I’m done being low income only because I’m pretty much fed up with this crap. I cannot pay the Internet bill and pay for strips unless I, basta ya, put it on my credit card. I have no other options. I want to pay up $75 the next time I go to the bank. Now that Textbroker is done and over with, I’m pretty much going to try to find another job that pays better. I woke up at 5:00 a.m. to write for Textbroker. The universe kicked my ass into writing more articles as a way of making money instead of writing copy waking up that early losing sleep. Waking up at 6:00 a.m. seems to be the middle ground here. I’m just plain done being low income. I hope all my doctors understand this, not that I’d dump them if I get my normal pay up the ass insurance again. It took me 9 years to get stable. I am staying stable seeing as that is hard for a type 1 diabetic with rapid cycling whom on top of that, is a brittle diabetic. I’m fragile.
I feel I will get many responses as I sent out many an application. I’m not going to let myself get down with my low self-esteem by saying, nobody wants me. The thing is, I know eventually a job or internship will take me. I do not look my age, so I could spend most of my 40s interning. Hell, I want to move to Los Angeles after a certain point, right? Yes, but with what money, and I have to be really stable to pull this off, paying for my own insurance, bringing in significant income all the time. I’m working on manifesting a decent job that pays well though. This may yet happen or not in 2020.
Go in for readings at East West because I need to schmooze, and pay up for a reading. If I can publish the Denial piece, then I will have earned extra money for the year. Writing can be quite profitable although making $500 will mean that I do not have to work for a while since Textbroker decided they could not work with writers in California. The next steps for this business plan include having to go to East West to bring them a non-disclosure agreement. I need extra money this month to get Reiki, or perhaps other forms of energy medicine. So yeah, I don’t have to overwork myself anymore because of Textbroker.com.
Gaslighting is a way to control someone else’s reality. Gaslighting is insidious and evil to do to someone because the person gaslighting says: “It really didn’t happen this way,” to confuse you to death. Gaslighting is a threat to your view of reality. It is mean, uncalled for and something that happened to me as a child. I was constantly gaslit growing up. Narcissists love gaslighting. It’s their way of life, because they lie while stealing your goodness from you because they have no goodness of their own. Gaslighting is ridiculous because it means that your gaslighter is rewriting your reality in their heads, and then putting this crap into yours. You never deserved the gaslighting, which is something I went through growing up every day. I avoid gaslighters in my adult life.
I have devised a 22q scholarship fund that could pay for school up to a Master’s degree. Although I’m forced to pay for school myself from now on. I’m a member of Greyschool having spent the last ten years getting my Psychic Arts degree so I can become a practicing psychic giving Tarot readings, etc. I want a bunch of different kinds of degrees that my Facebook page goes into more. I even have this pent up interest in archaeology/anthropology. Then again, I want to set up my businesses so I can pay for school. But you see, I have to make it through school without using caffeine, which is what happens when I get too tired and overload myself. We 22q people need more sleep than the average person.
I find marriage to be a pointless exercise that winds up leading to divorce later on if the relationship becomes something that takes too long to prop up. I’m glad I didn’t marry the Ex. I find marriage pretty pointless at this time. I’d rather be single than be mistreated, sober, and be mistreated by my family for not drinking. Excuse me, alcohol could kill me in the present says the instruction manual in my head. This is only because alcohol could make me dizzy, pass out, etc. A real future husband keeps me away from the booze even if Non-alcoholic beer could be fine for me. Even then I want to sternly avoid alcohol in all forms, including in the vanilla extract. A future husband would work with that although I find marriage ridiculous to a high extent anyway.
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