You can intimidate almost anybody because you can make sure they don’t have a chance to intimidate you back. If you have to yell at somebody, you can be more intimidating than the person yelling at you. Case in point, the security guard company I interviewed at last year-I intimidated him by telling him he was using favoritism with the guy who showed up late just like me. But he screamed at me because I yelled at him back not to mistreat me by showing favoritism. I saw many complaints about this company online when I got home.
For a tall person to get yelled at by somebody smaller, for him to even feel intimidated by lil’o ’ me, that would shame this guy who took his pride in being able to push people around as a security guard. I did contact human resources immediately after this altercation because the second I said that I had a B.A. in creative writing, this guy made me get up and leave. He didn’t react to me with one second of normal. He was odd. He was breathing hard in his chair, practically wheezing/sighing.
I complained to the company about him. But well, they didn’t seem surprised or inclined to help me further even if he had embarrassed them with his unprofessional and outright weird behavior. Bullies want you to feel their behavior is your fault, this is also common with emotional or psychological abuse. Victims of such abuse often walk around saying, “It’s my fault,” when in fact, the abuser is trying to make it look like it was their victim’s fault. The truth is, I have discovered that abusers enjoy making their victims feel the need to apologize all the time long after they have probably, escaped their attacker.
Bullies want to intimidate you, and that is why you have to intimidate them back. They are intimidated by honest as well. The bully doesn’t think that honesty is a plus. They lie a lot because lying is part of their bullying scenario. Bullies are all mean in the end because they live to bring their victim down. Sometimes, mere presence intimidates bullies. As in, they thought they had scared you away, but you stayed put. You entered that classroom or boardroom. They quit intimidating you.
I was bullied in a support group. It was a 12-step group as I have been in several due to my addiction problems that I’ve finally let go of, I was bullied by somebody with hostility problems that she eventually didn’t have so many of once I got to know her. I had to work very hard on my own problems, in particular, my anxiety. I told the hostile person that “there is no need for your hostility” at some point because I caught her in the act once. She then moved her group to her hometown, and we found common ground discussing the gym we both went to, in her case, before she met me.
The thing is, bullies pick on people they perceive as “different.” Then again I have come to realize I’m not so different, sure I’m schizophrenic, but I’m not that different in the end, no matter how much I’ve been picked on, even by family. Intimidating somebody can occur when you are scaring them using a trait like “I’m from another country,” to take advantage of their fear that you are aware of. Putting a bully in their place feels good if you do it right, bad if you go below the belt without integrity, and is in general, necessary. Bullies do not often survive. Dishonest relational bullies are people I cannot be around, period. In the end, we all have to fight bullies, there may not be getting around this.
Marijuana can be a miracle drug, the great healer, but it is not a solution to pain problems. I was getting secondary highs from being around a smoker. Marijuana pretty much crept into my life. I am not sure if I experienced my short-term memory is impaired or not. Medication already does that sometimes although I think I could handle school better now given that I’m calmer. My mood swings are taken care of by my medication, which is why I do not need to self-medicate although I know some people use marijuana to relax even if they do take medication.
Some of my readings say that marijuana (https://vapingdaily.com/quit-smoking/quit-weed/) affects the growth of brain cells but see, I was already in my twenties when I exposed myself to it more. Marijuana can be like cigarettes with the same effects. I have high blood pressure and it is treated only in the present. In the past, I tried to brush treatment under the rug since I was scared my family wouldn’t bother. Now that my health care is under my control, I managed to get myself treated. It isn’t just a medication side effect, I have had high blood pressure since my twenties, and this is perhaps an effect of marijuana exposure on my body?
Cold turkey is one method of quitting but there are withdrawals involved. Marijuana can be a way of self-medicating anxiety or mental illness symptoms in general. Medical aid can help marijuana smokers quit. Some can do a 12-step program. Drug rehab helps heavier smokers, who sometimes have comorbid stuff going on like alcohol use and marijuana rolled into one. Rehab offers medical help for all withdrawal symptoms. While marijuana works for pain, it doesn’t take away all of it. Counseling also offers a low-intensity setting, unlike rehab, as a way of quitting smoking marijuana. Exercise may help withdrawal symptoms. Withdrawal symptoms include irritability, depression, insomnia, restlessness, and headaches. Water and coffee can treat lethargy brought on by not smoking marijuana. Finding a healthy replacement activity can help you with quitting as can going on vacation, while reducing the amount you smoke in an exact manner. Sometimes withdrawing from marijuana also causes stomach pain although the munchies are what keep smokers fat. Withdrawal can affect your appetite. But quitting is what is the most beneficial to your health.
There are many kinds of anxiety disorders, generalized, OCD, social anxiety disorder, panic disorder, PTSD, and specific phobias. However, I think marijuana can be a touch addictive since I was around it a lot in my adult life because somebody I knew used to smoke it. I got secondary contact highs that made me test positive. Marijuana helps Effexor brain shivers a lot, as well as chronic pain anyway. Cannabis in creams certainly can help the physical pain. Constant anxiety and stress used to be something I was dealing with on a daily basis. But now, I can honestly say I feel better.
My medication keeps extreme fear away. It helps me decide that I’m in the driver’s seat. I’m in control, and the thing is, I fear crowds. Lecture halls dazzle me but I need a small school although UCLA has what I need, everything that is. This time I cannot escape statistics. Anxiety can cause shortness of breath, fatigue, and restlessness. Buspar helps me control my anxiety and at least my doctor will renew it since I have proof it works. Anxiety means that few people seek treatment, so terrified are they of the stigma. I’m grateful for my medication.
I’ve toughed out using infusion on a regular basis. This website (https://www.marijuanadoctors.com/conditions/anxiety-disorders/) states that marijuana can be used as an alternative to medication. GABA is a neurotransmitter that manages anxiety levels and medication helps GABA levels go up. You can find it in a natural supplement store. Marijuana can apparently, manage the amount of GABA in your brain. The cortisol hormone causes stress to go up. But marijuana can help reduce the amount of cortisol. Marijuana, however, also causes psychosis, which can trigger anxiety. Marijuana must be used wisely because it can become addictive. The more you use, the worse anxiety can get. Different strains of marijuana help anxiety. Strains such as Northern Lights can help you sleep along with relieving pain. Amnesia Haze, on the other hand, has 20% Sativa in it, since it won’t make you as tired as other species with more Indica, at the level of 100%. Sativa can boost mood along with energy but the thing is, I don’t want to have positive pee tests as marijuana is legal at the state level but not at the federal level. Sometimes pain levels require the use of more marijuana and this can be detrimental to anxiety disorders that get worse. All things in moderation.
I have spent my whole life stressed out. I now know what it is like to not have heavy stress on me just the last two years alone since my parents moved. High levels of stress in your life are not healthy to maintain. Stress can erode your immune system. What happens to you is that your brain feels threatened by stress. If your brain concocts stress for you, then your body will respond by causing damage to your systems without you knowing what is happening to you. I’m a type 1 diabetic who can literally feel a brain cell dying when I have severe low blood sugar.
Prolonged stress can make type 1-diabetes much worse. A work from home job would cause me less stress. I am now in control of my life because I dumped two friends of mine who were high maintenance as well as my family. (https://www.helpguide.org/articles/stress/stress-management.htm). I’m in control of my life in the now, since according to The Relaxation & Stress Reduction Workbook, too much stress can cause “a prolonged stress response can worsen conditions such as arthritis, chronic pain, and diabetes. There are also some indications that the continued release and norepinephrine during a state of chronic stress can contribute to depression and anxiety (3).
My medication helps me with stress management since I’m no longer an anxious wreck although my anxiety does make me sense stuff when I’m giving a psychic reading. Procrastination is a huge source of stress for me because I am learning how not to fall victim to it. I’m eventually going to go to Michael’s to finish my Greyschool.com assignment. I’m working on a psychic arts degree but stress factors into my procrastination with my work sometimes for that school. I tend to lapse into “I don’t want to” mode. This is why I need to make more progress to get to year 6. Someday soon, I will be done.
My stress quiz actually wound up at 95, because I have less of a chance to get ill. Stress from my mental illnesses can cause me more stress. This is why I make sure to keep my life low stress. I know when I’m too stressed out to do something. Today I slept in from 6-8 a.m., which has me feeling great despite the high that then led to a low. I was sleeping in while low, and this is not a good thing but eventually, I woke up. I used to have a knee that I could use in physical exercise. My knee is coming back slowly though. For the next month, I intend on using a stress journal. Breathing and releasing tension are all stress management techniques. Meditation does lower my blood pressure, which is chronically high due to stress, my medication, and something I have had since I was 19, if only because of my health problems caused by my untreated schizophrenia. Now that I’m treated though, stress almost doesn’t exist for me. Sure there is financial stress from being low income, but that is not necessarily a big deal since I signed up for virtual assisting. I’d say, on the whole, I feel great today.
People who cannot stay in one relationship when they drift towards others are addicted to relationships. These are people who are unable to break up with their partners. Some sex addicts are addicted to sex acts themselves or view sex as a biological function. Some addicts have irritability when they do not have sex, as some are also alcoholic. Sex addiction manifests when an individual is unable to stop seeing a person even if you know they have destructive or self-destructive tendencies. (https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/sex-lies-trauma/201106/sex-and-love-addiction-whats-the-difference) A high can come from romantic behaviors or fantasies. Love addiction is an addiction to a relationship itself.
Some have problems with idealized romantic relationships that they find appealing. Even an avoidance of sex, love or emotional attachment is seen as a problem. (https://slaafws.org/). As it is now, my problem is avoiding attachments to anybody. Even if I start school whether online classes or in the classroom, I’m still going to have to fend off the boys. This, in fact, makes me paranoid. This is why I avoid boys in general or men my age only. It is important to date in your age bracket. This is the mature and sensible thing to do anyway. A three-year age difference is not significant.
But 10 years? Not that great. If you do not hear back from a man, and you think dark, depressing things, you have a problem. Dating is fraught with peril. One thing I know for sure is that I want to be with someone available for the right reasons. I’m patient enough to wait it out, not get married because all my friends are getting married. No. I’m patient enough to wait. Male sex addicts do that whole massage parlor or strip club thing. (https://www.glamour.com/story/realities-of-sex-and-love-addiction). I want to be with somebody healthy enough to have the self-love necessary to make themselves feel better by taking care of themselves. As in, if on medication, being consistent, treated for their bad habits, such as drinking, and in general doing well by working part-time or full-time but able to balance their time reasonably because they are able to set boundaries with people. If a guy doesn’t text me back, I’m like, whatever. I have other stuff to do. I stay busy. I might start volunteering for a domestic violence shelter in the hopes I can start one of my own for people escaping abusive families. I have a bunch of non-profit start-up guides that can help me piece this together. Time to read a lot this weekend and I know to avoid toxic situations, people, or men.
There is this thing called medication that represses or eliminates the feeling of horniness that comes with being on the bipolar spectrum. Yes, it is true, that some people feel like they can conquer the world when manic or grandiose, which often comes along with mania. Bipolar people have a sex drive from mania but medication can treat this eventuality by helping to control those brain chemicals. Some bipolars get into bad situations with the opposite sex when horny and manic. This is why I stay in, I take my meds, and I’m not out on the prowl.
I have to be very careful with this behavior, as I’m not sterile yet. I will not engage in such high-risk behavior at all. You see, I have health problems, which may make finding a relationship difficult or not. I have to really trust somebody real world to make sure they aren’t a violent shit. I have to be wary of who I talk to. Or whom I meet in the real world. I do not want or need a relationship right now. I really don’t. I mean I’m staying away from men in general because I feel like it. Men are dangerous.
In particular, if they call you pretty like that one guy on the light-rail who tries to do this to me. I tell him to shut up. I told him to shut up once, he tried saying hello to me, and I avoided him. I told him- that “I thought I told you not to talk to me.” Never mind the times I have been hit on when I was taking the bus, I had one guy on the 27 hit on me who tried to touch me via fist bumping. I declined and told him off. The other guy on the 22 said: “do you have a husband or a boyfriend?” I said no, and you will not be getting my phone number.
I do not have self-destructive behaviors, unlike others. I do not flirt with every guy I see or give away my phone number. That is a safety thing. I had a workman try to flirt with me when he was looking at my sink. He asked me out to dinner, I declined and told him I had food at home. All men out there; quit flirting with me. I do not appreciate your attention based on my looks alone. Looks aren’t everything. Please see my brain first before my body that is not for you alone.
Schizophrenics do get addicted to cigarette smoke as well as alcohol. Alcohol is used to self-medicate if someone is not taking medication. Many a bum on the street feels like this. Schizophrenic thinking is about delusions and hallucinations. Alcoholism is a common illness amongst schizophrenics anyway, besides. (https://www.dualdiagnosis.org/schizophrenia-alcoholism/) Schizophrenia, when left untreated, is a problem where thoughts race all the time from the beginning of the day until the end of the day. This exhausted me as a child. I started drinking at 18 because it was allowed. Drinking is a self-destructive habit that some people know they need to stop doing.
Schizophrenia can be quite stressful for those of us who have it since you never know what your brain will do to you next. The voices stop with medication helping you to stop them. The voices say demeaning things to us schizophrenics, as in, you suck, die, stop trying. This is why taking medication is the only way to treat schizophrenia. Schizophrenia causes disorganized thoughts among other symptoms such as delusions or hallucinations. Meds help a schizophrenic take a good look at their thinking, as in, if that is a bizarre delusion or a rational thought that your medication is helping you see.
Support groups help schizophrenics cope better with their illness. Schizophrenia is often found amongst drug addicts as well. Schizophrenics like me have trouble with work, socializing, and social interaction. I had to work on improving my social skills while at Toastmasters. That was the whole point of joining a club like that, to learn how to feel positive about me as well as how to get along with other people. Many homeless people are schizophrenic along with suicide being a huge problem schizophrenic deal with. (https://americanaddictioncenters.org/schizophrenia-and-addiction/). In my teens, and early twenties I had schizophrenia symptoms abound. Sometimes us schizophrenics total our cars for no reason, as I’ve had friends with schizophrenia had this happen before. Medication helps take care of random impulses.
Schizophrenia is both a biochemical imbalance as well as a brain structure problem. Much of the disorder is inherited and I know who in my family has schizophrenia. Shall we say that if two people mate while having the disorder, they will have a child with schizophrenia? This is obvious but to the non-scientifically inclined, they miss the point. Environmental effects can make for schizophrenia being difficult to deal with or to diagnose. I didn’t get diagnosed until my 30s. Drugs can cause a person to feel schizophrenic. Sometimes overcoming drug and alcohol abuse is necessary to become a healthy person with schizoaffective in my case.
I need individual therapy as well as trauma therapy. I need OCD therapy, schizophrenia therapy and my bipolar is well treated at this point. There is no extra money for either. Being able to lead a productive life involves taking your medication consistently which some people do not know how to do. Maybe some bipolars can get away with not taking medication, but others really need it, if only because rapid cycling can be hard to treat. I’m a rapid cycler, my family is full of rapid cyclers and narcissists. But narcissism is a learned behavior that can be unlearned through therapy. But no, the treatment refusers don’t want to unlearn it. They think they are perfect. Sigh. Somebody help me avoid those people and come with me to Shasta.
Today’s post is about sexual harassment since I’m going to clarify exactly what makes somebody’s behavior such. Sexual harassment is defined as unwanted sexual advances, so if a coworker asks you out on a date, this is designed to make you feel uncomfortable. Dating a coworker is quite difficult. You cannot just give it up to the said coworker because they will take advantage of you. You cannot harass people for their gender, not even a woman harassing a man. Gender is variable these days. You cannot harass somebody for being gender non-conforming, anyway. Gender non-conforming people are not inclined to label themselves male or female in a binary way. Non-binary means you do not conform to one gender.
Sexual harassment includes picking on somebody for being homosexual. Making offensive comments about gay people or women is all about harassing somebody with those profane comments. Flirting with a woman on the job is also sexual harassment. Brainwashing a woman into taking your abuse is definitely emotional abuse/sexual harassment. Making for a hostile work environment also counts as sexual harassment. Sexual harassment is a negative thing to do somebody. Some men have a long history of sexual harassment because they want to.
Sometimes, asking a coworker out on a date repeatedly until they say yes, counts as sexual harassment. Not knowing somebody else’s boundaries is a part of the act of sexual harassment. Putting up pictures demeaning women causes a hostile work environment as well. It may be best to leave environments where sexual harassment happens. Simple teasing is not against the law but making crude comments is. Frequent sexual harassment is against the law. Starting a relationship at work means that one party has to find a new job. Otherwise, the relationship won’t be able to manifest since that arrangement makes working more complicated. You do not want to be manipulated into a relationship by somebody who starts one via sexual harassment.
I used to get contact highs from inhaling marijuana smoke because I used to hang out with somebody who smoked. He was careful about his smoke when there were people in the yard. I’m clean now though because I quit hanging out with this person. Marijuana only makes you feel better temporarily because it works in the moment to calm you down. I’m okay with people who use both meds and marijuana, however, I feel uncomfortable around marijuana in the past as well as the present. Contact highs got into my system, but I realize that marijuana is addictive. I gave it up.
Marijuana is not an easy drug to break your habit of. In the end, I had to stay away from somebody who smoked. Well, anybody who smokes at least. I once took a pee test for a shelter, it was positive for marijuana. I had to make myself single because being around someone who smoked was triggering. Growing up I was an inhalant junkie. So I already knew something about sniffing stuff and getting high. I was forced to quit inhalants alone because nobody saw it fit to let me tell a doctor I was doing that.
I had to get through separation from the Ex, one week at a time, one day at a time, one month at a time. I managed to succeed at quitting being around other smokers. I feel less spacey. Although marijuana did work for stuff like taking a medication such as Effexor, which I needed in my remote past to manage my anxiety as well as get organized. For a psychic, marijuana can make your abilities go out of control. Until my knee injury, I had to exercise a lot to keep the weight off, which I succeed at until my injury forced me to have a sedentary lifestyle. These days, I’m stable. I’m trying to avoid the Bay Area show scenes because of the marijuana floating around in that environment. I’m now clean of marijuana smoke although last night somebody was smoking in public and I smelled it. It smelled gross and I had to cover my nose. I’m so done with that substance, totally done.
iriavp 