I have more or less perfect brittle diabetes. Brittle diabetes means that your blood sugars sometimes swing wildly with no explanation, from high to low. My middle of the night readings have been perfect by now with an exception of being 174. I only woke up twice, I got a refreshing night’s sleep. My diabetes was not discovered until I was 10, but I was pre-diabetic at nine. You see, at the beginning of this month, I was fighting to stay asleep at night still. This is a regular event for me most nights anyway until recently as I have taken that whole manifestation thing very seriously, trying to have total faith in the outcome.
Your thoughts may have a lot to do with your life, and what happens in it. On July first I had a few super-high blood sugars. July 1st was a Sunday, which meant I knew I couldn’t drive with blood sugars of 366 mg/dl. At 6:57 a.m. that is, mg/dl means (milligrams per deciliter). I had stabilized the next day to 9:28 a.m. where I was 266 mg/dl. I was 123 mg/dl on July 2nd , at 11:11 a.m. I still have a pattern of middle of the afternoon high blood sugars, but I have stopped even that. I’m on my way to having perfect diabetes. By July the 6th, I was having low blood sugars as I dedicated myself to filling my head with thoughts of success from July 1st, on, before I went to sleep.
By July 8th, I was waking up only three times. This is why I keep a journal on computer. It is easier on my manual dexterity issues to type than to use a pen and paper. On July 10th, I had a 7:02 a.m. 343 but managed to be 170, and 167. I stabilized myself. On July 14th, I was able to wake up at 1:54 a.m. at 136, this was the first leap forward in conquering the middle of the night. By July 15th, I was stable enough to have really good readings in the middle of the night. On July 17th, I was 243 at 2:22 a.m. On July 20th, I was 86 at 12:55 a.m. and at 1:15 a.m. I was 231. I was 100, at 1:16 a.m. and 4:33 a.m 290. I was successful on July 23rd, at 2:18 a.m. 142, 7:14 a.m. 152. 7:54 p.m. 197. I’ve really been working on sleeping more. I have experienced massive success at this diabetes management business. You see, I’m succeeding.
So F it for those who want me to fail. There are some people in my family who want that. I’m succeeding anyway, all the while filling myself with happiness, good thoughts, perky thoughts, and feeling good in general, despite being low-income. I am well within my rights to say, see ya to my family’s sabotage. I will not be attending Thanksgiving until certain people are sent to a psychiatrist and treated properly. I don’t need to be sneered at, as in, quiet female, when I say something. I’m removing myself from a toxic environment. Bye! Have a good holiday season, I’m not around.
I don’t know. I have not done this since I was 6 to 9 months. I really don’t know what it’s like to sleep the whole night. I’m 37. Can you imagine being sleepless since you were 1-year-old? Totally sleepless, as I’ve spent my whole life sleep deprived until these last two years. I slept in an old bed for way too long. This bed I have now is an actual full. Can you imagine not being able to sleep from the ages of 5 to 18? I didn’t know what being well rested was like until I started zyprexa at 20.
As a well-rested person in the now, I can focus and pay attention better than I did when I was sleep deprived. I mean I grew up in a family where hurting my feelings was something the people who did this got away with. In my adult life, I do not want to deal with people who hurt my feelings on a regular basis, hence my shelter for disabled adults idea because many disabled adults do not have the means of escaping their families, they are economically disadvantaged and stuck, especially in the Bay Area. I want to be able to work on other projects but due to wanting to protect my fingers from overuse, I have to keep my working hours from 7 a.m. – 1:00 p.m. or from 8:00 a.m. – 1:00 p.m. like I did today. The psychic hotline provides a way for me to make extra money. This is a very good opportunity, and I’m able to work on spending the money I make. I have bills to pay.
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My garden is being planted in the shadows of my old dresser drawer, which fell apart. I’m trying to grow tomatoes from seedlings. Some tomatoes have grown, while others are stalled. I attempted to use Reiki to make the tomatoes start growing. But well, I’m not sure if it will work. I’m growing beef stake tomatoes and using my dresser drawer for planters. I need to get crates to replace my dresser drawers, the drawers of which are on my bedroom floor. I have starter trays and Miracle Grow soil with some seedlings already starting to sprout, because I try to water daily.
I plan on growing an organic garden. I can buy planters as I make more money, having them shipped over here with eBay. I can also buy hydroponics gardening equipment so as to work on my agricultural experiments. I need more books on hydroponics and agricultural topics. My garden is going places, as am I. I will buy a hose, to start a drip irrigation system with pipes as well. I need some sort of tray to put on top of the hose, where I can pour water down the hose, and into the piping system.
I’m willing to take donations of canvas, construction paper, white paper, lined paper, and more. I need sketch books, pastels, and watercolor as well as paints. As far as colored pencils go, I have some, in a variety of colors that I can still use. I’m not going to buy new ones. This is worth a trip to Michael’s because I want to see what I can get together. I do need canvasses though. I can teach myself enough art but I have to take classes as well. My big frustration though is being low-income. That’s a massive frustrating thing for me to deal with right now.
Nothing triggers my TK and PK more than frustration. Heavy, gut wrenching, sinking frustration. I need to come up with a plan to make money. I have tried time and again. I have at least 12 business plans, as well as blurbs for my ideas. I’m going to send these plans all around the world on USB drives to family I trust. At least I know one cousin knows the Churro guy in Spain. He’s going to make good on that eventually. I’m very low income for now, and unable to scrounge up income for art supplies. Pastels would be nice to have as it is one type of medium I remember from art class.
I have often thought, what if healthcare was free or low costs in the United States? I mean SSI is free healthcare but when you make money, you get cut. I need to make money but see, I don’t want to be left up the creek either. So I can earn $2000 as the limit which means I have to talk to them social security people once I get there financially. I have many publishing markets that I know of, that I can submit my work to. If health care were affordable for the rest of us, with provisions made for the Medicare expansion, then it would be fair for everybody.
For those people who do not approve of SSI, think again. It is what keeps me together, as I can pick up prescriptions for free. They helped me get a new insulin pump for free. So before you go criticizing why I stay low-income with nothing, think about why I wasn’t allowed to see a psychiatrist until 2011. My suffering didn’t matter to certain people who refused me the right to see a psychiatrist, it was not until I gave my parent’s insurance the boot, I waited extra time to see a proper psychiatrist. If only health care were more accessible to all.
I had to wait way too long. I didn’t get a proper schizophrenia diagnosis until 2012 anyway. I needed that diagnosis since I turned 12 or younger, as I have pediatric onset schizophrenia, but I had to wait until I was 30 to get a proper diagnosis. The family secret is out. I know I have schizophrenia now. You have any idea how painful it is to know you need medication but you weren’t allowed to know why? I didn’t know why for many years. Sigh, well, the least I can in my adult life is take my medication daily, in revenge for all the lost years of depression, and worse symptoms.
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There are two categories of shit-talking. Good shit-talking and bad-shit-talking. Bad talking means you are making stuff up. Good talking means you are telling the truth. The truth is far scarier than any lie anybody can make up. The truth is terrifying. The truth is what liars are afraid of. Liars are terrified of being straight with people. They are the ones who cannot be trusted. Good talking means that person can be trusted. As in, wow, she really has no filter, and talking about people’s private complaints to other people means that the person who did this has loose lips.
Loose lips do sink ships, so my Facebook friends, always keep your mouth shut and don’t tell anybody who may manipulate you, my Cylon jokes. You see, that joke means that Cylons on Battlestar Galactica, fake being human. They pretend to be human, sure. Mentally ill people pretend to be normal. This is part of my joke. Cylon refers to people who fake not being ill. Somehow alcohol hides their symptoms. This is why they are tricky to catch. Cylons on BSG have certain kinds of copies, they are copies, or clones of each other. People I have known are cookie cutter personality types, some of whom have been mean to me like my family. So when I joke about Cylons, it is more than one person.
One thing I do disagree with Obama on is that whole, mandatory insurance deal. Not everybody has to have mandatory insurance. I feel that’s unconstitutional. So I agreed with them changing this rule. I disagree on ruling the health care law invalid altogether, as well as reinstating the whole rule that people with pre-existing conditions can’t have healthcare. You see, health care funding goes to the states but if they are busy fighting the Medicare expansion, then they lose their funding. The people who voted Trump into office did so, because he would dismantle Obama-era health care provisions, leaving the rest of us screwed.
The Trump administration also promotes health care plans that do not meet the law’s requirements. https://www.politico.com/story/2018/06/07/obamacare-trump-administration-court-case-texas-606930, as the Trump administration is trying to undermine Obama’s work. Some say that the Affordable Care Act can stand on its own without taxing people who do not have insurance. Those seeking abortion related health care bar health care providers from preventing access to this care, was ruled against in (2016), by District Judge Reed O’Conner, a W. Bush appointee.
What the Affordable Care Act detractors want is to undermine the bill. But “Larry Levitt at the Kaiser Family Foundation, a neutral source of health care data, said his sense is that at the end of the day, setting the mandate penalty to zero, which is what the tax law does, “will hobble the ACA, but not kill it.”
“The heart of the ACA – the premium subsidies, the Medicaid expansion, and protections for pre-existing conditions – remain in place,” he said. ” Protection from people with Pre-existing conditions being forced to pay more for health care is something that I expect. Before the Affordable Care Act, getting coverage with a pre-existing condition meant that you couldn’t have coverage at all. I grew up with shaky coverage give or take COBRA unemployment insurance. Health care is a continuing debate.
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As you know, I’m low-income and attempting to make a killer living off of my blog. I’m also selling Beach Body. The thing is, I’m 4’10 and when I started trying Shakeology in the dosage of 0.3 Chocolate or Vanilla, I managed to lose 3 pounds give or take my previous weight of 123 lbs. I’m now at 120 lbs., feeling a touch chunky. I’m still attempting to eat no Chewy Chocolate Granola bars, which I’m addicted to. I have quit those almost cold turkey, since I did wind up getting myself mini chocolate chips though to use in a pudding dessert I found in a diabetic dessert book.
The only exercise I can stand because of my knee injury making my entire left knee cap stiff, is to walk in the pool. My tibia has long since healed. But well, my knee is still stiff. On a side note, my family won’t send me extra income. I live off of low-income every so often. I’m treated weird for even needing extra income. But see, it would be nice. Damn it, if they are busy pretending I don’t need extra money. I’m the only one on meds though. Therefore, I’m the only one who makes sense.
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At least buying insurance is not mandatory anymore, and that is the one criticism I have of former President Obama anyway. Currently as the law stands, health care companies cannot bar people with pre-existing conditions from getting insurance. This monumental change was an effort to say the least since for many years we have taken the crap they give us for having health conditions, a disability, or a chronic illness. We can’t stand by helpless anymore though. We have to have ourselves a revolution. I totally disagree with fining people who do not have health insurance. (http://fortune.com/2018/06/11/trump-obamacare-preexisting-conditions/)
People with pre-existing conditions have to have insurance. To exclude them from getting coverage, that’s just wrong. This much the Republicans are keeping in mind as they make health care reform happen for the rest of us. Cutting off insurance payments to lower, low-income American’s out-of-pocket medical costs. The middle class is also screwed over with the way federal subsidies used to help premiums rise in conjunction with the spikes. Having a pre-existing condition should not make people go for broke.
At least the Senate feels that Congress would never vote to repeal the Pre-existing conditions clause that was lifted with the inception of the Affordable Care Act. (https://www.cbsnews.com/news/pre-existing-conditions-coverage-at-risk-more-than-thought-obamacare/). The Justice Department has a cold heart, just like the Trump Administration. The thing is, we the sick, protest. We demand better coverage. We want to pay for our health care with our own money. We do not want to stay low-income if we have to. We want coverage and a good quality of life. So far, they have been unsuccessful putting the pre-existing conditions clause back in. They can never win the pre-existing condition clause being put back in, as this was a significant step forward with having democratic insurance coverage for everybody.
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There is nothing more frustrating for me to deal with in these times than health care reform. If I had to pay for real insurance, I need at least an income of $100,000. To buy the condo requires $500,000 of blood money. I want to be in the 8.8 million Americans who buy the Affordable Care Act. Health care access has many problems in the United States, particularly the bizarre expectation that you have to buy every treatment you need, with exorbitant drug prices. With new prescription medication constantly on the horizon, health care management professor from Wharton Mark Pauly states in this article http://knowledge.wharton.upenn.edu/article/the-future-of-the-aca/, that technology has improved because 46 new medications came out in 2017, the most in one year since 1996. Also quoted in this broadcast, is Drexels’ Robert Field.
I have always disagreed with the individual mandate because the government need not get busy with making demands on its people to buy health care. This was a contention for me in 2016, because facing a penalty is quite un-American in my view. Next year, the mandate idea is up for reformation. Apparently hospitals get paid and doctors get paid too. Health care is the one sort of field in the United States that is immune to recessions.
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Health care is one thing that I find demeaning, because we have so much money in this country already. Why not make health care free or low-cost? Since we capitalists are obsessed with having to pay for everything. I mean we spend every red cent keeping the money machine alive. The thing is, the Elite would rather destroy the country than share in their profound wealth with the rest of us. You get stuck in an income bracket as an unrepentant capitalist. So I ask again, reform the health care system, let those enrolled in free insurance because we are low-income, make some extra money. Quit making low-income a stranglehold on our desire for money.
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