I’m not sure I should impose a deadline for this project. I need postage, and I need envelopes. I also have to send a friend Benadryl. Postage required. This is a nonprofit I’m working on, a medical supplies trade site, like eBay only for trade. But anyway, the letters I have to send are for Shadow of the Phoenix Rising. This is envisioned as a social network for psychics. People will connect with a psychic healer on this website who is affordable. The monthly profile fee will be $5.95 while psychics have to pay $100 for the actual membership but they get a normal salary of $1,000.
Phoenix Rising is a common name. But adding the term Shadow, I hope to stand out from other psychic websites. I need to tell my ideas to major metaphysical bookshops. EastWest was the last one left standing when other bookshops in Mountain View closed. This business idea is something I want to sell only because I feel another person can organize it better than I could with my inexperience. This is why I need to find an equal partner who buys half the business from reading the business plan if they have the money to pass a long to me.
I will send letters to psychics I know when I have the money for postage. Postage money is something I’m interested in having around. I’m going to be busy this year, writing books, business plans, etc. I have fiction to write, I have a lot to do. I have many ideas I need to put together into real pieces. But anyway, yes, this next year will be busy. I want to talk to companies about starting this website, which would involve selling the phone application idea also. Yes, I have an idea for a phone application attached to the site but that is in a separate business plan.
The 22q student college fund comes from my days in college when my parents paid the rent while I paid for school with a Pell grant which is why I have no debt now. After college, I worked for a year. I got various work experiences. I built income to put into my SSI. You see, SSI is your money, not the feds. Free health care is something you have to prove you have a disability to get. I have 22q or Velocardiofacial syndrome. I feel judged harshly by normal people. I feel like nobody will hire me because I have so much low self-esteem.
College was a great time in my life. I want to be able to help students get a full ride, room and board. They will take care of their food bill though. Having a college education does help me get jobs, but sometimes I get in a really dark headspace thinking, nobody is going to hire me, because of my disability. This is truly a dark thought. They said my 22q does not impact my ability to work, but my diabetes qualified me for SSI. I’ve stayed put low income for 10 years, although this year I have to work on making more income or getting off the system completely. That’s where this blog can make money monthly.
Yes, I have schizophrenia. What is it with my beliefs about work? I saw a theta healer once, and we both worked on those beliefs. My beliefs still haunt me though. It will take a hypnotherapist to heal it. My beliefs are not necessarily that dark anymore though since I got the Uber driver 10 trips bonus. But I quit when I got into a car accident. I was like, stressed that day, so I realized that I could not be an Uber driver long term. My knee injury sidelined me from many things that could be construed as over doing. I’m trying not to overdo anything.
This is not so much a business plan as an activity blurb. I had to quit marital arts in 2001 because of my hypothyroidism getting in the way, causing me exhaustion from the brain fog. I want to learn sword work, along with studying archaic weapons like staffs, martial arts weapons, etc. This blurb is being written for my blog because I’m wondering if there are others who share my interest out there. I like old weapons like crossbows, from watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer way too much I suppose. But then again, I’ve had a life long interest in martial arts even with my bad knee. So that knee is healing and eventually it will be good to go back to my activities such as yoga, martial arts or tai chi. I don’t have as much stamina as I could have with this stuff thanks to my knee injury taking a lot of psychological energy to get through daily.
Some people are scared of a sober person who is in control of her power. Yes, they intimidate me because they are scared to death of me. That’s why a bully intimidates others at any rate, they want to make them squirm. The key is to give them a taste of their own medicine and make them squirm back. Making people squirm is a specialty of mine. Me not showing up to family holidays, has become a protest act that is setting a firm boundary. What misery exists in their homestead. I go to places to have a good time, not to be miserable.
If I can’t tell a dirty joke in honor of my uncle’s dirty jokes, then why the frak should I care? I’d rather be alone with the psychic sensitive turned on than at a party where everybody is convinced I will not succeed at anything I put my hand to. My family is so freakin’ brainwashed by the goddamn lying some people do. I mean just wow. I’m not retarded, 22q doesn’t cause that. My degree of severity is that this genetic deletion thingy is minor, and treatable. I mean I was wondering if my endoscopy would uncover a hot mess but it wasn’t that bad.
Apparently I’m not a hot mess. Hamburgers were my first addiction. I have since kicked this addiction and all others to the curb. I have work to do today like any other day. But even workaholism is an addiction, something I’m also working on this holiday season. My sobriety threatens some people because they aren’t taking care of their problem. I’m fed up with staying silent about this. But see, we will eventually be making money, streams of income, yadda yadda. Me having real money or a job and a job will rock the boat. I look forward to this boat rocking yo, because I feel I will amount to something after all.
Manipulation works something like this, “I will treat you well if you drink.” I’m not desperate to be treated well, and I’d rather be mistreated than touch a drop of alcohol but then again I’m working on my codependency issues in order to uncover why I get mistreated so much. I guess I allow it. I really know a thing or two about why I stayed alcoholic for so many years. My family acted like they really liked me while I was drinking but when I quit, they started hating on me again. That’s a totally narcissistic thing to do.
So if I stand up for myself, I’m not going to apologize for kicking toxic folks out of my life, anybody who had enabled my drinking in the past, well they have to go. My family doesn’t recognize they have a drinking problem. It’s why I’ve determined it is time to make real money, and get the hell out of dodge the day before they arrive. This may actually happen this way provided I pay the shit out of my taxes before they show up. Having extra income will mean I can get out of the house more, actually drive, or at the very least fix my car, and the door will be open to publish articles online. I’m making an effort to stay sober, because staying sober means staying functional. I’m a recovered functional alcoholic. I will eventually find an all remote job that’s work from home or remote enough to work with a laptop I will buy myself. Yes, they fear me making real money. They fear me having financial control over my life in any way. Hell, just the fact I’ve been ruled competent is too much for them. A type 1 diabetic should not drink too much and if they do, it should be non-alcoholic beer.
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