I’m frustrated at my general joblessness and how scams come my way. I have at least one Cyndi Dale book, Energetic Boundaries: How to Stay Protected in Work, Love, and Life, states that I have a Paper-Doll Syndrome and a Vampire Victim thing going on. I’m way too kind for starters. I do not want to be taken advantage of for my kindness. My frustration at my job situation in general is epic. I’m pissed. I want a work-from-home gig, something to do with writing? I have worked very hard to find a job. I get nothing. I mean maybe getting one of those lucky cat knickknacks will help but seriously.
I’m frustrated, just plain frustrated. Yes, I can write 300 words in like half an hour or less, but still I’m frustrated. Nobody sees me for my talent. I feel like my disability is getting in the way of me having a good job. My knee is getting better by the day; I managed to heal a deep cut rapidly because I had to go to Urgent Care for it. I’m okay now, but I have had a low-grade fever for like a week. I’m doing much better with that. Work from home jobs can be scams. Indeed.com is the only trustworthy resource for work from home jobs along with Glassdoor.com.
My joblessness/money issues have got to end. I mean I have ideas like working on my art, my t-shirt business, indeed all my other business plans that I haven’t developed. I wrote like 12 in a year. I need seed money-I also have that non-profit about helping disabled people escaping abusive families that I have to work on. Yes, I have ideas, and I need to work on them. These ideas are worth something to somebody. I hope I can somehow find seed money.
I have a bunch of old artwork pieces in the house. These pieces are leftover from high school art class since my last art class ever was junior year. I’m now interested in taking actual art classes to see if I can hone my skills. Art is pretty fascinating because I have decided to paint pagan symbols in the form of protection glyphs on canvass so that people can buy my art for the home. I can paint runes and other symbols. I’m not so good at people but I can work on this.
I have colored pencils but I need to buy other mediums such as oil paints, watercolor paints, and pastels. I need to take an art class at De Anza if the money presents itself. I’m also into puff paints. Puff paints are very versatile. They can be used on a variety of supplies such as canvass or paper. I can also sell my paintings on Etsy given I can pay the fee for this. T-shirts are one item I can sell on Etsy, paintings another. Making extra income needs to be done. I cannot continue to be low-income.
The art bug demands I draw, paint and possibly sculpt. I need to flex my creativity some more, or at least I would like to. The art bug is not only good for drawing, but it is good for movie making, script writing, and writing itself. Creativity is necessary for my existence. Art supplies must be forthcoming. I want to paint pictures of emotion, abstract art, other planets, and landscapes. If I can have visions of worlds not our own, then I can draw it. Or future visions of this planet and how it would look like. Art is very calming for me, even adult coloring books.
Art is something that some people choose to do. It means that my talents are escaping from me. I can paint starry skies if I want to. Plants are another subject I can tackle; art is not necessarily about people. I can paint animals. Or train stations and subway stations. I can paint scenes from earth’s past, as anthropology art, or scenes from space pictures, science fiction art. I can paint bridges also. Another option is to paint t-shirt phrases with black ink, stencils, and a white canvass background. Another subject is to paint ancient artifacts or things that haven’t been discovered yet using my seer skills.
Vases with flowers can also be an easy subject to paint. I can have exhibitions all over California. Another painting subject could be environmental problems and their solutions as I write articles on this so why not paint it. Other ideas include illness in art, mental illness, and physical illness. These can be painted as abstract pieces, for example, or actual imagery. The sea with its pollution can be painted as though it didn’t have any pollution. Mermaids and fairies or demons could also be painted along with ascended masters. I’m able to paint many things; it doesn’t always have to be people.
Painting kind of runs in my family as we have an interest in art passed down from my grandma to my uncle, to me. Both used to paint awesome pieces. My aunt was an actual artist with work to her credit. At some point, my family had a lot of her paintings to sell. Yes, I’m pretty much using my talents to make money soon, if I can afford to buy art supplies. Art is interesting to me, making it, not looking at it. I appreciate my talents in art because I want to use it.
The difference between the Civil War and the Revolutionary War was about how to make America exist to begin with in the years 1776-1783. The Civil War lasted from 1861 to 1865. The United States was either a lot of separate states or one nation with a unified government. https://www.battlefields.org/learn/articles/brief-overview-american-civil-war. In addition, the Civil War took 625,000 lives on American soil. The Civil War actually started over legal battles as to whether or not slavery would continue as an institution. This is in fact, where we as a nation inherited all of our present day racism against people of color.
Abraham Lincoln won the election of 1860 as a candidate then labeled Republican, who would try to amend slavery by abolishing it in Northern states, all while 7 states in the Deep South split from the union. The Civil War actually got started April 12th, 1861 when the Confederate Army claimed Fort Sumter as their own, even as four more states seceded from the union to the Confederacy. At the end of 1861, you had a million armed men confronting each other in a line that stretched 1200 miles, from Virginia to Missouri. From 1826 to 1865, Robert E. Lee’s Army of Northern Virginia fought off invasions by the Union Army of the Potomac. Ulysses S. Grant was the general who won the war since Grant beat Lee at Appomattox in April 1865. By the spring of 1865, all Confederate Armies had surrendered.
So I’ve heard it time and again that marriage doesn’t mix with advanced degrees, as in, if you get more than a Bachelor’s, it will just cement your difficulty with getting married some more. Excuse me if I want to find a guy that is more of a do-gooder than the other one. I’d rather get an advanced degree than get married at this point, if I can avoid bad dates though, and stick with good ones, that is. I’m not saying who put this idea in my head, but I’m saying that somebody did, a long time ago, which is why I decided to end a relationship with the person whose family says this.
I’m busy trying to stay afloat with low-income. I mean, seriously, I’m doing great, but still; I need more income than I let on. I leave affiliate links in my blog writing with the hope somebody will click on it. Nothing. Marriage is no cure for my income problems, as I want to make my own money. I’m not the sort of person who marries for the money to get out of my tight spot. No, I prefer to fight for the money I want to make.
I feel like I can break away from the family income eventually because I can. I know I can. But that can’t happen just yet. Why on earth does an advanced degree get in the way of marriage? If the right guy truly exists, he won’t care about my advanced degrees, not even when he’s not a Ph.D. himself. The right guy won’t care that I worked hard for those degrees, and he’d be a person who likes helping people on top of that. My future guy is pagan, and he’s at UCLA? I will meet him when I go to school there? Whatever, all I know is I’m willing to wait around, and I have options in the meantime but seriously, I’m not looking to commit to any one person right now. Like hell my advanced degrees will intimidate men. I naturally intimidate men. Don’t be too smart, whatever. I’m so done with people who think like this.
The 13 colonies and the colonial government started escalating tensions from 1775-1783. The war began in April 1775. Dumping tea in the harbor was a way of protesting the British colonial occupation. https://www.history.com/topics/american-revolution/american-revolution-history. The Revolutionary War was one big step to self-governance for the United States. It meant that we became our own sovereign nation in the eyes of the rest of the world. The British attempted to raise taxes for the colonies while enacting a Stamp Act of 1765, the Townshed Tarrifs of 1767, and the Tea Act of 1773, making the colonists hate their lack of representation in the Parliament.
Colonial delegates decided to meet in Philadelphia, secretly, to voice their growing concerns. The First Continental Congress met to complain about taxation without representation. They would try to meet again in May 1775, but in April 1775 the first shots were used in the Revolutionary War. The first major battle of the war was the Battle of Bunker Hill. George Washington was a general in this war. The Revolutionary War gained much support throughout the 13 colonies at the time. We won our independence from Great Britain on September 3rd, 1783, where the Treaty Of Paris was used to formalize the independent status of the United States.
Wedding rings have got to be one of the most ridiculous marriage traditions I have ever heard of. Oh, the ring means something? Really? A band of gold with a diamond on top happens to mean something? Rings are pointless because the ring is only a symbol. Real relationships take work. They take a lot of work. They take both parties being interested in each other long enough to make relationships work out. I’ve noticed that when somebody doesn’t want to hear what I tell them about their situation, it is because they are willing to settle.
Settling with any random guy is not something that makes for a long, happy marriage that works. It is not about any tree in the forest; you have to have requirements. My requirements are that my guy will be a relentless do-gooder like me and academically driven to excel in law school. I need to find somebody who also wants a psychology M.S. as well as an M.D./Ph.D. if nothing else. I have stated my requirements to the universe, and now I have to focus on making enough money to enroll in the junior college of my choice before I get married.
Brides wear white as a means of symbolizing purity. Then they make bridesmaids wear lesser dresses, and make sure that nobody else wears white. Vows are totally meaningless as they can be broken. Some marriages do not work out. I know I’m looking for somebody who wants advanced degrees. Somebody who writes and does something with the day they get to have stuff get done. In short, I need somebody who respects my academic goals. I need somebody with a healthful attitude towards food and a great social life.
Western marriage traditions strike me as silly. Everybody holds out for the all-important wedding day, which many women have been brainwashed to believe that it is the happiest day of your life. Weddings are just a party, a long, drawn out, and annoying party with every friend you have with each other there. Family? Well, at mine, we may not have many of those around. I’m done believing I may never get married because of my disabilities including diabetes. Wow, my family is just plain ridiculous at that point. Marrying any tree in the forest doesn’t necessarily work out. It means that you are stuck with that tree.
You are, in effect, barking up the wrong tree with that in mind. Who wants to marry in a hurry? It is not to be taken lightly. It is not reasonable to marry somebody with alcohol addiction or drugs in the mix. Drugs instead of medication can make a person unstable easily. There is a lot of drama in relationships laced with that. Some people don’t know when to drop a toxic person. They do not necessarily think, oh my, I have to dump this person. No, if they are in the thick of passion with this individual, they cannot see straight. Now, this never happens to me. I’m a level-headed person, at all times, even in high school when I was not on medication.
I’m not in a hurry to get married. I’m more in a hurry to get my advanced degrees. I think I’d rather do that first than get married. There are things I need to do to help others. I want to become a pro-bono mental health lawyer for one, although I think I want to be D.A. someday, wherever I wind up living, such as Los Angeles. Marriage can and often does wait. Don’t go for any tree in the forest. Write down your requirements, and peacefully wait.
If you make no money, you get a certain limit on how much money you can have. $2,000 is the limit. If you still don’t have financial resources, they do not cut you. But if you have more money or they imagine you do, then you get cut. This is why I want to focus on one essay contest at a time. If I can win this contest, as the grandprize winner, I can make $1,000, of which I can pay a company that believes in work-life balance the license fee of $200. Also, I’m able to make money with a big novella I need to submit with no plans to submit it until early September. I also need to buy art supplies and another copy of my computer, the laptop that is, the one that got sabotaged anyway. That’s easily found on eBay for a fraction of the price, since the old one can be used for tinkering, as in taking it apart and putting it back together.
I really need to be making more money here. I’m so close to a full night’s sleep. Really, that is the deciding factor with my internist on when I can make money. The last thing you want is to be a billionaire bipolar person because hey when mania hits, lock up the credit cards or you risk spending sprees. I’m a minimalist spender now, and I will be a minimalist spender when I make my money. If I really do have half-sisters that have been spoken of by other psychics, then I’m going to have them help me manage my estate. I’m rarely ever that manic spender anyway because I spend my life hiding out at home in fear of what other people think although I’m working on learning how not to give a shit. If I wind up moving to Los Angeles, I’m pretty much sure I’ll be eat, sleep, study the whole way as I want to get a law degree, an M.A. in archaeology, an MBA, and an M.D./Ph.D. I’m pretty good at focusing on what I want. Somehow this blog can also make significant income. Maybe. I keep pushing through.
Hillary Clinton got pretty far as a female candidate for President. But we need to think about the future in the United States. Eventually there will be a woman president someday. Why are we so backwards? The next President will be Kamala Harris for sure. I can see it, since people will be done with 45 by 2020. Harris will run for office in 2020 most likely. Although I’m not sure what the other options are yet as Senator Bernie Sanders may run again. Other countries can elect women presidents, so why can’t we?
Women run for office all the time, some succeed. We need more minority candidates in Congress as well as people at least 35 years of age, in terms of fresh blood. I don’t quite know how San Jose City Council works yet. There should be candidates who push the universal income as sustainable for the poor because we don’t have that going for us in the United States as a whole. We are way too entrenched in capitalism for our own good. Health care for example, has to be free someday or at least single-payer, where one organization manages health care for all at the federal level, also known as Medi-care for all. http://www.pnhp.org/facts/what-is-single-payer.
I consider myself a technopagan, and intrinsic magician. I’m also quite a chaos magician because this means that I can fit into any system I want. I have a lot I need to study, and many a book to buy. Amber K’s “True Magick” is a great beginner read. There are long lists of books to read in every chapter. I use Greyschool.com as a way of being technopagan. As an intrinsic magician I manage to do stuff in my head all the time even if I have an altar at home that I use to call the quarters. I haven’t actually done ritual in awhile though as I’ve been busy trying to survive on low-income.
When visiting a pagan, it is best not to touch ritual tools. These tools are sacred to the user. See, I’d like this thing called a work from home part-time job. I keep praying, casting spells, and manifesting all for no results. I’m starting to lose the faith I have in myself here, or at least that’s at a bare minimum. I have plenty of time on my hands to blog, but a part-time to full-time writing gig eludes me. I work easily 6-7 hours a day from home, which is a fair part-time to full-time schedule.
I mean I can work from home with no problems but even a work from home gig is hard to find when you have a disability. I’m pretty sure it is that. I need to do more healing magick on myself than I’ve been doing. Pagans have a real self-improvement kick. We do our best to enhance our spiritual development. Word to those who have groups in the pagan community, I do not do naked groups. I practice at home like that when I feel up to it, but not in groups.
They try to come to my door but see, I tell them to respect my religious difference. Some on the bus wouldn’t leave me alone. Intimidation tactics do not work on me. Your religion tells you to spread your faith around but really what you are doing is forcing it on people. Forcing conversation on people, forcing conversion. That doesn’t sit well with me. You people need to seriously grow up because not everybody is willing to see things the way you do. This goes for any fundamentalist Christian sect. Quit coming to my door or I’m getting a restraining order.
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