others with their anger. 80% of borderlines being suicidal can seem to be a high number, since they do self-destructive things like cutting themselves. They struggle with cutting themselves or worse.
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Destroying the Affordable Care Act is all about ego. Sure, it gave Americans access to health care. I advocate getting rid of the two party system because we don’t need it anymore. We have to vote on what we know a person has accomplished, not based on a political party. The Affordable Care Act is an historic accomplishment. Medicine was screwed over by the invention of the HMO or PPO. What do we do to make sure that The Affordable Care Act is not in danger? I’m not sure, and I don’t know. The thing is, I could have been making money since I got stable in 2013, even if my family picks fights with me to prove I’m the unstable one. Sigh.
Quit dicking around with SSI, and allow people to get free medical care regardless. We can still pay up the ass for over the counter supplies, but seriously, healthcare being a for-profit industry in the United States boggles the mind of many foreigners. We Americans sustain the delusion that healthcare should not be a human right. Well, if a virus like coronavirus spread in the United States, we’d be in deep trouble because people won’t respect curfew, or orders to stay home since some do not respect the government very much. In China, people do whatever they are told since China is about totalitarian communist rule. But in the United States, we have “freedom” to do what we want, we almost feel entitled to it. I see major problems if coronavirus gets bad.
First, we treat them for mental illness and addiction, which gives them a shot at getting stable enough to get a job. Then, we provide job training for them, because many may lack specific skills. After that, as the third step, we help them get housing if some qualify for SSI, which the imperials are trying to gut. The fourth step is to make sure they are taking their medication, since this will mean they are stable enough to work. The fifth step is to provide them with counseling because they need to stop their addictive situation, and learn to manage stress. There you go, the homeless problem solved.
Up until late 2018, I had no hernia symptoms but now, I have massive hernia symptoms which means it eventually has to go. Mr. Hernia is not working with me anymore. I have heard it from other doctors that one way or the other, I’m going to get hernia surgery. I have a second opinion appointment in March. Mr. Hernia will eventually be taken out of me, according to my Tarot readings. I’m working on advocating for surgery. But anyway, it will happen any way you look at it, so I’m not anxious about this stuff.
Back when I drank, I wanted to make a buffer between me and the world. This buffer was meds and alcohol because I was trying out different medications at the time. Clairaudience comes around to be loud in my head, because it is like that. You have physical ears, but you also have psychic ears. I was drinking to dull the sensation, and hell, I was being manipulated into drinking. I will gladly not touch alcohol ever again, thanks. We at Pagans in Recovery believe in remaining sober, so I’ve tried to continue the 10-year mark that I’ve reached with my sobriety as I quit drinking in 2010. I quit drinking only because I felt that it was adversely impacting my life. Of course, to the enablers this was a very bad decision because they couldn’t get me to drink anymore, they felt awkward at the fact that I quit. In fact, four Christmases ago, I recall somebody being floored I wasn’t going to drink, to which I said, no, I don’t drink. The bottom line is that I was trying to dull my intimidating a discerning nature through booze. But now, I know that I’m not the bad guy. In fact, I’m the good guy for quitting and I’m glad I did.
I’m scared of needles. I have been terrified of needles my entire life. Hell, I realize I’m not the one pissed of at diabetes. That responsibility goes to irresponsible people in my family. Needles trigger my anxiety big time, because they pretty much mean that I freak out at the act of injecting myself. Since yesterday, I realized I can’t rant at diabetes while changing my infusion set. If I do that, it bends. If I feel a surge of violent rage at myself out of nowhere, it actually isn’t me, its other people who would stigmatize me. I now realize that diabetes is a huge nothing, but I can learn to control it. I’m not the one with sharp, violent rage toward it or myself for having it. This is something I have to set up a psychic shield around.
iriavp 