I want my Ph.D. and M.D. in psychiatry in order to help people like me. Some of us do not have access to treatment because there may be people in a similar family situation to mine. Why people seem to feel they can abuse chronically ill or disabled people in general is beyond me. But I want to be a billionaire so that I can help others with 22q. Many of us are trapped as I am, in a living situation, or a financial situation, or a parental situation. I want to free myself from my own trap so that I can free others. I was born with a heart condition that somehow disappeared at age 3, reversing itself on its own. I need more details from the pediatric heart specialists I was taken to. I want a Ph.D. so I can use it to help other people like me.
22q is Velocardiofacial syndrome also known as DiGeorge. All 22q has done to me is cause pediatric-onset schizoaffective, because I have a genetic disability that means a small piece of my 22nd chromosome is missing. I’m only writing about this because November is 22q awareness month. There are 200 mild to serious health problems that can result from having 22q, which can also cause developmental problems. 22q is hard for most doctors to piece together as it manifests as a huge puzzle. My parents hid the truth from me in high school, because they didn’t want me to feel anymore different than I already felt but it would have been useful to have a diagnosis of schizoaffective and OCD by then. They simply refused to send me to a psychiatrist when I needed medical care.
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Claircognizance is about having sudden insights that flood your brain without warning. This works with my writing quite well, because writing my stories requires being able to piece together a plot. Fiction is all about using real-life details to create fictional details. We writers make shit up, plain and simple. My use of detail in fiction is something I was well known for in school, where if I hadn’t been drinking, I would have gotten better grades. My claircognizance knows this is a fact. I have also had the insight that if I get manipulated into drinking again, I’d not shut up, cause a huge honking mess of a scene, and it’d be like I wouldn’t shut up. I see myself not going to Thanksgiving with my family this year, because I have had a strong buzz again, not to go. I have learned to trust my own instincts because my mother cannot tell me not to.
Chi is easy to use because you take in three breaths, very quickly. It fills your lungs up, causing energy to flow inside your body. The energy then seeps into your arms as well as your legs. You finally find the energy to lift something heavy, open a bottle, or walk around. There is also a point on your hand that you push using your middle finger, to guide the chi flow inside your body. Chi can help you push a person bigger than yourself away from you. Or use martial arts in a stronger manner than with you just using your weight. Chi is life force, and prana while also going by other names such as ki for example.
Yoga teaches you how to breathe properly, and how to focus on one pose at a time. At my dentist, I have learned how to use yoga breathing to put up with the X-ray machine they stick in your mouth. I need antibiotic before dental work to prevent infections. This Monday I’m going to my dentist for a cleaning and I’m taking the bus. Dentistry doesn’t scare me. I use yoga and Zen focus to get out of the pain of any procedure. Cleaning does not hurt as bad. Yoga is a relaxing practice that helps you focus on things but anxiety. I spent 9 years in yoga class until my knee injury stopped that for 3 years. I dislocated my kneecap and fractured my tibia in one day from pivoting my foot the wrong way.
Hi kiddos, there is a way to use Chi to make yourself warm. This is by breathing in three times in short puffs. Chi in general, is about breathing in three times. You also push a point on your hand with your middle finger when you want to generate this energy. Chi is the same thing but feels different from prana, life force, Qi, Ki, etc. It goes by many names. You circulate your chi when it is cold outside. You have to use chi daily to live, function, and breath. Someone negative could easily disrupt chi, which is kind of his or her goal anyway.
One article I have in my head is about how Republicans are changing their ways. The entire Republican Party is going to have to change after 45, and the impeachment hearings are done. On one end- it would be nice to write this article. On the other end, it would scare me to write it now. Then again somebody has to condense the last three years into one piece. I’m not sure if I can write it immediately, but I do need extra income to file a fictitious name for my business. I’m waiting to publish stuff, and to get more copywriting work since this is the seasonal slow down on Textbroker. I’m working on training myself as a transcriptionist for other work from home jobs.
Working from home is an awesome, modern development. We with computers, Skype and the phone can utilize this intense resource that is working from home. A person can telecommute but still feel like a useful part of the company. Writing is the ultimate, the first telecommute job there ever was. The Internet grew into the beast it is today. Working from home is a lifesaver for many of us with psychiatric problems, and personality issues that mean working in a normal environment would be exhausting. Work from home means that we can also cover up any physical disability that we have because nobody will see it.
An ultra-perk is the ability to work in your pajamas. Nobody knows, nobody cares; you can work in your pajamas all day. Then again work from home is not an excuse to get sloppy. I shower every day, I do not want to get sloppy. I can maintain consistent activity. This is why I feel I can do well in a work from home job. I want my internist’s blessing for this because I feel that I need it. I can’t wait around for my knee to get better, I have to go out and make my own luck.
I’m half way done with transcription training. Why? Only because I’ve worked at it. I have Express Scribe that I’m using. Transcription is easy for me, because I can type and listen. I more or less nailed 10 hours sleep last night, leaving me grounded enough to cook a Spanish omelet for breakfast. I emailed my training file to my boss. I’m interested in learning transcription because that could open doors to get a job despite my family kicking and screaming that they may dislike me making real income. The thing is, transcription is easy. So eventually I will make extra income as it is the Textbroker.com seasonal slow down. Otherwise, I’m doing fine with everything else.
Okay, so the Land of True Blood is the new novella I’ve decided to work on. It is a story that integrates real fact with science fiction or science fantasy. Fiction helps us unpack our brain, because it gives us instructions on how to cope. As a writer who is a psychic herself, I know that what I’m writing about is not fictional bullshit but many may think it so. I suppose I have my work as a science fiction writer cut out for me. My main character will be a psychic with schizophrenia who is abusive and hurts the victim’s feelings a lot and psychically attacks her every chance she gets with her telepathy. Shella gets severely mistreated, and victimized, by Queen Marvilla, and her ladies in Waiting. The story is about making fictional bullshit come to life.
What is fictional is energy coming out of your hands, in self-defense, which these aliens I’m writing about can do. They are mostly a psychic species but the spy isn’t. She is not born with the Sight or any ability. I’m trying not to make my story too graphic but there is a lot of verbal abuse in it. The Queen and King are very mean to people in a land where there is social equality between the sexes. I forgot to include this item when I was writing the preliminaries because I thought for a minute to make sexism a part of the conflict. King Konstar Destiny is actually hailing from time when sexism ran rampant in the kingdom until women joined the army. Donna has been a leader of the army for a long time but Konstar misses the old days. He’s harsh with his narcissist schizoaffective wife as he is also schizoaffective. But anyway, yes, I’m trying to write this story here.
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