I have done my research on workaholism, it’s actually an acknowledged thing for one. Working too much runs in my family, big time. Workaholics live for work. They push themselves to overwork. I learned how to be a workaholic in my family of origin. No love for me there unless I was overdoing it. I’m trying to cure myself of workaholism even if I’m a work from home person. I have to learn how to moderate how much I get done, and how much I work in general since I realize I have to trust myself to know when to stop. I need to learn to give myself breaks since I grew up without taking many breaks while doing schoolwork or other work as I got older.
I realize I have a work ethic compared to my old friends that I had to dump, since you have to change your mindset, and I’m trying to learn to take my addiction seriously, since I have therapists around teaching me how not to over do things. Going into meditation mode I have set up my work schedule to be 4:00 a.m. – 10:00 a.m. at the very least, although I’ve managed to keep going until 11:00 a.m. where I set up the TV on my computer and stream/watch TV.
My parents failed to see that life is not all about working to prove you are worth something, mean something, or are somebody that amounts to something. The gods actually care more about how may friends you have, and how much love you give. It isn’t about the work, since that is a waste of time. I let go of my addiction to working. Why should I try to impress others by waking up at 3:00 a.m. just so my neighbors go, aha! She’s a productive schizoaffective, we don’t feel sorry for her. I’m trying to reframe my busy-ness by seeing what compels me to overwork. There are actually workaholism anonymous groups along with Underearners Anonymous that a friend referred me to. For me, taking the day off is a radical act of rebellion. I’m trying to respect myself on my birthday, which is tomorrow.
Okay, I’m paranoid about the stimulus check. It could be the fact I have had to change my infusion set twice this morning, I’m trying to figure out conditions that do not piss me off into triggering my psychokinesis. I’m thinking its only been 20 minutes for my new infusion set. My endo feels I have enough insulin to last until the 20th when it is renewed. I get like 6 bottles anyway so that’s always a good thing. But hell, I’m just paranoid about a lot of things even if yesterday I got extra sleep in hour-long increments. My stimulus check will be in the direct deposit today.
Private investigators are quick thinkers, and can think on their feet. They need to remember what they observe. Investigative reports require good writing. Private investigators also have to be organized with files for each case that can be stored on my USB the way I normally store my files. I need to buy a new USB drive to keep at the post office in a vault. There are professional organizations for private investigators that I need to join. There are state boards that discipline individual private investigators because searching for a good school is the first thing that needs to be done, although you do not need to have a degree.
It is important to be ethical because you have to incorporate your business, DBA is doing business as. You have to open a business with cash flow coming in. Having a virtual assistant is often a good thing. Getting specific insurance to cover your business such as liability insurance is a necessity. Private investigators work in missing persons, with premarital and infidelity investigations making up a certain percentage of their income. Many of them also conduct abuse investigations, Working your case involves necessary information gathering. A PI will also have to testify in court.
Mentally ill people are not like other people, guys, they have mental health problems, which mean that they have trouble managing their thoughts. Yes, you normal people who believe thoughts are things, have kind relationships with yourself while we mentally ill have bad, dark relationships with our own brain until we learn how t o be kinder to ourselves. If someone has been abused, they struggle with the very notion of kindness unto ourselves. It isn’t something we are used to since the bullies that tormented us run around unchecked inside our heads.
There is actually a workaholic 12-step group out there! I was a member of Emotions Anonymous for a while before my parents moved. I got a lot out of it, and realized I had nothing to fear because I learned ways of not letting my mother kick me around as much with the fear she was trying to get me to react with. Workaholism runs in my family since you had to work like a dog in order to hear “you work hard,” and if you took a break, that was bad. The number of times during my childhood that I could have passed out from exhaustion, are many.
I am trying to learn how to shut down my workaholism, which compels me to wake up in the middle of the night, to wake up early, to show up, and to work on my writing projects, even to work on this blog. What drives me is that I’m wondering if the neighbors make false judgments on me such as thinking I’m spoiled, when they may not think this way. At night, I feel wound up at 5:00 p.m. going, dang, I should be working. But I’m not. Oh the guilt, its silly.
My family manipulates me into working hard by inducing psychic guilt when I’m sleeping. This is a silly reason to wake up for work even when a friend of mine says he admires days that start at 3:00 a.m. I’m trying to curb this habit, so praising me doesn’t help. I find that society emphasizes workaholism, especially in the Bay Area. Treating work seriously is one thing but treating your addiction seriously is quite another.
I work from home, so my work is in the home. I’m trying something revolutionary on my birthday, taking the day off to do whatever I want. I’m not even updating my blog. Meditation is one way to shut off a thinking mind, because you have to take every day to slow down, take things one day at a time, and not work in a frenzied manner. I realize what I’m doing to myself with that frenzy. Adequate rest, sleep, and breaks are necessary to maintain productivity. You need time away from work. Google is a hotbed for workaholics, who need treatment. I could write books on this behavior since I need to set up a separate book idea list for psychiatric situations. I have my list of metaphysical books ready and raring to go but not my self help books or my business books. We writers write books, and it can make me serious money to write them.
Works Cited
https://www.inc.com/lolly-daskal/how-to-cure-your-workaholic-addiction.html
Okay, to my interested friends who want a chance to date me, not right now? I’m way too traumatized by my whole life, having to sort through major trauma issues. I cannot date right now, period, so don’t you dare ask me out, save as friends, that’s fine. But an actual date, I find dating to be dangerous. I do not want to be taken advantage of or led astray by anybody. This is why I cannot be led astray for any reason. It would seem that some people who want to date me may do that, but I’m not sure. Anybody from the radio station at my old junior college is automatically looking to take advantage of me. I pretty much need to be with someone who would never put me in situations where I can’t take my medication for one. Yes, some would say that was my choice, but I hesitate to take my medication and drive home. The key to experiment with this one after my hernia comes out; is to have something with chocolate in it and go out at night.
I have dumped those who show an inability to care for themselves by taking their medication. She who lectured me about skipped doses when I skipped in college on vacation, where I learned that vacations do not mean skipping meds. My friends should be women who can stand up for themselves. I have had to dump those who expect me to do the work for them. This gets to ridiculous levels with some people so for my mental health I dumped them. I cannot listen too much to dark things, because that overburdens my energy. I cannot heal someone all the time either since it becomes their adult responsibility. If someone is medication consistent, they are stable and they cut the crap but if someone doesn’t know if they’ve taken their meds or not, this means they are unstable.
I was taught to put up with enormous disrespect as a child, because my family knows nothing else about the way they parented. I have had many a frenemy but you attract positive people to yourself when you reach mature adulthood only because you need to make sure that you stay safe. Adult responsibility means kicking toxic people out of your life. Grown ups also know to stand up for themselves and not wait for others to do it for them. I’ve always been mature, and the lie that I have the emotional maturity of a 10 year old when I was 15, was an attempted gaslighting lie that went south when I said, if I’m 10, you are three. That shut up the person saying this.
I’ve got my eBay list down to spending around $383 give or take a $1200 stimulus check. What I’m trying to do is to make sure that I do not get into manic overspending mode, which as I have looked at my habits, does happen. I need to do reverse books for February because I have to be in the right headspace to get anything financial done like this at all, period. I need glucose tablets, flonase, and other goods. I’m going to experiment with a diffuser to protect myself from the virus. After my endo said to me that I do not want this virus, I’m just saying, I’m going to stay home. Nobody has to tell me that twice. But I don’t want to spend too much money out of boredom.
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