Lamcital has given me great judgment although I used sound judgment in dumping the Ex. I feel that I get a better night’s sleep on Lamictal, which grounds me. I’m otherwise okay now because the full moon is passed, along with my mother’s birthday. I’ve gotten very good at seeing toxic people for what they are. Hell, spotting a toxic person. When someone’s words are not matched to their body language, this is the biggest sign that person is on their best behavior but not telling the truth to you. I look out for toxic behaviors way more now.
I also avoid people out of sheer:”I don’t need to deal with toxic anybody, period.” I’m not into going to Meetup right now because I’m not driving. The intestinal obstruction I had in January and February scared me to death. Going to therapy is more than enough for me as is going to the library and going grocery shopping. I’m busy looking for a part-time work from home gig that suits my schedule and can make me extra income. Yes, my friends, I’m trying. At least I show good judgment, don’t have hypersexuality, and don’t do stupid things with relationships.
I’m just anti-looking for anybody right now. I’d rather pick a guy and then some, who respects my boundaries. My friends do not call me daily, or bring me their needy bullshit. They hear me out about my boundaries. They respect it. I can’t even go to Pagan events anymore, I’m pretty much curtailing all socializing because of my hernia. Although that has actually faded back into its background where it used to be. The flu I had in December last year triggered the intestinal obstruction. But anyway, yes, I’m hiding out until I feel 100% to be social. I’m a fragile psychic person, with damage to my energy body, which is why I’m not hanging out with people right now.
Domestic violence can cause a person heavy stress. My parents have no idea how much stress their shit causes me. In particular, my mother, who doesn’t have a clue as to how I’m feeling, how I feel about something, or what I’m dealing with half the time anyway. Domestic violence causes the victims a whole lot of aggravation, stress, and heartache. I have come to realize I didn’t deserve all of their stress. I had to live with immense panic attacks in high school, caused by exposure to domestic violence. I became a severe alcoholic because I was exposed to a lot of domestic violence.
I’m unable to go to therapy today because I feel physically run down even if I got enough sleep last night. I wasn’t totally dealing with psychic attacks from the covefefe, but I’m okay today although I changed my set without the needle bending and I’ve decided to stay home. I have been looking for real jobs using Indeed and Glassdoor. I epically failed my first direct order on Textbroker. I’m not seeing much in the way of extra income this month at all, so I’m worried about how the hell I’m going to pay off my credit card bill, which is why I’ve been looking for a real job. The second a real job happens, I’m going to the SSI office one morning to talk to someone. This is what you must do, to inform them that I found a source of income.
Granted, I need money to look into certain things like real legal advice. Not that my family takes any interest in any of my doings. They try, but they put me on ignore, and hate my writing most of all because it doesn’t go in line with their world view that I’m actually retarded because I have 22q. There were many dark events in my life. Gaslighting is so evil to do to somebody because it is a total lie.
Domestic violence can cause a person heavy stress. My parents have no idea how much stress their shit causes me. In particular, my mother, who doesn’t have a clue as to how I’m feeling, how I feel about something, or what I’m dealing with half the time anyway. Domestic violence causes the victims a whole lot of aggravation, stress, and heartache. I have come to realize I didn’t deserve all of their stress. I had to live with immense panic attacks in high school, caused by exposure to domestic violence. I became a severe alcoholic because I was exposed to a lot of domestic violence.
I’m unable to go to therapy today because I feel physically run down even if I got enough sleep last night. I wasn’t totally dealing with psychic attacks from the covefefe, but I’m okay today although I changed my set without the needle bending and I’ve decided to stay home. I have been looking for real jobs using Indeed and Glassdoor. I epically failed my first direct order on Textbroker. I’m not seeing much in the way of extra income this month at all, so I’m worried about how the hell I’m going to pay off my credit card bill, which is why I’ve been looking for a real job. The second a real job happens, I’m going to the SSI office one morning to talk to someone. This is what you must do, to inform them that I found a source of income.
Granted, I need money to look into certain things like real legal advice. Not that my family takes any interest in any of my doings. They try, but they put me on ignore, and hate my writing most of all because it doesn’t go in line with their world view that I’m actually retarded because I have 22q. There were many dark events in my life. Gaslighting is so evil to do to somebody because it is a total lie.
Here is my score on one job application test.
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