Berthe Marie Pauline Morisot, a French painter, is #2 on the list of women painters https://www.ranker.com/list/famous-female-painters/reference, often described in 1894 as “les trios grandes dames” of Impressionism alongside Marie Braquemond, and Mary Cassatt. Her first exhibition was in 1864 at the Salon de Paris, which was part of the Académie des beaux-arts. She had a regular show from 1864, on. She was born January 18th, 1841 in Bourges, France, and she worked with her sister, Edma on paintings although women were not allowed to join art institutions, but they got respect for their work.
Bertha and Edma both got a chance to travel to Paris so they would learn work from older artists that came before them. There is such thing as artists who do not draw people, but many do. By the late 1850s, they were studying with Jean-Baptist Camille Corot, to learn the painting of outdoor scenes. In 1868, Henri Fantin-Latour, who introduced her to Edouard Manet, and she also made friends with Edgar Degas and Frédéric Bazille, these friendships made her stop showing her work at the Salon in 1874. She wound up marrying Claude Monet, whose younger brother Eugne was a painter as well. Morisot was into painting many subjects from landscapes, and still lifes, domestic scenes, and portraits. She was ahead for women in her time by practicing the discipline of painting.
I have had enough of my self-esteem problems as I’ve found a way to get therapy but I can’t say much about the actual scene yet. I have 22q and I feel lifelong guilt for having a slight difference in appearance that most people do not notice. Or so I understand now, in the present, but my, when I would get paranoid about the way I look. Now, I fully see that I have body dysmorphic disorder, among other things, such as schizophrenia, bipolar 1, OCD, type-1 diabetes and hypothyroidism. All except diabetes are from 22q, a minor genetic deletion that in no way affected my intelligence any, despite that being said as though it would have by certain people (my family), I’m not going to discuss out in the open.
I’m done being paranoid about people perceiving me as a pity party. I try to always be upbeat, frank, and happy. I try to let on that nothing is going on with me. I try to make sure to be positive all the time. I take my medication every day like clockwork to stay stable. My diabetes management is going somewhat well, but the thing is, I’m winning the sleep war. As a child, I didn’t get much sleep because I wasn’t treated with medication.
I will save why that is for another post. The concept of doing nothing but resting eludes me. The sheer thought of doing nothing scares me. I’m not exactly the sort of person content with not doing anything at all. I’m determined to feel good daily, so taking my medication is a part of that. I have dumped people who do not take their medication consistently, at the dose prescribed. I’m fed up with my family not taking medication on top of that. I was a full-blown alcoholic by from 18, or 2001-2010 when I quit drinking on my own. I have since attended many pagan 12-step groups.
I hate being dependent on anybody. So fracturing my tibia in 2016 and dislocating my kneecap all the way was incredibly frustrating. I had to depend on my mother for three weeks, which is a travesty by itself in ways I will explain later on. I hate letting anybody take care of me, be it family or anybody else. I can’t stand it. I take care of myself in the privacy of my own home most of the time anyway. I have yet to meet another person with my disorder besides one I found on WordPress.
I get paranoid all the time of people seeing me, and finding out that I’m different. I have webbing in my hands, which is not obvious but some people somehow find it okay to point out the obvious. Somebody else gave me a palm reading, I gathered he noticed, and he quit reading immediately. Good for him. That was appropriate. You see, we pagans believe in developing our psychic talent as part of basic witchcraft studies. I have some unusual talents my community acknowledges but I’m not exactly able to talk to outsiders about save for on my own blog, iriavp.com. I have a B.A. in creative writing from San Francisco State University. Sometimes my paranoia gets to me. What if I’m not cut out to be an entrepreneur, author, and more than that, which I keep to myself?
I also have two A.A. degrees, one in anthropology and one in creative writing. The anthropology A.A. is with honors. The advance degrees I DO NOT HAVE YET but actually want, are a law degree so I can become a congressperson, an M.A. in archeology, an MBA, an M.S. in psychology, and an M.D./Ph.D. I’m short on money to re-enroll in junior college so I can get online classes out of the way. The art bug has bitten me as a way to make money, and the thing is, it can raise awareness about my genetic disability. I’m tired of feeling bad about this disability though. I’m tired of letting other people push me around. I’m exhausted with imagining I’m not smart enough to do what it is I want to do with my life.
Louisa May Alcott is easily one of my favorite women writers from three centuries ago. I’ve read Little Women (1868), recently, but not Little Men (1871) or Jo’s Boys (1886), years ago. She was a published author in the 1860s who wrote contemporary stories. Many famous writers had pen names in those time periods. Hers was A. M. Barnard, which helped her publish stories about spies, revenge, and cross dressers. Little Women is loosely based on having three sisters. She was the daughter of a social worker, Abby May and her dad was Amos Branson Alcott. Both transcendentalists, they encouraged Louisa May Alcott to seek perfection. Branson Alcott had many conflicts with his independent and strong-willed daughters.
His daughter had to work at an early age because her family was not economically well off like others, another similarity between Little Women and her real life. Alcott had been a teacher, seamstress, governess, domestic helper, and writer. Her sisters also had to work, as seamstresses, but in 1847, they housed an escaped slave as part of the Underground Railroad. She served as a nurse during the American Civil War, for six weeks in 1862-1863. She based “Jo” on herself but she never married like Jo did at the end of the story. Both an abolitionist and a feminist, Louisa May Alcott died of a stroke two days after her father’s death in 1888. I need to read the Little Women sequels as I had no idea they existed.
A Polish and naturalized French citizen, Marie Curie had a general education. She had also studied physics and chemistry while conducting the first basic research on radioactivity. She was the first woman to win a Noble prize. She won two Noble prizes as the only woman to win two, in different categories although winning Noble prizes ran in her family because the Curie family had at least 5. She was the first female professor at the University of Paris. She discovered polonium, radium, and uranium. She also founded the Curie Institutes in Paris and Warsaw. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marie_Curie
She discovered that radiation could cure cancer and skin ulcers but at the same time radiation could cause burns, while simultaneously destroying the metabolism of cells until they died. Her discoveries lead to better ways to treat cancer. Polonium was a new element when it was discovered, as the Curies didn’t know what radiation was. They both had cases of radiation sickness because of their ignorance. Curies’ husband died in 1906 from a horse and cart accident in the street. She eventually died of aplastic anemia, leaving behind two daughters.
https://www.nobelprize.org/educational/nobelprize_info/curie-edu.html
Ann Tsukamoto is a co-patent sharer of the process to isolate a human stem cell. Her research could cure many diseases, from cancer to diabetes. Stem cells are located in the bone marrow, where red and white blood cells grow. Cancer research demands that we figure out how stem cells can be produced artificially. Ann Tsukamoto works for Stem Cells, Inc. since 1998, as the first researcher on a team. Stem cells renew themselves through periods of cell division. There are specific types of conditions that make a stem cell able to retain specific functions.
Stem cells can also come from embryos but the ones in the bone marrow are not part of an embryo situation. If stem cells can be artificially reproduced, then there is a way to cure things like diabetes or cancer. Stem cell research will continue to advance because of Dr. Ann. According to Justia, she has patents in genome editing, and a method for isolating pancreatic cells. Adult stem cells are found in the “brain, bone marrow, blood vessels, skeletal muscles, skin, teeth, heart, gut, liver and other but not in every organ, or tissue. (http://stemcell.childrenshospital.org/about-stem-cells/adult-somatic-stem-cells-101/where-do-we-get-adult-stem-cells/). Eventually, this research will lead to a cure for many illnesses, in particular, illnesses of the future.
The Mexican Revolution influenced her work as she often said she was born on July 7th, 1910. Kahlo was a Mexican artist who painted many self-portraits, Frida’s work was full of autobiographical elements as well as fantasy. Kahlo was a surrealist or magical realist. Kahlo was the daughter of a German father and a Mexican mother. Polio disabled her as a child but a bus accident ended her desire to become a doctor. She married Diego Rivera in 1928. She was his third wife as a doctor told him he was “unfit for monogamy.” Both partners had affairs despite being married, but in an unconventional way. Kahlo used elements from pre-Columbian and Catholic mythology.
The bus accident left her unable to walk for three months, as well as confined to her bed in a corset. Her dream of becoming a doctor ended on the day she got into the bus accident, but it gave rise to a new dream of becoming an artist. When she married Diego Rivera in 1929, they both received attention from the press. Diego and Fria were both rivals in the art world, as well as two productive individuals. Frida Kahlo was one of those people who had a lust for life but Kahlo’s health declined after her 30s, as she died in 1954 at the age of 47.
Dr. Judith Roof comes from a long line of physicians. She is a psychiatrist who studied psychic talents in order to help her patients better. She went to the University of Southern California and earned her psychiatry M.D. in 1979. She did her residency at the UCLA Neuropsychiatric Institute from 1979, to 1983. Second Sight is a great book of hers that is enlightening because this book helps my understanding of how my own abilities work. She did staff position work at Los Angeles hospitals. Second Sight is a beautiful book I picked up in college, years after it’s original publication.
Orloff has second sight, or the ability to see things before they happen, as well as things that you cannot readily perceive. Dr. Orloff has spoken at medical schools and hospitals. Dr. Orloff has written other books besides Second Sight, such as Second Sight:. Warner Books. 1996. Dr Judith Orloff’s Guide to Intuitive Healing. Three Rivers Press. 2001. Positive Energy: 10 Extraordinary Prescriptions for Transforming Fatigue, Stress, and Fear into Vibrance, Strength, and Love. Three Rivers Press. 2005. Emotional Freedom: Liberate Yourself from Negative Emotions and Transform Your Life, The Power of Surrender: Let Go and Energize Your Relationships, Success, and Well-Being. Harmony. Dr. Orloff has multiple subspecialities such as addiction, forensic psychiatry, neuropsychiatry and pain treatment. Her books teach me how to be caring without losing my mental health in the process. I try to care about somebody else without overdoing the caretaking, which is my main problem, I caretake too much without getting my own needs met. If I ever make it to UCLA, somehow… I hope that I can make a dent in her field.
I’m fed up with the whole “made in China” nonsense. How many others are similarly fed up? Why can’t we make US goods cheap? Why do we have to rely on imports? Everything comes out of China. You realize this is the equivalent of them taking over? Nobody thinks of this that way but scuffles with China do us as much harm compared to what we are trying to do to them? If stuff that’s made in China stocks our shelves, are the lower prices worth it to you? Buy “made in the USA”.
Ways of making “Made in the USA,” with lower prices are something we all have to work on. We can’t just rely on foreign goods anymore. We have to become more self-reliant. We used to be but all this trade with China can’t always be as voluminous as it is now. It is hard for a writer such as myself, to understand why we rely on China so much. Why is it hard for people to find a “made in the USA” laptop. I guarantee that if we brought more production back to the United States, more people would buy products with the label “made in the USA,” if it were cheaper.
You see, we the powerful, who practice witchcraft have a responsibility. Mine is to keep my power regulated with my medication. I cannot just lose my shit around people. Someone with my skill set could easily fry someone else’s brain without realizing it, while expressing either mania or depression. So I keep my moods stable since I remember what it I was like in high school without an ability to be stable. I was forced to suffer my symptoms. Certain people would say that I really needed medications in high school because being around me was difficult when I was having crying jags.
My power is now out there since I’ve started this blog. I am less inclined to keep it secret as I do. I’m just a competent peer counselor which I use the skill on Facebook. I’m also a phone psychic for a hotline. I try to use my abilities wisely, in careful manners. Few people need a blunt response from others when asking about their love lives for example. So I try to ask them if they can take what I have to say. They usually do. But anyway, power is your responsibility.
If a pagan cannot wield their power wisely, it is time to put it away until you can. I need to do more rituals for myself. I’m done with cursing, because cursing is very passive-aggressive, I’d rather use direct aggression if I need to. There is such thing as aggression found in your written work too. A curse is merely a way for myself getting out of doing my own dirty work. I have to do some more rituals about self-healing. I found a format in Amber K’s True Magick. But yes, more work lies ahead of me, prosperity and self-improvement are a part of that.
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