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The plan is simple. I want to become a billionaire in order to work on wealth distribution. I want to guilt all the billionaires into giving their money away to the down and out in the United States. Every homeless bum in San Jose needs to be given a cashier’s check for $500, especially if they have nothing. Homeless people do piss me off when they ask for money. I get even more pissed that I have none to give them. This is fucking annoying stuff. I do not carry cash on me so it is true that I have nothing to give them.

The Illuminati are creating this massive third world-country like conditions in the United States because they want to erode people’s wealth and make them wholly dependent on the system. They put Trump in office as the challenge of the moment because they knew he would do that. They were scared of Hillary causing a civil war. If Trump did not get elected, that would have majorly pissed off the Republicans. Either choice was testy at best for both parties. In this era, when anybody Democrat or Republican can be accused of being fascist, this is the result.

Running for office is one way to bring about social change. Republicans shoot themselves in the foot more often than not, even with other conservatives who would normally vote for them. The fact is, everybody is fed up with the Republicans, and their ease in reaching perturbations. Most of us have had it, libertarians and Independents, Peace and Freedom, etc. There is more than one party in the United States. I have to run as an Independent. This is the only way I can change the world to my liking.

The biggest way anybody has of making a difference is to run for office. Running for office is an activity that can help people decide how they are to make change. I have many ideas but no outlet other than this blog. Many people do not write as much or have the impulse to do a Huffington Post article. They just don’t know how to write if they do not have general ed, so in which case we are losing many voices that way through isolating those with less education. The United States is quickly becoming a third-world like country with our infant mortality rate being higher than other developed countries. Our health care system is in shambles, with the Rethuglicans trying to get the pre-exisiting condition clause back so that nobody can have coverage unless it is a huge expense.

Just being all talk doesn’t help. All talk doesn’t get changes to happen. I want to become a billionaire to be able to give my money to bums in an effort to help them get off the street. I would have used the cops to distribute the money so I don’t have to do it all by myself. Bums are trapped in the bum lifestyle with few alternatives. It is a vicious cycle of poverty. Some also need medication which is why I want to become a psychiatrist which is 4 more years of school plus my residency, so 8 years total. I have to pay this myself or use scholarships as well. It will ultimately depend on what the FAFSA says this time around. Scholarships are given out impartially because I had the grades for a Pell grant which paid for the last four semesters of San Francisco State. Homeless are written off as useless by people who do have a genocidal agenda, this is why billionaires have to start dealing concretely with poverty issues.

The phrase “Oye loca” is just as damaging as anybody being critical about people who take medication. As in, “get off all your meds and ground yourself,” oh how ignorant. That means I can only ground myself on my meds, moron. I’m fed up with anti-medication sentiment, period, which is why I made the shirt “Don’t give me shit about my meds.” Telling a mutual friend that taking medication is bad for them is undermining their health and sabotaging them. No intimate partner needs to brainwash their lover to not take their medication when they take none of their own. This is dangerous for people’s well being.

I spent my childhood not knowing I had schizophrenia until I was 18. This was the family denial complex. I wish I had had more information or at least a name. I didn’t even get information. I was in the dark save sophomore year psychology class. I practically diagnosed myself schizophrenic and told the class about it, if you guys remember. I really do have schizophrenia, it is enmeshed in the family denial complex. Also, talking shit about something you don’t know about which is somebody’s mental illness that is under control, is something you have no idea about. You don’t know anything about your own bipolar tendencies.

It is rude to say rude things about people on antidepressants. Or other medications when you so desperately need meds to control that anxiety which turns you mean. Mania also turns you mean. All your fart jokes at this person’s expense is not funny. You are stigmatizing everybody on meds when you so desperately need to control your borderline mood swings. When I dump somebody as a friend, there is no going back. There is not even an acquaintanceship.

I’m thorough. If somebody takes up my time with their complaining about something they are not changing, then I dump them. If they don’t take their meds consistency, lose their temper a lot whether in a passive-aggressive manner or an aggressive manner, I dump them. Mania in my presence counts as endangering my health. This is why I work hard to leave toxic situations which some of us do not understand why this is so. Toxic people need to be dumped for your self-respect, which is something you have little of.

And this is a requirement for being in a healthy relationship with healthy boundaries. Playing around with not using a condom is playing around with the chance of getting HIV. HIV is a deadly condition that can kill you with anything going around. You succumb to illness at the end. HIV is not fun. No matter how graphic I got, that wasn’t getting into your irrational head. Your shame complex is getting ridiculous. I can’t cope with this and my own which I’m trying hard to eradicate. I see my therapist weekly, and I work on myself. I do eventually need to pay a real therapist but I do not have the money for this right now. This was the impetus for monetizing my blog. Off I go to Safeway where hopefully I will get Safeway Monopoly pieces.

I would buy every single African chicken, pigs, or goats for starters. I would also do things like say “the tab is open” when I got to a place, and then when it would stop, I’d say “the tab is closed.” Basically, I have to set an example for the other, more selfish billionaires such as 45. Giving my money away to a charity would be something I would get done, as well as pay rent and my education at UCLA. Given that I could use the money to run for office, I could run for Mayor of San Jose. I would set up all my business ideas, some of which I keep ultra-secret. My other aspirations to run for office someday, well, I need to start with California State Senate first, and go from there. This is why I need to pay for my law degree. I will apply at many schools to see if I get in. I need to get LSAT computer programs or log into their website to study. I have to take the Penn Foster paralegal class however, in order to gain background since it is less expensive than taking major coursework at De Anza however, I’m going to try to take some paralegal classes there. I just want income, stable income, where I can afford to pay for my education, starting with getting my M.S. in psychology general ed out of the way at De Anza and Foothill using their online psychology program.

I would also try to fund children abroad who need the money in cents. I would even set up an educational fund for students with 22q. This would be a scholarship program for people who have pediatric onset schizophrenia, or even those who get it in adulthood. Everybody with a mental illness needs a chance to be stable and go to school. Not everybody gets this chance. This is why I want to start a massive scholarship fund with an essay writing contest, for all academic levels. I would also give seed money to other people who want to start a business like I do. Oh to have this much income. I can stay in hotels, and it wouldn’t be a problem. I mean I would never have to worry about money again. I can manage it all myself anyhow. But there is the matter of protecting my money from the Ferengi. I can afford lawyers if I have income. I’m competent enough to manage my own funds. This is something I can do. I already manage a very low budget, managing a higher budget would be easier. I mean managing $30,000 of income, real income, is something I have yet to experience since I have been low income from the age of 18. I want to make real money and I had a mean doctor who said I’d be on SSI my whole life after I showed her a business plan. Needless to say, I dumped that doctor. She was soundly dumped after being told not to speak to me like that. She said I’d wind up a bum without my SSI. Fat lot of good she knows.

Google says that there are 100 billion galaxies in the universe, and in the Milky Way Galaxy, there are 100 billion alien planets. We are busy learning where they are. The Secret Space Program has existed since the 1950s. The “Space Corps” are known as the “sixth” branch of the military. Given they are open to the public someday, I would love to serve. I can be the aboard ship-chef or something. The National Space Council was disbanded in 1993 but the current leadership is doing something about reviving this program. The Secret Space Program is run by Naval Space Command, I think that since China and Europe are talking about setting up a moon base, well, the United States obviously has to get involved with that. The Solar Warden program is made up of U.S. Aerospace Black Project contractors. Our planet now has the capability of warp travel, just like Star Trek only they keep it secret since not everybody is supposed to have the technology to leave this shithole planet. Hey, if there are shithole countries, there ought to be shithole planets. Earth is one such shithole, make no mistake.

We are a shithole where 1% are wealthy and the other 99% barely makes it. We let children in Africa die of easily treatable parasitic infections, malaria, or cholera. In the West, these illnesses do not exist. Forget how many planets there are, or galaxies, and while Google put out impressive numbers, we in the shithole, have to clean our own shithole. We have problems on this planet. Look at the Flint, Michigan water crisis. Kids have high levels of lead in their blood. This will affect them for the rest of their lives. I submit that Earth is a shithole. One huge cesspool of shithole when we can’t fix the plastic gyres that have formed in nearly every ocean. Yes, this is why I don’t eat fish often enough. I’m worried about having high mercury blood content which may affect the way I process information. I have to keep those brain chemicals working good enough for law school when the time comes, but first I have to finish my general ed retakes/biology/chemistry.

I keep pondering why medications have side effects and how I would love to invent medications without side effects or with less of a side effect profile. Buspar, I take 20 mg, can cause insomnia. Geodon helped me lose weight, 120 mg, that I take, and it can cause weight gain as I learned Zyprexa can also do. Lexapro, 10 mg, can both cause drowsiness as well as insomnia. I take it at night though. I take buspar in the morning and most of my meds at night. All my meds work to keep me stable. The thought of driving doesn’t fill me with fear today.

On those days, it is best for me not to drive. I’m stable in the now, unlike in the past. I want to go to UCLA and get a medical science degree, if only to work on new medications. This is my life’s work. I also would like to work on insulin if that comes to pass. It would be great to invent new insulin with less low blood sugar side effects because that is what insulin does. It lowers the blood glucose levels. In the present, I interviewed at a supplement company, left my resume, and asked for the manager to talk to his manager.

I have a feeling I’m going to nail this job. Part of the job involves talking to people. I need that part-time job for the next five years or so. I need to be able to pay for school. I have to retake classes from both junior college as well as San Francisco State. I mean I have to retake my general ed and some anthropology in the classroom as I have a variety of interests. I just want to get my grades up. I don’t need to retake creative writing stuff, maybe, because I wasn’t a straight A student in that one, ever.

If anything, I know I have a shot at being a straight-A student because I did experiments while in my private investigation course. Experiments that determined I need my glucose to be at 150 before any quiz. This is a fact of life for me. I learned to get enough sleep means I do well on a quiz. Also, to have normal blood sugars not in the 300 range is conducive to a proper test grade. If my blood sugar comes down, all the more reason I manage to test this with what grade I’d get.

I get Ds if I’m high or low. So the A comes from being 150. 130 is too low for an A. I can get a B. In order to get good grades, my blood sugar has to be stable. I had three Ds on my private investigation record that says I wound up with an 87% , a B or a B+. And growing up, a B was not good enough. I was given shit for having Bs. I’m sorry, I am into As but less stress occasionally means taking a B. For Stanford students, Bs are fine since they are all straight A students anyway. I want to do well in law school with my brain functional because of my meds, not being a caffeine junkie, and in general, trying my best to fend off my anxiety I get in crowds. Yes, school in crowded environments presents difficulty for me. UCLA draws me only because of their law program and their archaeology program, which I want to do on the side. The adventure begins when I get my job at the nutritional supplement store, and can make extra income.

This particular article is about how we villainous people with pre-existing conditions want to fight the existing health care system. The GOP, the real Villains, are busy trying to get the Pre-existing condition clause back. This is in fact, a quiet war they are waging, a quiet, and underhanded homicidal agenda of the likes the modern world has yet to see. They are intent on genocide, a cleansing of the disabled. They want us to die from lack of income, and lack of medical care. Oh what fun! The sadistic GOP wants this. As it is raining, it is hard for me to see a way out of this battle. One in which we win. All humans, everywhere. Health care is expensive. It is demeaning to humanity to have to pay for it. So why do they want us to fucking pay for it?

Why you ask? Well, it is simple. They are not human. They don’t care for people. They are devoid of empathy. They want to kill disabled people. That is simply what the Nazis want to do along with their Nazi sympathizer brethren. The Nazis have become emboldened during this administration. They are starting to deport people after all. They have gotten busy breaking up families. This is something I need to write a whole book about. I don’t have any advanced degrees yet but seriously, I need to start making money so I can launch my get the –undergrad stuff out of the way so I don’t have to take it in graduate school. I have to work on my LSAT, and my GMAT because I want to get into conventional graduate school.

My medication is a godsend because I can write coherently. I really appreciate having my meds because it helps me be lucid. Nothing worse than having a mental illness you didn’t know was schizophrenia, and not having an explanation for other people. I spent years concocting stuff like major depression. Please, I’m also on the bipolar spectrum? Internists treated half the problem not the whole problem. Shrinks like I want to become treated the whole problem with Geodon, a miracle drug that was invented in 2001.

Knowing about it back then, would have spared me. But I got a referral to a non-schizophrenia believing psychiatrist. I had to switch many times until government doctors finally helped me. They could figure out up and down. I didn’t know. I didn’t know I was schizoaffective until I was 30. I mean I had no diagnosis. It is fortunate I was able to finally get one. I have spent 6 years stable, being able to blab that I have schizophrenia. People finally get it. Most sane folks know that schiz just needs our meddies.

It is impossible to have a damaged, yet functional brain to see that we live with it well with medication taking care of the pain. I mean seriously, being delusional can give you high blood pressure from all the fear. I was afraid of my own brain for many long years of not having a proper diagnosis, of having it hidden from me. I resent not having a proper diagnosis. Some of us can get one from early treatment and be stable for many years unless we fuck that up. Me? No such luck.

The Prime Directive does not actually work. Many alien races have been to earth, who influence us even now to this day. If they trance channel through somebody willing to hear what they have to say, that is having an undue influence on the human race when new agers put out their writings. They do not have good intentions toward us. They have the power to destroy major cities or the whole planet altogether. With the rise of modern fascism, this gives them a good reason to stop us from getting out there to cause trouble in a peaceful Galactic Federation where everybody coexists together.

If you watch Ancient Aliens at all, you will notice that they came to us to start farming as part of human civilization. Maybe they really have had an influence in our evolution. This is not a fun prospect to think about. Many ET races have an investment on the planet such as the Draco and the Orion greys. The Zeta Reticulans are only here to study us by abducting humans? That whole scenario barely makes sense because really, since the greys are 39 light years away from earth, coming from the constellation of Reticulum. They are four feet tall, have almond shaped eyes, and are telepathic with humans and themselves.

The Annunaki supposedly live on Nibiru and look like us. We were made in their image anyway, according all major world religions. They came to Earth to mine for gold to help their planet’s atmosphere. Assuming that this problem has been fixed, along with Nibiru’s orbit, shall we say that Nibiru crashing into Earth or causing problems like massive floods is not going to happen ever again. If it hasn’t happened in thousands of years, think about it, this will not happen again.

Fear of stuff like that is ridiculous because they probably have their planet’s issues under control. Most civilizations that learn how to fix the problems on their planet know that. This planet is buzzing with problems. It will always have them though, since problems keep life interesting. Threats of nuclear war concern the real Galactic Federation because if anybody drops the bomb, they might have to directly intervene. They also have the technology to push asteroids away from nearly hitting us with close flybys. We are not the most non-judgmental people on this planet. Many of us have problems judging others. So you imagine how we will treat people from other planets?

Many will treat them with resentment, since they have spent thousands of years behind the scenes. They are quiet manipulators who have provided us with technology for computer parts through the reverse engineering of downed UFOs. This is why aliens make me suspicious. The bottom-line is that I do not trust them as far as I could throw them. Knowing they think of us as primitive species, they will seek to give us advice we will not want. Even if we already have a secret space program that some people do know about thanks to Youtube videos on the subject. Getting warp technology to the commoner will take thousands of years. Maybe the rest of this century, in particular if there are off-world officers somewhere in our solar system and beyond? We have been interfered with, since the modern human evolved, and if they have tampered with our genes, then that is interference. The prime directive is a myth from Star Trek to make us feel better because we have been completely interfered with. It is worse than money laundering in Congress. This is why we can’t trust many aliens, since there are good and bad aliens out there anyway. They have spent thousands of years watching us. When they actually try to come up to us to have coffee with us, well, this will be monumental and we might not be so kind to some of them because of prejudice that is hard to unlearn.

We need to start protesting attempts to rework pre-existing condition back into health care. It all comes down to money. Republicans want to get more money. They are greedy, unscrupulous humans. They take money from the NRA. Their goal is to service only rich people. These sorts of Republicans are not moderate. They want to kill disabled people through denying them health coverage. Such a Nazi-like thing to do because I don’t get the tea party at all since everybody needs to be taken care of. Yet the population does nothing. We need to start having incredible health care rights protest.

We need to engage in civil disobedience without being arrested. Or perhaps if we are blood thirsty enough, getting arrested. Disability means keeping people low income in perpetuity if you have nothing like I do. This is why I stay put. Sooner or later I’m going to have to take the risk of monetizing my blog, which I need to get done. I am also playing Safeway Monopoly, so if anybody wants to donate their pieces to me if they aren’t playing, I would definitely like to have some.

Something needs to be done about health care. This is why I want to go to Law School to study law so that I can become a politician. This is the only way I feel that is open for me to make a difference. I can make a difference in this world with a law degree that says I will under-employ myself as a paralegal, since I want to be a pro-bono disability rights lawyer. Some ex-friend of mine wanted to start a law firm serving disabled people. Borg Space is just too far away for me to go from San Jose.

And anyway, she’s too busy dating somebody self-destructive to see that she might get somewhere if she sets goals. No. No cigar there. I’m the one with goals, who needs friends who have them. People who think they want something more out of life, those of us who are movers and shakers. I like tough bitches who want to protest health care rights with me. People who want to join the fight to do something about this. Why is the Republican voting block weird about the fact they use social security as much as the next person but they bitch at liberals who have it just as much as they do?

The time for extremist ideologies is over. I can’t abide Republican Nazis anymore than the next person. Republicans have a backwards opinion on health care. If they have disability, they are getting free medical care. This is the best-kept secret in the United States. My whole childhood I didn’t know about SSI. I knew nothing. Nobody told me about this. I had to get it to get myself treatment as an adult. I’m frustrated as a low-income person. Significant income gets you booted. This is why I’m attempting to monetize my blog, if only because I want to try to make extra money off of it, as an experiment, to see if you really can make extra money. Having money is about gathering momentum. Your benefits get cut the second you make significant income. But you still get your meds. You have to buy insurance. This why I’m trying to get into health care advocacy, to make sure everybody has that right.

I have a list of discrimination on the part of companies that refuse to hire disabled people. Except for that insurance company that offers work-life balance. This has to wait until I monetize my blog, which is a yearly fee. I’m trying to write lots of copy to make sure that I can earn at least 100 dollars by 2/28/18. I’m going to file a complaint against my old company that let me go for no good reason as well as deleted my work record which was proof I did something for them. They claimed I didn’t get enough done, oh I’m sorry, that’s an unjust lie I’m calling them out in public for.

All I want is a freakin’ part-time job at a Pretzel store without being scrutinized as “oh I have a disability.” For this to happen, I have to quit being chicken and turn in all my applications in person. I also have to go back to GNC to see about getting an interview. GNC is a great pre-medical school job because I get to learn about natural medicine stuff. Now I’m the biggest skeptic on the planet, but Reiki has happened to heal my knee. It is bending more, it is functional, and it is finally on the mend. This healing process has taken two long years, too long. For the insurance job I have to pay up. I need to make an extra $100 of copywriting this month in order to monetize my blog. The blood test will help a lot with you guessed it, $100 of extra income. Yes, I have a disability. I can more or less sleep at night. But I do wake up often, and I’m just waiting on winning the middle of the night blood sugar testing battles.

It is an ingrained habit I learned how to do on my own. I can wake myself up, goddamn it. I frankly, am sick to death of companies messing around with me. I feel like nobody will hire me because of my disability. Of course, that might be family brainwashing kicking in. I endured being an Uber driver, until I got into an accident. That just shows I had the balls to do it. Nobody in the Ex’s family bothered to say, oh you were brave for trying. Just, “it wasn’t a good fit,” oh I’m sorry, I made 10 trips, I got a bonus. I sold my car in that same month.

I had to break up with somebody only because it wasn’t working, and my energy was being fed on. I only hang out with stable people, who acknowledge their illnesses. I have plenty of stable friends these days. So yeah, I only hang out with people who take their meds. That is the bottom-line for you medication skippers who enjoy making yourselves unstable. Hypocrite is too big of a word for them since they were the ones who preached medication taking daily to me when I would skip my meds. But now I’m stable because I’m consistent. Don’t you dare fuck yourself up again.

I can pay for online pagan school like Greyschool.com and for Penn Foster, online accredited school. But I can’t pay for real school. This is a source of aggravation for me. A source of massive aggravation because my family refuses to pay for my further education, I have to pay for it myself. Unlike more spoiled people, I have been told no. This means I have to earn an income I pay for myself. I cannot go to Foothill College until my knee is better all the way. Foothill has many hillsides I have to climb. I’m also taking the bus, which makes this a very long trip.

I want to earn some extra income for real school. I found a no-pressure believing insurance company where I’m expected to pay up and earn a license. This is why I have to build extra income. Also, I’m earning $100 from a study in which there is a blood draw involved. I’m making money off of 22q. If I become a billionaire, I want to start scholarships for mentally ill students, and students with genetic disorders of all kinds. I want to be able to split the fee with some and give others a full ride, like I had with my Pell grant in college.

My t-shirts could be what makes me a billionaire, with money to start businesses. I’m hell-bent on taking every biology class at De Anza there is because I want to get all my undergraduate level equivalent coursework out of the way. Pre-med is long. I want to make sure I take essential classes only. I don’t want to dawdle in undergrad level biology anymore than I have to. There is also an advantage to take physics at the undergrad level too. Given that I might wind up taking physics pass no pass, and I have to do a bunch of math on my own at home until I can afford to go back to school.

At De Anza, it is my goal to take my entrance test to see if I place higher after learning math on my own for another shitty low-income year. If I place better than I used to it means my medication is repairing my brain. Mania itself can cause brain damage. I pay attention to my shrinks since I want to be one. Drinking can also cause untold horror to your brain function, which I see in my own family. Oh Gods. Some people will never get better though. They continue with obscene habits. If anybody dares bring alcohol to my house, they will be forced to leave it outside.

My medication will probably place me higher than I have ever placed. I want to take basic math to brush up, and then algebra, to get the A. If I can pass algebra, that means I can pass calculus. I took algebra five times in 5 years to see if I could pass it in junior college. When I got a C, I passed. My alcoholism back then slowed me down. It also affected my performance. Now that I’m sober, I can do better. That is the bottom-line. Nobody is going to fuck that up. I can only pay for online school for now, Greyschol is an $8 scholarship, and Penn Foster is $49. I want to take a paralegal course there next since I have no hope of getting in one at a junior college.