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Munchausen by Proxy

Munchausen by Proxy is a deliberate attempt by a caregiver, to make a child or a victim sick via the primary caretaker’s deliberate actions. Childhood illnesses are common but the perpetrator deliberate makes their child ill on purpose, to gather sympathy from the doctor or their friends or even people on the Internet. The Munchausen by Proxy sufferer does this to get attention for illnesses that aren’t actually real. They misdirect doctors while lying about the illness they are making up. Munchausen by proxy is known as factitious disorder imposed on another. It is real and has occasionally deadly consequences. Victims have PTSD from all the fake illness they are exposed to or sabotaged by.

 

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Victims of Munchausen by proxy suffer from depression, anxiety, and problems differentiating reality from fantasy. https://www.bridgestorecovery.com/blog/healing-the-wounds-the-importance-of-treatment-for-victims-of-munchausen-by-proxy/. You do not trust your medical symptoms, as well as find yourself anxious about seeking real medical attention when it is necessary. You have trouble feeling safe around other people. Victims of Munchausen feel like blaming themselves for being victimized when there wasn’t anything they could do about it. Sometimes in adult life, victims participate in making stuff up, but the thing is, that this doesn’t happen to some survivors. Residential treatment facilities are important to join up with because this can help your healing process. Some people refuse to take responsibility for their actions with regard to getting treatment for various conditions they suffer from.

 

 

 

 

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Healing the Wounds: The Importance of Treatment for Victims of Munchausen By Proxy

Childhood Emotional Neglect

Dr. Jonice Webb’s work on Childhood Emotional Neglect is searing for me to read. CEN is a very real thing about parents who are unresponsive to their children while not teaching them how to regulate their emotions. Unlike many with CEN, I know my life has a purpose, I know why I’m on the planet. This is to overhaul the American health care system as well as those in other countries. Some people struggle more with others over these questions. I have trouble feeling my feelings sometimes. My emotions are not always obvious as I’m on a mood stabilizer, which is a relief to be on.

 

The bottom line is that my mental health was not treated until I was 20. There is not much I can do about my past but I can sure as hell stay medication consistent as a form of revenge. As far as my relationships go, I wonder who is there for me. Really, who is? I’m not sure. I’m way out of touch with my emotions though if only because I’m not sure if I have them, I keep shit repressed. All the time. I’m busy writing an uncensored short story that will never be published about my family.

 

I do not want to do all the “caring for others,” even if people take turns. I grew up feeling like my feelings do not matter. I try to not feel anything, not good, not bad. I try to repress my emotions so they don’t explode. I’ve read Running on Empty and I’m in the process of reading Running on Empty No More. I have no idea how to begin to treat myself. I really don’t say how I feel much. I’ve been severely mistreated by so-called friends whom I have had to dump leaving my support system short a person or two.

How to Kick Manipulative People to the Curb

This is a heavy subject as I know my own family likes pulling this crap. I’ve just plain decided not to go to Thanksgiving. I set a firm boundary in an email. I might have found a three-month contract at a worksite that is accessible both by light rail as well as driving. In which case, the job problem is resolved for at least three months although I need to buy myself a model of my old and sabotaged laptop. Manipulative people like using fear and insecurity to manipulate their victims. Clever manipulators want their victim’s obedience to their whims.

 

 

Not everybody has the spiritual strength to kick manipulative people out of their lives. Manipulators are busy trying to pretend they like you when they don’t. They really want to control you, body, mind, spirit, and soul. Manipulative people are like that. They really enjoy sadistically controlling other people. They can’t see anything other than their need for control. Manipulators want to control the outcome of their little tease. They experiment on people. They like messing with your head. There is no stopping them other than using the truth to remind them about how they can’t mess with you unless you believe them. Believing them is hazardous.

 

 

Some manipulators out of the book, In Sheep’s Clothing, Revised Edition, Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People, the techniques offered help an individual regain their sense of self. Covertly aggressive people use the vulnerability of the victim “They are often very selective about the kinds of people with whom they will associate or work. They are particularly adept at finding and keeping others in a one-down position. They relish being in positions of power over others” (87). The best thing to do with manipulators is to avoid them.

 

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Simon, George, Jr. Ph.D. In Sheep’s Clothing, Revised Edition, Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People.

Stopping the Curse of Psychic Manipulation

The curse is ended by being very firmly grounded in your body. As in, you won’t budge for anybody. You know who you are, you know what you want, you know what your will is. If your will is stronger, strong enough to subvert the cult leader or parent, then you win. Also, you cannot do what it is they want you to do. You have to stand firm against the psychic onslaught. Tell them no. From the age of 2, when kids start talking, “no” is a very firm word. Some healthy families allow them to set boundaries while unhealthy families tell the kid they must be a yes person.

 

 

Psychic manipulation only works if you secede your energy to somebody else, as in if you give a piece of your soul away. This is dangerous to do around somebody gifted in the art or science of psychic level manipulation. You can give your soul away without a boundary to this person. Narcissists skilled in psychic arts are very dangerous people. Free will cannot be tampered with. Not even magick can affect somebody else. The way a curse works is that you need to find a way in via somebody’s subconscious if they feel guilty enough to take on the crap you send them.

 

My curses do not work only because I have joy and I’m light-hearted. I can’t generate enough vehemence to launch that. It doesn’t work on some people anyway. Narcissistic people go “I feel so awesome, I’m the best,” despite how bad they feel if they have other disabilities. You see some people are deliberately manipulative. They mess with people on an energetic and psychic level. I was in a friendship like this and I had to dump her. I did good dumping her because she was making me crazy. I’m glad I got away from her when I did. I have a whole book in my head about this blog posts’ very subject.

How Manipulative People Manipulate You Into Doing What They Want

 

How psychic manipulation works is by getting inside somebody’s energy field in order to tweak it. As in, getting them to do whatever you want by manipulating their energy. If you want them to drink more, you suggest they drink more verbally while messing with them saying, sure, you want to drink this alcohol I’m serving you, don’t be rude. My book, In Sheep’s Clothing, Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People, by George Simon Jr., Ph.D. gets into this more. Combining real psychic ability and manipulation though, and you have an unstoppable predator who doesn’t really consider their behavior based on predation.

 

Manipulators make normal people feel uncomfortable because sometimes it is hard to “pinpoint why he felt uncomfortable” (72) as a character in the book, In Sheep’s Clothing states. Manipulators also make you feel ashamed and guilty. Manipulators are all about what they do not say, versus what they actually say. Gaslighting after a certain point makes the victim feel crazy. Manipulators deliberately lie about something they claim they would do and then they don’t do it to make you crazy. Shebeast did say she was going to buy me strips, insulin, and a new pair of glasses, but then she says before she leaves, that I wasn’t getting anything extra. Sigh.

 

Manipulative people think they are above the law, able to get away with anything that they want since not “being able to recognize a wolf or a wolf in sheep’s clothing was his biggest vulnerability” as the character in this scene named Jack didn’t recognize that his female coworker was undermining him in the guise of being supportive as he had been hired to be an executive assistant, a situation that means Betty was busy trying to maintain her power.

The Energy of Coercion: How Coercion Works

 

Coercion is something humans can do and it is something gifted humans can do. Coercion simply means that you are forced to do something against your will using fear against you. It is a violent means of persuasion. Coercion is something that makes people who are victims of this human action, paranoid. Coercion may be used physically or psychologically, https://definitions.uslegal.com/c/coercion/. The law defines coercion as something somebody commits against another person to force them to do something they fear doing or do not want to do. I was coerced into taking more insulin in 2006. To prove coercion there has to be proof of a well-founded fear of death.

 

 

Cults use coercion on people to brainwash them into serving their leader all the time. Psychological influence can damage a person. Psychological coercion takes away the victims’ free will as well as their critical thinking abilities. Victims deal with sleep restriction as well as social activity restriction. Offenders exercise control over their victim’s environment by restricting which friends they can see or being with friends who make them feel good. Alternate information and separate opinions cannot be expressed even while engaged in the process of undermining a victim’s feeling of self-confidence and judgment. https://www.theneurotypical.com/psychological_coercion.html

 

The victim has to feel powerless in order for the person using coercion to feel good. The victim is made to feel humiliation, loss of privilege, social isolation, and social status changes. There are feelings created or instilled in the victim revolving around intense guilt, anxiety, manipulation, and more. Coercion makes the victim feel bad, really bad. It is an intense experience. It is hard to get over relationships where coercion existed. But eventually there is peace to be had outside of trauma, since I need treatment at mental health rehab clinics that I have to pay for myself.

PTSD Treatment and Bridges to Recovery

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There is a list of treatments I need for schizophrenia, my bipolar 1, my OCD, my PTSD, and my body dysmorphic disorder. Cognitive behavioral therapy, exposure therapy, virtual reality exposure therapy, psychodynamic psychotherapy for PTSD, acceptance and commitment therapy, medication, treatment for PTSD and substance abuse, (I was an alcoholic for a long time and I kicked it on my own with limited help from people except for a therapist I paid for.). Cognitive behavioral therapy might be able to help me with my fear of crowds. Cognitive behavioral therapy is all talk therapy, which I was into back when I could actually afford a therapist.

 

Stress affects your body a certain way, but when you try inoculation therapy, stress can be greatly reduced. PTSD therapy teaches coaching skills. Deep breathing is one treatment for PTSD. Muscle relaxation training is another way to cope with PTSD symptoms. Role-playing can help you practice the coping techniques you have learned. You learn to change negative behaviors as well as talking to yourself differently. I’m deprived of treatment options other than reading self-help books or library books in general about all of my mental health conditions. My biggest problem right now though is my inability to trust other people. Somebody destroyed my ability to trust anybody.

 

 

I give myself exposure therapy on a regular basis. But seriously, I need to be in rehab. The goal is to make money, move to LA, and actually get me into a rehab facility. I have survived a lot so I’m paranoid about relationships with anybody right now. I’m avoiding dating with a ten-foot pole as well. I need many treatments for my mental health problems, in particular, my anxiety. I’m reading books, and that’s about it. That’s all I can stand.

How Brainwashing Works

 

How brainwashing works: repetition, thought-reform, and social influence. https://science.howstuffworks.com/life/inside-the-mind/human-brain/brainwashing.htm. Other people try to change the individuals’ opinions through social influence. Cult leaders are such successful brainwashers only because they use repetition. They break people down by not letting them get enough sleep. Persuasion goes for a change in attitude so that a person thinks that they do something that will make them more successful. Brainwashing is all about compliance, persuasion, and education. Education is all about social-influence when somebody is told that what he or she is doing is the right thing to do. The agent requires control over the person being brainwashed.

 

 

Sleep patterns, using the bathroom and other basic needs, all of them dependent on the will of the person doing the brainwashing. In my childhood, I lacked a lot of sleep. I still don’t know what it is like to sleep the whole night. Brainwashing is thought-reform, often done by communist states on this planet to their prisoners. Korean War POWs were not converted to communism much at all. The steps of brainwashing are 1. Assault on identity, 2. Guilt, 3. Self-betrayal, 4. Breaking point, 5. Leniency, 6. Compulsion to confess, 7. Channeling of guilt, 8. Release of guilt, 9. Progress and harmony, 10. Final confession and rebirth.

 

Sleep deprivation and malnutrition all have a role in the brainwashing process. A target has to be attacked for days on end until they crack. The guilt comes from an identity crisis induced in the target as the second step of brainwashing. The abuser then tries to make the target agree that they are bad, so in which case alleviating the target’s guilt when the agreement is made. When the target reaches a breaking point, this means the target goes through an existential nervous breakdown wondering who they are.

 

Once the sense of self is betrayed, the target doesn’t necessarily stray from what they are told to believe. Patty Hearst was an heir to a large fortune who got kidnapped and forced to participate in a bank robbery. She was sentenced to 7 years in prison but released after 2 because she still claimed she was brainwashed by her cult, which was called the Symbionese Liberation Army, or a political cult. Brainwashing victims cannot tell right from wrong. Some believe that large-scale brainwashing is not possible since brainwashing requires short-term thought reform isolations. Isolation is required to truly brainwash somebody but it may not happen on a grand scale.

 

 

 

 

 

 

https://science.howstuffworks.com/life/inside-the-mind/human-brain/brainwashing.htm

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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https://science.howstuffworks.com/life/inside-the-mind/human-brain/brainwashing.htm

 

 

I Get Paranoid About My Disability

 

You would say that even after having palette surgery in 1989, I’m still paranoid about my voice because that surgery needed to be done when I was 3. I didn’t really start talking until I was 4. I’m often scared that I will not be understood when I talk. I rant and I get shrill but really, my medication helps. Don’t ask me to read words coherently out loud when I’m on my period, which I’m trying to keep repressed and that’s why it was a monotone. Oh and to the woman at Lucky who picked on the way I was walking and who made fun of me for walking with my toes up, and feeling stiff, I was constipated and I have major digestive problems sometimes, quit picking on my disability, you bitch.

 

Yes, I get paranoid about stuff I shouldn’t be paranoid about. Am I good looking? Am I normal enough for you? I have 22q, and I have health problems I’m always going to live with. I’m traumatized by C-PTSD from getting constantly picked on all through school due to my untreated mental health problems. Yes, my family didn’t treat me. That’s a fact. There is nothing I can do about that but there is plenty I can do to help people stuck in my situation. As in, there are ways of starting my nonprofit geared towards helping disabled people get away from abusive families. I want to buy a warehouse in San Jose to set up a shelter inside.

 

We would have computers or tables for laptops, similar to the Hacker Dojo, so that work from home people can have a safe place to work. I would have showers, and dormitories inside the shelter, some private. The last thing a disabled person needs is to be picked on for having a disability. We would record dealings with people who come to harass those using the shelter. I need to start getting this thing off the ground, and so I’m talking to somebody about it today but I need to be doing more canvassing than I am. This may mean going to people at existing mental health crisis clinics to talk to them. I also have to make at least one trip to Grace Community Center and Zephyr. I’m stuck in a paper doll rut in all areas of my life. I’m sweating daily trying to figure out how to get unstuck. I feel I have soul loss from getting picked on, this is also something I need to resolve.

The Spiritual Syndromes

“But helping others to the point of having no life or energy of your own isn’t good or noble.” (44). I have a major paper doll thing going. I can’t find a job except for scams, I can’t seem to publish my work by hearing back from companies that have websites to publish my work on, and I feel perpetually stuck. I left my phone at school, which I need to pick up on Tuesday. Three-day weekends make me feel bored. I prefer the 5-day workweek to weekends as I have trouble relaxing. I’m addicted to my own stress.

I get really stressed out when I forget my stuff too. The Paper Doll Syndrome is an “I’m stuck in a rut” sort of situation. My patterns don’t go away no matter what I do. I feel I’m mistreated a lot. Like when I went to a store and had a clerk who was mumbling, “retard” under her breath. I’m busy trying to sleep at night but I’m plagued with guilt over how healthy I am in the now. The clerk went so far as to say “that’s really special,” but see, I walked away. I sabotage myself but I don’t inflict negative or harmful treatment on myself.

Well, save the voices that call me names and taunt me. Just because I have a genetic disability called 22q doesn’t make me retarded. Some people need to get that through their heads. Not every disability causes that to begin with. I feel my life patterns are going around way too much. Next comes the vampire victim scenario. Being a vampire victim (from my mother to me) means that I feel drained a lot, my energy bleeds out to others. I have difficulty motivating myself since my family is the vampiric system draining me.

I often feel rage and frustration at the unconscious vamping. I feel like a zombie at times. When mom texts me or sends me a “What’s App” at me, I feel like I get the chills, I get cold, and I lose body heat. Living in my condo, I feel like there is an invisible force that steals energy from me. Sometimes I feel obligated to let mom feed off of me. Yes, I fear her getting unstable if I don’t feed her my energy. The Mule Syndrome is next. Why the hell should I do emotional labor for ex-friends?

I’m done doing other people’s emotional labor, be it mental, spiritual, or physical. I’m done doing my mother’s work for her. I’m done doing work for ex-friends who have a snowball’s chance in hell of being my friend. I’m going to make other people feel their feelings. Why the hell do I care? Deal with it on your own. As a mule, I work hard. I’m always plagued by the thought that “more needs to be done.” I have to wonder why I do the energetic work for others. I have trouble detaching from their pain versus my pain.

Even if I sleep, I feel mental and physical exhaustion, and sometimes I do get depressed that my life is not going anywhere. I can’t start to work with a mule complex. My to-do list can’t be longer than everybody else’s. I have to get over the Mule concept. The solution to this stuff, as presented by Cyndi Dale, is to set up a stream of grace, accepting the gift, and overcoming the need to do everything for everybody. At least I’m no longer a psychic-sensitive who knows too much. Environ also hardly affects me anymore since I learned how to shield against EMFs. I also deal with being a healer who doesn’t know when to quit healing. I get other people’s illness. I feel like I’m there for others but they are never “there” for me. I also deal with the no-boundary thing too, of which the cure is to know your feelings. I have to work on my self-esteem problems this year and work on my lack of boundaries.

Works Cited

Dale, Cyndi, Energetic Boundaries, How to Stay Protected and Connected in Work, Love, and Life. Sounds True, Inc. 2011. Boulder, CO.