I find shamanism interesting in so many ways. It is quite the fascination for me. This is because I think I might have talent in this department. I’m not so much the person who has connections with nature though. I have seen fairies with my own etheric eyes, and I have seen an aspen grove that was deeply interconnected in Tahoe. I already know I have mediumship, which means I function as an intermediary between this world and the spirit world. https://www.shamanism.com/. My uncle has recently passed. He is now beloved dead, aware of my past, present, and future. He is able to assist me by protecting me along with the other ancestral spirits.
I want to learn traditional shamanism, not the New Age version. I want to learn form an actual Native American shaman, not somebody white who has learned the practice while being guilty of cultural appropriation. Shamans heal the individual as well as the community. The website I found says that shamanic practices are supposed to go on until the end of time, in order for our world to continue as it is. Lots of great science fiction can come out of this one.
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Psychic hearing is not like psychic feeling. It is about knowing what you hear, in particular, a voice. Since I have schizophrenia, that means I’m often not sure which voice is the illness, paranoia or actual intuition. Yes, schizophrenia provides endless barrels of crazy laughs. My voices do not always occur when a loved one is involved. Clairaudience is one talent of mine that makes me absolutely batty. I mean, seriously, hearing people’s thoughts verbally makes me want to lose it. I get anxious. Fortunately, I can now go shopping without this being a drag. Actually working outside of the house will occur when my knee injury totally heals. Then that can happen. But for now, I’m stuck with a gimpy situation.
As a skeptic, I’m high in all talents including psychic hearing, which as I’ve established, drives me crazy. I mean totally bonkers. Apparently, psychic hearing comes from above the ears. Yes, the book has a total diagram I have no idea how to paste into this blog. There are differences between the inner and outer ear hearing. Listening to background conversation is hell for me because I can hear every conversation in a room, however softspoken. In this, Smallville got it right. The inward temporal lobe area is what focuses above ear level.
Psychic hearing is about silently voicing your thoughts, as well as sitting still to get an answer. Once you yank an answer out of the silence, you can figure out how to get something done. Psychic hearing is all about figuring out the answers from that quiet voice inside your head. Now, since I have schizophrenia, I do not trust this ability as far as I could throw it. I can use this ability “ten to fifteen minutes before meeting someone”(98). I’m the sort of person who can gather intent in like that time frame, as well as throw my own first impression in their face, not limited to but including my own opinion while that first blush is on their best behavior. I can tell or read past that best behavior crap. This scared the living shit out of my roommates in Fall 2004. Yes, I scared them to death. You can hear things like your name being called before somebody actually calls you.
Sometimes psychic hearing is about getting useful “echo” answers from yourself if you could believe that. Psychic hearing is the faculty most associated with mental telepathy, and yes, this ability drives me totally crazy. Psychic hearing can be a loud thing while being the best sense for thought projection. People high in the psychic hearing, like me, can hear when people are lying to them, get keyword mantras, and can send psychic thoughts. In martial art class once, I was busy in imagining I was Xena mode and I thought I heard somebody mumble “I will be watching you Xena” as I was practicing kicking against the window but not kicking the actual window. I get massive psychic overload from this ability. I’m a doubter who does talk myself out of ESP though. I do come on very strong to people sometimes since my thoughts get loud. And this is what it is like to be high in psychic hearing.
Works Cited
Sanders, Pete A. Jr. You Are Psychic: The Free SoulMethod-An M.I.T.-trained scientist’s proven program for expanding your psychic powers. 1989 Ballantine Books. Random House.
Clear feeling sucks. I will say it again, I complain about this ability because it causes me literal physical pain. My mind and body ache just thinking about this particular ditty of a skill. Crowds exhaust me no matter where I go. I suppose I give my energy away too much. I’m trying to learn not to be a bleeding heart healer. Oh, my heart weeps for the suffering. Really, now, I can’t fix everybody. I have way too much sympathy for idiots, and I need to stop doing this. I need to find some naturopath out there who can help me fix my feeling of exhaustion when I do go out. Hell, I am trying to sleep 11 hours a night but I still feel tired from nocturnal waking up at night to check my blood sugar, which is an endless task I’m almost succeeding at having perfect diabetes about.
My solar plexus, according to Sanders, functions as an antenna. My body aches are from the constant input that is without my knee injury notwithstanding. Chakras are energy centers. Many human cultures believe in this stuff. I don’t necessarily know why. Or if I believe in it but if it is a fact of energetic anatomy, I can still derive bemusement from people who do believe in it. Psychic feeling is all about, well, feeling. Feelings, nothing more than feelings. It is one ability that drives me endlessly crazy with the feeling stuff. I ooze feeling for others. At my spiritualist church, I was able to do psychometry right off the bat during my blue eyeshadow days. Now thatI’m on proper medication, blue eyeshadow is something I can apply correctly. I’m very tempted to buy some.
Never lie to a feeler or upset them because they assume itis direct at themselves. I have had job situations where I’m feeling not needed. Or valuable. Yes, feelings are what makes me an empath. I can’t deny that. Empathy and schizophrenia are a hellish combination to live with though. Somehow, I have learned detachment through my meditation studies. I try to detach from cravings, for example. I’m not necessarily a people person, I try not to make small talk with people because I feel everything they are hiding, feeling, or trying not to say. I don’t want to develop an arrogance complex,i.e. an ability to throw things in people’s faces that they are hiding. Yes, this ability aggravates me. I get frustrated. I get pissed at it. This is why I need martial arts once a week to twice a week just to not be a bitch.
Works Cited
Sanders, Pete A. Jr. You Are Psychic: The Free SoulMethod-An M.I.T.-trained scientist’s proven program for expanding your psychic powers. 1989 Ballantine Books. Random House.
My life is no longer about constant, extreme fear. Sure that’s what it used to be about, but these days, it is mostly about being mellow and overcoming the intense fear. I used to have to stare down the fear daily while in school. My whole freshman year was about bullies making fun of me feeling suicidal, telling me how to kill myself properly. I had to resist suicidal impulses without medication. I was angry daily, at the bullies in my Spanish class who would cat-call my name. This is why I feel my old school owes me money. It might be a great way to raise money while knocking on their door.
I’m also thinking about how to raise money for my non-profit this way. But see, I wish to use my own income working on the non-profit, as I need donations. I was wondering how to get those donations from corporate and celebrity sponsors if possible. My non-profit seeks to get disabled people or chronically ill folks jobs. Sometimes, it is hard to find a job with a chronic illness, which is why people find their way to SSI and Medical. At least my parents have been gone twelve days give or take when the door hit their ass on the way out.
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