Back in college, my past-life karma led me to the worst situation of my life with my roommates, all of who were narcissistic, maybe. All drank, did not take care of their chronic illnesses, and tried to sabotage me with expecting me to drink. All that alcohol I drank in college could have landed me in the hospital. I didn’t get really sick though, lucky for me since processing substances a certain way is a psychic ability I do not know enough to comment on but I know that some spirit guides can help you process chemicals, and it may be called a Gatekeeper guide? My roommates bullied me, called me a retard to my face, and had parties when I wasn’t feeling well.
I’m an introvert. I do not socialize very much when I’m not feeling well. Like today, we have my Pagans in Recovery meeting that I cannot go to because I’m busy staying home today. I don’t feel like I can make it to group without seriously getting overloaded. I had drug addicts for roommates who picked on me nonstop. They wanted me to move and I was like, okay, sure, but the school wouldn’t let me move until the beginning of the semester when I found a graduate student since I took my work seriously. I did my studying in the afternoon, and I’d go to bed early.
I was on an entirely different set of meds at the time that caused me boils. Or maybe I caught staph at school from somebody since the doctors gave me a prescription for doxycycline. I look back on my unstable days and I get scared. I let my family dictate to me how I was to proceed with my medical care. Until I found SSI, I didn’t know that my medical care could be my decision alone. Other people on campus were busy slurring me when I was out, and I was already paranoid on college campuses from my schizoaffective. I was already suffering enough. My roommates just made it worse because one would study in the middle of the night and never sleep, as she was a paranoid methhead who didn’t know that the drugs were messing her up.
I have a stage name/alter ego who will get their own monetized blog on WordPress eventually, when I can afford to pay for monetizing my blog. My alter ego will write about stuff like psychic attack. It is my psychic worker stage name, also. I cannot reveal this name here in this blog. I’m doing my best to work, work, work, and make money here, so my character will do a lot of work for me. I feel more comfortable reading for people if I hide my business identity while doing the psychic stuff on the side. I do have a Wix page.
I have a long list of my alter ego’s book ideas, such as one on real magick versus fictional magick. My book ideas keep growing. As Iria, I can write self-help books with doctors or eventually stand-alone as I will get my M.D. someday. This is why I feel urgency to make money, to get away from being low-income. What matters when you budget is the pot, the grand total in the pot, not the purchases of the little things that you make in between the act of earning money. I’m working on an article for Income Diary about how to make money online.
I’m working on a plan to make more money as a freelance copywriter. I like freelancing because you are running your own business on your own time. I got a USB drive with interviews for other freelancers who are into using Upwork. For some reason, they won’t accept my profile but I’m trying to have it to through eventually. I need to fix my Kindle, and my Square since I have a chip reader ready to go. I’m trying to make real money here, something I have no idea what it is like to have in my short 38 years, where I’ve made $12,000 reportable dollars since the year 2000 when I started working for real. My family would not let me work part time in high school. But anyway, that doesn’t mean I can’t work in the present. It is a necessity of adult existence.
Gods I feel so blocked, I mean, I’m like enthusiastic about starting a book that wants to be 200 pages, about the length of a Toni Morrison novel, around 250 pages, but 250 very action-packed pages. Some of the action is inside someone’s head, while she is on an alien space ship. The story is full of campy jokes, and is meant to be campy, campy, campy. Unfortunately today, my brain wants to make sure that I am tired from waking up way too early because I was busy chasing instabilities, like 130 at 11:00 p.m. which meant my basal rate was too high.
Just seeing the images in my head with the action-packed stuff is making me dizzy. My own work scares me. I do have Mexican-American characters though. What I’m confusing myself so much about though is what happens first? Do I have three acts? How to make it an action-packed story? I mean, it has to be a wild ride. Not every science fiction novel has to be long, I mean look at Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? Its short but it got turned into a movie. I know the first DarkDawn book will take place in somebody’s mind, on a Spaceship because she gets abducted but the aliens read her mind to see her reactions to their plans. This is all that is in my head right now. All of it. Yes, I’m confused. I mean a plot outline has to be done first. Other books are longer. What usually pops into my clairaudient little head first is the length of the book. I need to do a massive plot outline. I ask the book how long it wants to be. It isn’t my decision, the book has a life of its own. It practically exists in another dimension, this is what being psychic does to a writer.
My business idea for a Cliff Notes website may exist in the form of Cliff Notes books online that do not substitute for actually reading the book, ever. Paying people for book reports in a work from home format could really help some make money online. They would be submitting book reports getting paid a rate of 0.05 cents each. This is an attempt to make a work from home site that can help people get paid well. I’ve been writing copy nonstop lately, I’m trying to relax and not necessarily over do things.
This is why this blog is short for me. I’ve been very busy. There is a reason I’m not allowed to be in lethal sports right now or intense sports anyway. I’ve been overdoing the athletic thing my entire life. I guess I’m just going to be forced to learn how to relax and not drive myself to extremes trying to impress people. I’m addicted to work. I’m a workaholic who doesn’t know when to quit. This is something I do not want to emphasize in any company I have. Growing up, I wasn’t necessarily allowed to take breaks, I begged for them, but not always. In my adult life, this cannot happen.
My cousin once made me a natural heat pack using seeds, and cloth. Out of this, arose a major business idea requiring a kiosk at the mall where I can work my own hours as well as hire a partner, depending on how much the kiosk rent is, and if I have time to manage this venture myself. Here is the list of products I need, which was written on a Word file, saved on my USB drive forever, and is something I need extra income to capitalize off of.
LIST of Products needed for healing bag.
$12.00 ESTIMATE
Wheat – in grains
Linseed grains
Cinnamon – sticks cut up
Mint – the leaf
Anise – the grain
I am allergic to eating mint not to having it inside my heat pack. We went to the natural foods store in Mountain View many years ago, to get the materials such as wheat grains, and linseed grains. A quick eBay search later: I found wheat berries also called kernels for $12.99 each.
Linseed grains are next on my search term list; they have a price range from $4.25 or higher. Cinnamon sticks can be found at the grocers, along with mint.
And finally, you can get anise, the grain, for
https://www.ebay.com/itm/Whole-Star-Anise-Aniseed-Premium-Quality-A-Top-Quality-Spices-Free-P-P/163663764740?hash=item261b1edd04%3Am%3AmxAT9h2qN_YxiylPsthgl2g&LH_BIN=1, although this seller is away from their eBay job until August 23rd, 2019 because they are on vacation I assume.
I need cloth to sew the bags up. I figured I could hire sewing talent to make the bags. Cloth has to be cotton in order to sew together the bags. Cloth can be found at Joann fabrics. I have a sewing machine to use for this venture. I have a vague idea on how to use this machine. I need my car back to get this stuff together though, although I can seriously walk to the mall if need be. Yes, things have to wait until my knee gets better, give or take the fact that it is taking its sweet time.
I have thought to become a professional female body builder. This is because I have decided to try to impress people this way. I can bench press 55 pounds as my upper limit. I can lift many a weight, but I forgot what types of machines they used to have at the YMCA. I know I can’t do any leg lifts as that is too heavy for both knees, even with a lighter weight. I feel that my knee injuries would prevent leg lifts from happening so I shouldn’t go near that device.
My body building is a way to give myself muscle, and prove that someone little like me could lift heavy objects. What I do to lift something heavy or even to walk to the supermarket, is to use my Chi. Chi is an energy that comes from your body, if you breath three times, short, and quick breaths. I use Chi to lift heavy objects and that is all I understand about it, as explaining what Chi is would take a while. In my limited understanding at the age of 38, Chi may have something to do with psychokinesis, or my ability to bend metals.
With chi, I can push someone twice my size, meaning that I channel energy or power or something in order to accomplish this. My anxiety, stress, and pressure can trigger my PK. Chi itself is another name for this energy? Somebody correct me if I’m wrong, it’s okay. I’m trying to wrap my brain around my mind, as well as my body. My knees could buckle if I try to lift any heavy weights right now. I feel like maybe I could try biking at the gym give or take but I don’t want walking there to make me feel tired.
My bodyguard service idea is something that anybody with a chronic illness or disability can use. It would be low-cost, a monthly fee, rent a body guard. Sometimes people with schizophrenia have trouble going out on their own because they are troubled by extreme anxiety as well as paranoia symptoms. Many schizoaffectives also deal with agoraphobia. They are afraid of going out of doors because of something the voices might say. My voices take on the sound of every bully I’ve ever had, every mean thing that has ever been said to me. Remember, the Akhashic Record is all about everything that has been said on this planet.
So in which case, every mean thing I’ve ever had anybody say is in there. It takes a few lessons to be able to retrieve it. My bodyguard service would be used to protect disabled people from bullying. We could also work with corporate executives and celebrities. The bodyguard service comes out of knowing that schizophrenics are more often than not, the victims of crime rather than the perpetrators. So in which case, this is a way to keep other schizophrenics safe from criminal behavior wherever they go.
I have an idea for a business to set up in California called the Anger Room. This is a franchise idea because the original company exists in Dallas, and I want to carry on Donna Alexander’s work. She died from being beaten by her boyfriend, who injured her so severely that she died of her injuries. Her work needs to be carried on. I want to establish an anger room in the Bay Area. I don’t even know if her old anger room still exists in Dallas. But hey, this could be turned into a franchise. I’m shocked to learn of her death.
She had a great idea. I wanted to try it. I would have gone to Texas to try this anger room thing out for myself. But then again martial arts works just as well for me. I too dealt with violence against women growing up. Her idea was based on the principle that anger needs to be confronted. Gaslighting, domestic violence, and triangulation are things that are done to victims to make sure that they do not know they are being messed with by their abusive narcissist. A narcissist is merely a sociopath who is not in jail. Sociopaths have no empathy towards others, which is why they abuse people the way they do.
This anger room was designed to help people let go of violence done to them. I’d like to start my own room in San Jose, maybe in a warehouse? Donna Alexander had started it in her garage at some point, and then she had to rent a building. This is such a fabulous idea, put a franchise in major cities. It would be cool if I was allowed to carry on her work with this.
I need a gummy candy mold first of all, which can be found on eBay or Amazon. I already looked because I just need to find one. Also, I’m going to try to make Jigglers. My first attempt turned into juice and Jello and was too weak to qualify as a gummy substance. Gummy bears, or gummy candy in general is a certain consistency. I’m going for the consistency of fruit snacks. Fruit snacks are pretty much solid. What came out of my fridge was not even a Jiggler. I’ve pretty much discovered that I have forgotten how to make Jello.
But then all is not lost, I have to figure out how to make home made gummy candies after I figure out how to make a Jello Jiggler that works. For that I need a cookie cutter. I will be experimenting with this stuff because I’m going to try to make gummy gluose tablets that tastes better than the normal, powdery kinds. Glucose tablets are useful for diabetics but anything else like candy makes your blood sugar go up too fast. Glucose tablets taste nasty though, they are not the best flavor sometimes, so we’d make the Shark Tank judges try a glucose tablet and then try my gummies.
I was so surprised at my current A1c, which is your three-month average, mine was 7.1% or 157. The thing about WordPress is that you guys are my homies who kick me in the pants. I do all my prewriting on this blog because you guys help me figure out what it really is that the story is about. I love that. You guys are cool for doing stuff like this, being my Muses. I’ve thought about working with the ancient Greek Muses because I need inspiration and a kick in the pants to write DarkDawn, book 1 of the series. I see three books that want me to write them. I have many ideas that need to be written in the next 30 years.
I’m most impatient at my tender age of 38 that I do not look like. My 3-month average was so perfect; that floored me because my glucometer average is 175. I’m working on dropping it. I have figured out a way to control the fiery sensation of my psychokinesis, check my blood sugar before changing my set, and also, try to inflict physical pain like flicking my wrist with a rubber band. For some reason, pain helps me ground myself. For others, pain leads to them becoming ungrounded. I’m not like most people.
I could have a real talent for shamanism, because I feel like I can walk between the worlds, and stay grounded. My average needs to be 135 in my glucometer. I’m asking myself the question: Can a hernia disappear? Could I, Iria, heal a hernia so that it just vanishes? I don’t even know anatomy well enough to answer this question but it is worth asking my internist how this is possible.
It is also worth trying psychic surgery. That is not the crap skeptics think it is. It is merely a dimensional shift thing that can yank out useless body parts one doesn’t need. Some liars use chicken guts to make it look like they tore something out of someone’s body. That’s the fake sort of healer. I’m busy trying to keep my average perfect while losing my infusion sets to psychokinesis. My infusion needles bend when I think of something frustrating, like my diabetes not being perfect when it actually is. I’m a harsh mistress of myself I suppose.
iriavp 