Okay, bloggers, it appears that when I laugh too much, I get told to take my medication. But when Zod laughs too much (female family member), people think its funny. Why does the disparity between someone on meds and someone not on medication exist? Interesting really, because it means that me, the treated one gets treated differently than the untreated one. I’m able to drag myself to urgent care today while the others drive each other to the doctor. I have no support system while my family has a major support system. What is wrong with this picture? I was told not to ask family friends for help.
Well, gee, hmm, I have a huge pimple on my face, which may mean that the other pimples that aren’t going away are not infected, yet. I’m going to urgent care this morning to see if I can get antibiotic for the pimples again. I’m run down, tired, and feverish, but I have to take myself by bus. I’ve gotten all the copy writing done for the day that I need to do. There really are no excuses to avoid going to Urgent Care. Anubis and Sekhmet have kicked my ass into going to urgent care myself. I’m also running a low-grade fever, so in which case, I’m off to urgent care in a moment, by bus.
My narcissistic family tells many lies about me. They scoff at the term narcissist, imagining they are right in the head when they aren’t. Plain and simple, do not believe what they say, that I’m incompetent with managing my own life, etc. This is loser territory. It is offensive to me because they are just that juvenile trying to make me feel bad about myself, imagining people think the worst of me when they do not. Also, I have been banned from asking for help. I might have to go to urgent care soon if my pimple gets worse, although it looks like it is healing well.
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So anyway, yes, do not believe the lies told to you. I have enough trouble convincing people that I’m smart, capable of managing my own money, and able to save money. Seriously, my disabilities are so treated I got a five year renewal on my driver’s license. In which case, I’m stable, the whole, Iria’s unstable bit is a total lie of Zod’s. Also, I’m not an angry person with them not around. See, my parents live in Spain, so in which case, they do not keep up with my life anymore. The distance is great. I have a very calm, happy existence. Here is one final warning: if you have ever believed Zod’s lies, or cracked to her manipulation, you are no longer my friend.
I would like to plant my own chamomile herb garden, rosemary, and lavender. I’d experiment with soil gardening and hydroponic gardening. For example, right now, I’m trying to grow beefsteak tomatoes in my yard that I can’t eat anyway because I have a hernia, and have been told to limit tomatoes in my diet. But anyway, aside from that particularly tragic circumstance since I love tomato soup, well, tomato anything really, I could grow mint, even if I’m allergic to mint. I’d plant herbs good for the immune system first, like Echinacea, as well as Elderberry, so I can make my own elderberry tinctures.
Oregano is yet another herb that is useful for your immune system, helping the body bolster its systematic response. I’d grow an aloe vera plant for skin problems, I’d grow edible herbs also like basil or parsley. I have wanted to grow my own herbs my entire life. But I never had the time, nor the inclination to do so. Now I do know I have plenty of time to attempt this project. I’d also grow herbs used in bipolar disorder so I can experiment. I would plant Black Cohosh, and ginseng, but see, I would figure out ways of marketing my herb garden to the world. I don’t believe bipolar gets better with herbs though, I feel that my condition is best treated with medicine. It takes some studying of medicinal herbs and how to start a garden, but it can be done. I cannot wait to get myself financially together enough to work on this project.
Blogging allows you make money per visitor who reads and/or likes your blog post. I would like to manifest $100,000 a month from my blogging habit. This could happen to anybody. I want to make at least $100,000 a month so that I can wind up with $1,200,000 or 1.2 million dollars. This has to buy the condo off of mom and dad so I can have the deed. Funny that I don’t have my car title anymore though, I don’t know where that went off during our move three years ago. A moving process in which I lost my medal collection since Zod threw them out in order to get an extreme reaction from me.
You can make serious money blogging or with affiliate marketing. Blogs make money on autopilot if you treat it like a business. You may perceive WordPress as hard, but I started my blog on WordPress years ago, and monetized it one month when I was sick of being low-income. I’m still low-income but I’m trying to make more money online by writing copy. Today I have to buy a frying pan since I screwed up my frying pan yesterday morning by using a squeegee on it, having also forgotten how to use the PAM.
Blogging does make money. It can make enough money to be a livable wage. This is what I want. 80% of content should be about problems you are trying to solve for people, while 20% is about stuff you want to write about. This is how you get traffic to the blog. There are many ways to get readers to read your blog such as using Facebook. My blog is linked to my Facebook page, which is set to mutual friends only, sorry guys.
I’m not going to send back my ill-fated and ill-fitting shoes. I decided to keep it as proof of the spoils of war. The way Zod’s brainwashing works is they make you agree with them, like “I’m going to throw this or that out,” like that’s a good thing. They act like such lovely people. But they throw out my stuff without my permission. Zod doesn’t like non-matching dishes or things in general for example but that is a persnickety OCD perfectionist trait that is thrown on everybody else. I’m going to try to make extra money copywriting but my true shoe size is a 34, not a 35 in European or a Size 4 Narrow in American.
Yes, I’m very financially frustrated right now. So in which case, maybe I could get a refund from said family. Or not. I need to find Birkenstock sandal style footwear that works for me. Then again my projects state that I’m going to have to hustle to pay my final bills at the end of the month. I’m glad I’m done paying Sprint. I wish I were Paypaled the price of my ill-fitting sandals. I have to wear other shoes. I’m fine with winter shoes, not summer shoes. I’m going to go for a bit of a walk today, to the bank to pay my credit card bill. May my shoe situation resolve itself.
The Graveyard of Dead Shoes is an Art exhibit I have planned to protest my lack of footwear provided by Zod (my family). I’m having trouble finding size 4 narrow on eBay. But then again, I need to make extra money to pull off being able to pay it in the first place. Zod is hell-bent on not giving me money for footwear. Hence my desire to start a footwear company for people size 4 and under since we have immense trouble finding mature-looking shoes, not in the kid’s section. I need to buy cardboard signs, also having to come up with what to say on those signs. I’m using this exhibit to come out of the 22q closet just a little bit.
My foot size is a result of 22q, without growing very much. They decided against giving me human growth hormone. Drat. I really could have used is a bit taller than I am. Caffeine use from the age of 12 may have also stunted my growth. But anyway, yes, I can still kick you mere mortals really hard in martial arts class where I get to cultivate my chi while being embroiled in using it. You have any idea how hard it is to find size 4 track spikes? But in high school, Zod and I somehow managed it?
I plan on making this art exhibit like the circles of hell in the Inferno, as Dante is one of my favorite authors. The shoes will be displayed in a circle, cordoned off with rope. The rope will be thick and held up by wooden beams. All to illustrate why my mother won’t buy my shoes anymore. I have limited income although I have ways of making money. I’m going to start exercising more of those ways of making money. This blog had better start making more money soon too.
My exhibit is also meant to highlight my business ideas. All 22q means is that I was born with pediatric-onset schizoaffective, that’s it. Nothing more. I’m not going to announce it all the time, seeing as I’m the sort of person who has many irons in the fire, a jack-of-all-trades, master of some type. I’m a writer with many books in my head that I have to work on. I want to resolve my health problems in a way that makes sense to me. I have kept on having to change my infusion set lately because every time I do, my PK turns on. Blasted energy telling metal what to do, it haunts me daily.
I’m pretty sure both grandmas on both sides of the family had schizoaffective as well as OCD. The smoking gun piece of evidence for that is how my family would make comments about how grandma would fantasize about leaving the stove off, begging to turn back when they were going on some outing somewhere in Chile. But my Spanish grandmother was pretty much someone who had that religious scruples OCD issue. She was a very devout Catholic who has a pagan for a niece. I’m sure she has gotten used to it over the years.
My family has OCD only because they were born that way. You wouldn’t guess this though from the way they treat me because my illness is under control. Wow, I mean I’m stable and here they say the opposite? Give me a break, losers. You people need help. I’m pretty much praying for my family a lot because letting your symptoms run your life is no way to live. It’s sad really, when I’m around them and see their symptoms, their narcissism is giving them, as well as interacting with their bipolar and their narcissism.
My non-profit for disabled or chronically ill people who want to get off or on SSI, will also serve as a way to rent an art studio. We need a big warehouse to set up one section of shared office space. The other half of the warehouse could be art studio space. And btw, Zod once said to me “don’t be friends with disabled people.” Excuse you me, this nonprofit serves us. All of us. I have a disability and chronic illness. 22q is the giver and the taker of chronic illness. I deal with a genetic disability that has caused me the hiatal hernia I have now.
Like I remarked yesterday on this thing, I feel that my non-profit art studio should be an off-shoot of the non-profit shared workspace that also provides a means to get people on or off SSI. I’m done with my family shaming me for everything. It’s why I stay the hell away from them, believe it or not. Nobody is more guilty than Zod, and by Zod, I mean in general, any member of my family since I’m leaving this cryptic deliberately. Yes, I’m going to start a non-profit. Doors do not open that is not meant to be, unless those doors are meant to be. In retrospect, I’m way too young looking to be a bartender. This is why doors didn’t open in college, added to that I was a functional alcoholic for a huge part of my adult existence, during which time Zod took me seriously and paid more attention to me in general.
This non-profit has to be addressed because it is designed to help people get on or off SSI. I’d provide access to a lawyer. It didn’t take much for me to get mine, but other people I know who are trying aren’t so lucky. The non-profit will not only help people with this stuff, it will provide a space to rent an art studio for artists. As it is, I know sketchy things about art right now, which means I need to take an art class at De Anza, also when I start film and television coursework.
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I’ve been reading books on Art, one way on how to get into art itself, and make money, the other on how to start a gallery. One angle for my non-profit may be that we need to include art studio rental space in the warehouse I will be buying for my non-profit that helps disabled people get off SSI, or on SSI if they need to be on disability. What qualifies people for disability is having a mental illness or a chronic illness such as diabetes although diabetes alone does not necessarily mean you will get it. SSDI is for people who work.
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But anyway, I have been reading about stuff like not eating in your studio because paint can get into your food. Art involves many other substances besides paint that could get into your food also. I have decided to become an artist because of reading fiction on schizophrenia and how a schizophrenic made extra money through painting when she got stable enough to do so. I can’t take a job with conventional hours just yet because of the recent unveiling of my hiatal hernia which I had long forgotten about, much less been told about.
*Grin. Got to love family keeping their mouth shut about something like this as well as my calcium deficiency that I didn’t know about while doing heavy sports most of my life. This is why I fractured my tibia in yoga as well as dislocated my knee cap, which wasn’t related to my tibia much, probably, I’m really not sure. I will eventually get a part-time food service gig at Le Boulanger, probably. That counts as getting my old job back. Art would be a side gig. I can paint outside in the yard for now give or take an easel, and supplies.
What I’ve learned so far about copywriting on various websites is that I need to look into other freelance writing websites that actually exist. I have a list of 100 websites I can join. I’m going to start joining/signing up with starting a new passwords list. I work very hard to keep my work organized on my USB drive. Nobody in my family can even begin to comprehend how important that drive is. I was paranoid when the old man was in the States last, because I thought he had a bone to pick regarding the USB drive. I really did think he had it in mind to sabotage it. That is why I kept it in my room at all times I was home.
I had the misfortune to get a cold during their stay in the United States. So I stayed home the week I was ill and let them go about their business. I have to try to make $150 a week this month, as a way of making extra income. I have to try new websites. The least I could do is try. I feel like I focus on one website to my own detriment. I tried to focus on websites like HireWriters but they suspended my account for whatever reason, even if I did send them my passport PDF. Copywriting can be done privately, as your own business with any freelance writing website such as Upwork. I did get myself a book at the library on how to pitch properly when in Hollywood or any business situation that requires a decent pitch. I will read this book and see what I learn.
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