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No Ketchup

Because of Mr. Hernia, I’ve had to give up ketchup this week. I have ketchup, but I can’t use too much of it. The thing is, I used it three times a day in one day, last Wednesday and got rewarded with a massive heart burn attack. It was a bad attack. I was coughing a lot. I have now come to realize I cannot engage with indulging in ketchup right now. I have a referral to two female GIs, and other hernia surgeons. I need to investigate this thing further because I realize how limited my diet is. I have to stay away from vinegar, ketchup, and spicy food in general. Drat. That means no curry. Damn it.

Clairempathy: What Is It?

Clairempathy is defined as ‘clear feeling’ or feeling someone’s emotions. At the Parent-Teen Retreat Junior year I experienced clairempathy when I was telling someone how they slept the night before while she had a cold. I was giving her a rather graphic description of how her nasal drip worked in the back of her throat. I was literally feeling the emotion or physical sensation that she was loudly thinking about. I have looked over the Berkeley Psychic Institute online program, which I’m considering enrolling in. I need better training although I find the Daily Om cheaper since it is $15 per class as you are willing to pay however much you need to. I also have an account at Centre of Excellence I can’t afford. So yeah, I have to figure out how to do more than just read books and find myself a private teacher give or take me getting to them or them getting to me given my Mr. hernia related energy levels. I am wary of going out too long.

Works Cited

https://www.collectivetruths.com/single-post/2019/09/23/The-Difference-Between-Clairsentience-and-Clairempathy

Claircognizant Insights, How It’s Done

I get my claircognizant to work by just thinking about what it is I need to have an insight about, like what business to start first. I have lately been thinking about why I deal with abusive people too much, and what I’ve actually thought of is that it is a Paper Doll Syndrome kind of situation. I have to dump or distance myself from toxic people on a regular basis. I am trying to heal myself of a hernia and its related issues. Or at the very least, I’m working on making an effort to fix my type 1- diabetes also, both in the physical world, and other than that. I just think about something deeper and then some knowledge randomly pops into my head. It is how I decided to get Lamictal for myself because I woke up one morning and thought, dude, I need Lamictal for good judgment. And there you go, in 2017, I decided to get one more medication so as to stay stable.

Noticing Everything

Okay, let it be noted to my readers that I notice everything. I cannot deal with skepticism much right now because I’m feeling very fragile due to my hernia. I have to be wary of sauces for one. I’m trying to keep my head above water, so any skeptical posts I let through out of being civil but I have my limits. I am freaking out about Mr. Hernia here, and it is bad. They won’t operate yet because of my diabetes. But hey, eventually it will happen whether I like it or not. Thank God for the knowledge that endoscopy gave us. You see, I tend to walk around, reading people very well, and kind of figuring out who they are but I have to test my impression out because I need to see if I’m assuming or if I’m actually right.

The Auric Layers

I’m ignorant about many things psychic despite having studied, read, and tried to wrap my brain around these subjects. I now understand the chakras as energy organs, from the Intuition Guidebook, which I have read, dissected, and literally torn apart trying to figure this stuff out. The auric layers are what help screen psychic information apparently, (pp. 60). I know my auric layers have been weakened by all the psychic attack I have stared down. The first auric layer is the color red, and is located in and around the skin, which makes sense because its function is to protect life energies. The tenth auric layer is clear or brown and outside of the first layer, as a mirror or program, serving the second self.

The second auric layer is orange, and is outside of the tenth layer, whose purpose it is to screen emotions as well as feelings. Now the thing is that the third layer is what filters ideas and beliefs. I know this layer is messed up or injured too because I have negative beliefs about myself I’m trying to let go of. The fourth auric layer is Green, is found outside of the third layer, and attracts and repels relationships. This layer is fine because it means that I’m successfully repelling the Ex. The fifth auric layer is blue, found outside of the fourth layer, and attracts and sends guidance. Now this layer is messed up because I need guidance but can never seem to find it.

My life can feel like a Paper Doll Syndrome only because I find myself worried about the future a lot. The Sixth Auric layer is purple, found outside of the fifth layer, and opens to choices, projects and decisions. I know this layer is more or less fine because I decided to work on the Shadow of the Phoenix Rising business due to a feeling in my head. I was thinking the t-shirt business was easier, but I need to order more t-shirts. The 7th auric layer is white and is found outside of the sixth layer, because it connects with spirits, and Spirit inside of you, while broadcasting spiritual decisions. Mine is messed up because I believe weird things about myself that I can’t or struggle to let go of although today that tape is not as loud.

The Eighth spiritual layer is black or silver and is outside of the seventh layer that broadcasts karma and absorbs powers. We know what could happen to me if I try to eat chocolate again, without safeguards. I’m just voluntarily staying away from chocolate right now. My sets haven’t come down as much as they used to right now. Major set failure is risky business because then my Pk could be triggered big time. The 9th auric layer is gold, and is outside of the eighth layer, it connects with others based on soul issues. The 11th layer is pink and linked with the eleventh chakra, whose purpose it is to commandeer forces. The 12th auric layer is clear, linked with the twelfth chakra, and links with the energy egg connecting other humans and divine selves. The layers act as a filter protecting me from stuff, other people’s stuff. I’m going to get right with sleep when some of this aura business is fixed. So will my blood sugar become perfect.

Shadow of the Phoenix Rising: Next Steps

The next steps are to get readings from various psychics in different locations, and also to infiltrate religious groups while spreading my idea to psychics who either train or work inside the church or organization they are marketed from. Readings are something I need to get anyway for a variety of reasons, and I need to actually decide what kinds of questions to ask Sue Wilhite at East West Bookshop as the first reader I’m going to see. She is $35 for 15 minutes. My question to her is: Should I look into starting the Shadow of the Phoenix Rising Social network, and another question is, when will I find a job as a remote copywriter?

Diabetes Management Success

I’m successfully keeping my average at 160 mg/dl, because here I go, I’m actually succeeding at the impossible. My infusion set has to work, I have to keep it from coming down if it is being destroyed psychically, or from my psychokinesis. My energy is something I witnessed bending an insulin needle, to the point where I was 269 one minute, but went up to 290 mg/dl, felt terrible, was forced to inject again, and in the end I finally came down after the second injection. I have witnessed insulin 30mm needles move around, side-to-side, and then it actually didn’t inject me right. Insulin pen needles have bent when I tried to inject it into my thigh. My blood sugar was high damn it, which freaks me out. I get really scared at high blood sugar, while lows wipe me out from the anxiety also. But the point is I’m maintaining a stable blood sugar, I’m succeeding. The Paperdoll Syndrome Cyndi Dale talks about may yet be broken. I’m working on it. I have also witnessed insulin pen needles bend when making contact with my thigh. How do you explain that one?

How Mean Words Can Cut into your Energy Field

My book on How to Give Bullies What They Deserve, is all about bullies who try to come after people and what us innocent folk can do about it. Sometimes you have to think like a bully in order to beat one at their own game, which is to gaslight you, lie to you, make it your fault because in general they are giving you unnecessary shit. The bully is looking to make you their target. Mean words can cut up your energy field in really nasty ways. It can suck you dry, give you holes, making you feel bad about yourself in general since words really do hurt people’s feelings. It’s not as though people are looking out for your best interests when they are mean. Per a conversation with a friend, I managed to figure out that some people feel they do not have the right to be nasty to someone, not even if they are tired of taking their shit, but then I pointed out how necessary being mean to people who are throwing hostility in your direction can be.

3rd Chakra Blockages and My Writing

So I have a hernia lodged in my 3rd chakra, which I want to throw alternative medicine at. It might yet go away with this. I’m working on sleeping the whole night but as I have a third chakra blockage in addition to a hernia, I’m wondering if I will ever be able to write fiction again. I’m paranoid about a lot of different things right now anyway. My third chakra and my other chakras are pretty messed up from long-term abuse situations. I’m trying to keep my head above water, financially but not necessarily succeeding. An abuse survivor like myself with major chakra damage has to be treated with care as I feel fragile right now. Any abusive behavior leaves its mark. So I’m trying my best here to get stuff done.

In Chapter 10, we read about writing setting as a crucial element of a short story. A setting is important to the story. Once in college, I forgot to write a setting for a piece. Somebody pointed this out, and then said she was imagining it in a lab in outer space. Settings for my work vary, from a spaceship, to Earth in ancient times. Your story has to identify the time the story is set in, details about geographic, and more. Plot is defined as everything that happens to a character in this story, particularly the suffering they go through. My latest novella, The Land of True Blood, is about somebody going through hell, but winning in the end. This is the nature of fiction, although fiction is also about the protagonist working through conflict and the antagonist eventually getting beaten by the winner.

Works Cited

Schaefer, Candace, and Rick Diamond. The Creative Writing Guide: Poetry, Literary Nonfiction, Fiction and Drama. Tyler Junior College. Longman. Addison-Wesley Publication Inc., 1998.