CPTSD is a chronic form of post-traumatic stress disorder. It means you have been through long-term hardship, abuse and/or stress. The symptoms include hyper arousal, flashbacks where you re-experience the actual trauma, while also experiencing negative thoughts, even as you avoid similar situations. Like me with avoiding relationships with anybody right now, period. It may be an accurate estimate according to the article below that 8 million people in the United States deal with CPTSD.
My PTSD comes from being diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in the hospital at 10 years old. I have since made the commitment to not wind up in the hospital again. It is easy to stay out of the hospital when you have schizoaffective, so long as you take your medication. Unknown to my understanding, there are two types of PTSD, dissociative and delayed onset. This comes from all my childhood trauma. I’m not a boy, sorry about this dad. I’ve long resented my female body for causing me so much trouble, but since I’ve been apologizing to diabetes lately, I’m going to start apologizing to my body for all the trauma it had to endure because I was born female.
I now understand my sleeping patterns to be affected by CTPSD because I have a hard time staying, and falling asleep, but my meds prevent the angry outbursts although I rant online so that could count as an outburst, although my concentration is not so easily affected. Having difficulty concentrating is another symptom of PTSD. Lately I’ve just been distancing myself from others in order to try to deal with my hernia. I’m traumatized that my family didn’t look into Mr. Hernia any further than, I was three, and it was felt. I know I have to get into Cognitive Behavioral Therapy from a transpersonal psychologist and a transpersonal psychiatrist. More of ’em exist now. I’ve had plenty of Acceptance and Commitment therapy by a transpersonal psychologist named Dr. Bolsheva, many times. I have tried exposure therapy on my own, on myself, and I know how to use eye movement desensitization and reprocessing, a little bit. It helps you get out of the headspace of trauma. I also know that Reiki is very effective on trauma responses that your body puts you through.
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My diabetes management is going perfectly, since I’m hovering at 155 mg/dl in the 7 day. The holiday highs are gone now, I’m able to focus, and I’m doing okay. The thing is that I’m trying my best to get stuff done even with the new threat of coronavirus lurking. I have low blood platelets to deal with which means that I could get an infection at any time, and this in turn may mean that I have yet another autoimmune disorder. Reiki is effective on blood counts.
I’ve learned at least that much about how Usui Reiki works. But anyway, time enough for that. I’ve decided to cut ketchup out of my life because it gives me heartburn if I use too much of it. I’m dangerously close to running out of money here. I have to ask my pharmacist to sign my review form, and then I have to send it in the mail. Either that or asking a neighbor. But anyway, I’m doing great, I’m keeping it together.
A scanner, according to my Work 2 Future Counselor, Marky Stein, a scanner is someone who changes jobs every so often, and in my case I start new businesses. I’m working on keeping my head above water financially here. I’m trying really hard to make money but I’m falling short. I’m looking to arrange sources of income. I want to make real money here. I have business plans to write. Today I’m working on the 22q non-profit writing website staffed by those of us with 22q who want to write about it. It is a non-profit. I have to work on this business plan today.
I want to help people like me, people with 22q. I also want to help people with mental illness and become a psychiatrist for fringe sub cultures. Not every psychic relies on medical care for their own purposes. They do not necessarily go, gee, I need help. Some of them don’t want to take artificial chemicals. They are scared of Western medicine, some of them. I’d like to be a transpersonal psychiatrist. I pretty much want an MD so I can make myself useful, in particular if I age slowly. I do not look my age anyway, so this is an advantage at times, even if it feels like a curse at other times. I want to learn how to help the injured, but I’m not so sure I want to expose myself to germs although I know many a metaphysical way of keeping the germs away.
The illegal job interview questions we covered in Career Life Planning 71 at Foothill College years ago, includes age. You cannot ask how old someone is when you try to figure out when they graduated high school unless that is obviously on their resume. You cannot ask about an arrest record either. You cannot ask a woman if they can work at specific times of the day because you will uncover whether or not they have children. You are allowed to ask if the person is legally allowed to work in the United States. Candidates who deal with large sums of money need to be asked about convictions. You cannot ask questions about credit, or even if somebody is married or not. It is okay to ask in detail about education, as well as how long you’ve stayed in a specific job. You especially cannot ask questions about pregnancy, or about the candidate’s married name. You cannot ask about race or skin tone, in particular if the candidate is biracial. You cannot ask about religion either, or sexual orientation. When I work the HR division for my social network idea, I’m going to remember what not to ask.
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Workplaces cannot discriminate people for their race, sexual identity, gender, or disability. They cannot penalize you for being married, single or poly either not that this should be made obvious, it doesn’t have to be mentioned. You cannot be mistreated based on your national origins, age, or physical or mental disability either. But all too often I have faced these barriers, save with Uber. Z-D made some crack about how they won’t hire me with my disabilities, but see, she was wrong. I rubbed it in. They also cannot discriminate against veterans, or ex cons, give or take it depends on the offense the convinced has made. They also cannot dispute citizenship or genetic information.
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I’m not quite sure, ladies and gentlemen. Will it get better? Yes, maybe but I’m stubbornly refusing to use 22q as a pity card to get a job, get a scholarship, or get anything out of anybody. Why the hell should I use my genetic disability to get stuff? I mean, I’m a very productive person who will eventually make money either way. So why the hell should I use my disability as any sort of excuse? My knee is getting much better but I need ink cartridges for my printer. I know how to manifest things with the law of attraction in mind, really, so the situation will not get worse.
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